i think we've studied too much. i think we're at the point of going screw loose. well.... mel chua's name has been changed to guanying ma. cuz yujun says her actions are similar. mine? ha. minus the y from my name. both our names rhyme. been trying to come up with some 'ma' name for the ppl sitting beside both of us but we've not been very successful. but we came up with garlic and pipette filler. i dunno why. guess who's who? well....we also came up with rose for jasmine. since she loves her flower name too much. hA.

oh yes. happy 16th bdae to ah ruo!! yesterday, that is.

english prelim next monday. and 75% of the school is having cyberweek! i'm jealous! ergH. i also want to have cyberweek. bleah. but we rule the school. thanks. cyberweek's friday, mon, tue. wed is teacher's day celebration. thurs is teacher's day. fri is last day of school. what kinda???? lame. anyway... i'm supposed to play the violin for teachers day thing. haven gotten the notes for the chorus yet. and dunno whether can coordinate with the guitar and the singing ppls. well...hopefully!~

i've been busy studying. and will be at least until after prelims....or o lvls. poor bloggie. dont miss me ok?~

i'm irritated and pisst. that's all i have to say.~

today is totally boring. i havent even put an inch of my foot outta my house. let's see... i did my physics paper, a math paper, e math tys, chem paper... oops. i just love sciences and maths. ha. but other than that....it's damn boring la?

wondering whether i sld go for fop tmr. not that i dun wanna go. but it ends quite late and i'm quite scared of going home late at night. besides that, i'm all for it. anyway... that's sunday. monday...charlie and the chocolate factory! tuesday... brithday for xt. wednesday... i'm gonna study the whole day. i hope it rains. so i wun feel so lethargic like today. why does it always rain only when i'm in school? as if that's a great thing.

i'm getting a headache. maybe because i breathed in too much uHh...what do you call that? that thing in nail polishes. no. i didnt polish my nails. i wont risk getting caught yA? hA.

oh yeA. i think felix is mad. i told her that a million times! she was at the stadium at 2.30 in the afternoon. she told me had to line up. really? how come i didnt have to do that last year? we just went in and sat last year. is it that full this year? i wonder. i know i'm going mad. study too much.~

today...is sian!! supposed to go fop...but i feel very lazy. in fact... lazy to do everything! lazy to study... blah blah blah. not that i have a lot of time to change my blog skin...but i did anyway. sian.

maybe i'll go tmr? see my mood.~

i cant get into maplestory. because there's too many ppl! wow. well anyway, i have a pimple on my nose brige. and my specs is resting on it... and it's pain and i have prob wearing my specs now! hAHa. i'm finally can fit the damn earrings into my ear hole! well...my left ear swelled up real bad this week. i had to remove the ear stick to clean off the pus and stuff. and i took the chance and stuffed my earring down. and it went thru! with much pain of course. my right ear hole has healed. thank god. it went thru easily.

this week is not much of a difference from the past few. but i'll highlight this. we were playing bball with xt's class when many many ppl started screaming. and...to our horror...there was a bat on the floor! baby bat!! aHHHHHH!!! they said the crow pecked it. and it was injured!! and it couldnt fly! and it was struggling on the floor!! and it was so poor thing! AHHHHHH!! i want to cry!!! POOR THING!!! STUPID CROW!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE CROWS! i hope it didnt die! or else i'll really start to cry. oh man. thinking of it now...i really feel so sorry for it. cuz it looked so cute! seriously, i feel more for the bat than the hamster that died last year. that was to an extent....gross. but still...i cant help but like animals like that. but i hate crows!! we should just shoot all of them down. ALL. and i dun care if it upsets the food chain.

well... i'm lazy to type whatever i want to. ha. ~

felicia low asked me to blog. so here. i'm blogging. but i have nth to write because i've done nothing this week except study. arent i guai?

fop's next week. excited. hope its as gd or better than last year's. ~

i have only one thing to say.

relative velocity is hard!!!!!!!!~

this week has been... alright i guess. fun actually. from monday, our celebration of racial harmony. we all came in our ethnic costumes... and i wore indian. many wore sari.... and felix wore this pink punjabi which made her look......erRR... haha. well, mary wore the baju kurong....so she cldnt take big steps and sit in the boyish manner as she always does. i laughed. anyway...our class won the best dressed class!! yAy! had highlighters for our prize. i cant complain.

tue, wed, thurs were normal, with chinese lessons for slacking. haha. mrs ding told us chinese jokes which made us laugh like crazy. teacher's day auditions....ah. i dunno what to say. but someone was really irritating! nvm.

then came friday. i totally had no idea where my full u was... well...i managed to find it for photo taking. stayed back like a normal np session. eEk. was watching meli (who had a sexy voice) do her s4 farewell stuff. oh yea. jasmine extorted $2 from me! she pulled out the note from my wallet for some fund raising thing. as if i wasnt poor enough. the s2s lied to tiff saying that they had one last one to sell.

photo taking was quite alright. no candid shot. wonder why. and no mrs koh . wonder why too. grace, yan ni and i stood behind the officers....cuz no space for sitting down. coincidence? jarelyn stood next to grace. was laughing at her height compared to grace's. had to surrender our ranks and buttons and crest. *sob sob. after that mary, turaiya, tiff, xt, jaime and i stayed back to poke our noses into the session that day. afterall...the board put that we were welcome to join in. haha. mary and turaiya went to see the s1s while the officiers were talking to the sec2&3s. aft that we were bored. so this is what we did.

3 quarters of the s3s were gone to help mrs goh carry some things. so we made their nco and a few left fall in as a sqd. and we bullied them! played flies attack!! there were 4 of them. guess who was my target? so easy. ha. ok. like she and weilan cldnt stop laughing...altho we told them not to. they were trying their best not to laugh....um cheoing all the way. was tickling them with the leaf. and trying to make them laugh....and weilan cld still move! so funny! seriously tried very hard to make jarelyn laugh....but she was um cheo-ing all the way. then their sqd came back so we continued with the game. they were really on the verge of bursting out. suay. kana bullied by me and my sqdmates.

anyway... we decided to leave them alone and went to play with the sec2s. haha. they were trying not to laugh...but not as funny as the s3s. heard that the s1s didnt laugh. aWw. guess it's because the younger ones are scared of us? ha. anyway...we split the s1 sqd in half.... mary, suying and i were with one.... jaime, turaiya and valerie with the other. haha. heard that felicia? i almost said something that felicia wld probably kill me for....but i didnt. helped them to brush up on their drills a bit. their turnings and their marching. gosh. ha. stayed till the end of the session. i'm so dead. waited for jaime who was attending to a casualty who was hyperventilating.

"she" came. i dunno why....but mary went high! she was so enthu abt it and kept calling out to turaiya. haha. all the way till the bus stop. turaiya went to meet her anyway. haha.

oh yes! i got the harry potter book! yq has so kinf heartedly lent it to me! she managed to get it from the library. which was lucky. seriously. so i got to read it for free. and am going to read it now! sEE yA!~

mel f and serene are scared of dogs. muahaha. i think i'm saddistic. this somehow connects me to hooper, whom we were doing a character analysis on this morning. i let the dog out. haha. they ran far far away. well anyway... the planning went well...but the typing.... meli and serene were running away most of the time.

then serene and i went to heartland to eat. i was waiting for my turn in the toilet when serene came and told me she saw ms ferng. "where!?!?!" so we ran all the way to find her. haha. we talked to her for a while... she was asking us to go home after we ate lunch. haha. didnt know she wld visit heartland. anyway.... serene and i went to eat yoshi. and guess who we met? ms gan. gosh. yea. we said hi. and i wanted to run away. but i didnt. haha. then we walked ard and went to hougang mall. supposed to meet xt...but she took a long long long long time. so we were just walking ard. xt came at abt 1.45... as if i'm not "lucky" enough, we saw mrs loo. how "lucky" can one person get in a day?!?

anyway... i bought new earrings and wanted to wear them. took out my right earring and there was pus. eEeWw. wiped it off and then... i cldnt put back the damn earring! i just cldnt find the back hole. of course it bled. so i didnt dare take out my left earringl. and was still battling with my right one. i sought help frm xt....but she oso didnt really know. finally plucked up the courage to let my mom do it... cuz i was scared of pain! she didnt manage to put it in either. well... she put it from the back to see whether the hole had closed. and it hadnt. it went thru! and now i have to leave it upside down until tmr. this sucks. i'm never taking out my earring until after my o's!~

finally able to come online. well actually... i feel a bit guilty for not studying. heck. it's the weekend. i'm lonely. crap.

poor mary. she's sick. she's seldom sick. well... she doesnt even sound sick. she didnt come to school ytd and today. ms lau said she was love sick! hahahaha!! so anyway.... felicia sat with me. haha. i cldnt pay attention to lessons. kept talking to her. so different from when i'm sitting next to mary. but poor mary. she missed quite a lot. but i dun miss her. ha.

anyway.... i decided to be the evil one and wrote a million hmk for her. all made up. ha. so many.... wonder how she took it. i wrote all over her papers....that's what u get for sitting next to me and not coming. anyway.... no lunch at home. went to central to eat with felix. ate mee pok! yeA! my favourite stall. felix ate real slow. r e w o l s. anyway... we sat down and talked for a long time. looooooooooooooooong. met mh and colleen.

felix wanted to pass mary her hmk b4 she went home..so called her from the interchange. i told mary that felix didnt come to school today! hAhA! i think she was quite shocked. and i cldnt stop laughing. felix was laughing like crazy. anyway.... we told her the tremendous amt of "hmk" . i think it scared her. ha. poor thing. got tortured by me even tho she didnt come to school.

whatEvEr. i'm so lonely and bored! and lazy to study. ha.~

I just realised how true this statement is.

Why spend 4 years of your life fighting with your friends about some position when ultimately what you'll miss is not that but the good and bad times u had together?~

i have a slight ear infection. thanks.

i'm totally bored outta my mind now. let's talk about oral. o lvl oral. the passage was.... difficult. i didnt know how to read.... a million words. ha. i told mrs goh. anyway.... the bao zhang bao dao was on terrorism. preventing terrorism in s'pore is like treating a serious illness. do you agree. i was able to talk. but unable to express myself. serene was talking abt that this morning...so i had some idea. and the oral session with mrs goh ytd...which i didnt go...she happened to talk abt it. thanks. the ri chang hua ti was if you wld to encounter difficulties who would u seek help from? i said my family. well... the examiners were nice. heard one was from sji and the other from zhss.

i'm becoming more and more bhb(thanks to someone). was on my way after oral to the canteen because i was in serious need for some water. well. my mouth was dry. but anyway... they greeted me! yAy! i didnt want them to. but how can i stop one whole unit? hA. anyway. the point is....they greeted me! yAY!! ha. i'm going mad. talked to serene for a while... watched the muster parade from my class. the key got stuck while we were trying to lock the class. what kinda lock! spent some time talking to mrs ding abt the questions.

i'm so dead.~

i saw a rainbow today. third time i've seen it this month.

i have been having free entertainment at home for a few days now.~

So far, there are only 2 people who are able to make me speechless.

1: we argue till i dont know what to say
2: she's too bhb. egoistic that i really have nothing to say at all. she claims she's "humble."~

SeC fOuR fArEwELL
-24 june 2005-

was supposed to meet fen ni at 1pm. but the bus didnt come until 1pm. haha. went to grace house.... tiff had to finish up the pressies... i was playing grace's piano. xt, jaime, wx, sharon came later, we left grace house at 2.50. had to report by 3! hAhA. took a cab to the back gaTE! it was open! hAha. all we had to do was unlock it. dots... no juniors were there. we sneeked in. the rest were at the front gate. hAhA. they saw us. haha. asked us to go out!! bleah.

we waited a while more... more a few more ppl. theY came over and asked us when we were coming in...hAhA. brainless wore the incredibles tee. so cute! my gRp!! hEhE. finally went in...went to the ava theatrette. no hall. haha. anYwaY... started off with writing dedications to np...everyone or some individual. i kept demmanding light sticks. hAhA. they were playing taufik's songs! hEhE. yeah man.

proceeded with the performances. sec2s 1st. with a cool dance. and some starry thing. haHa. hMm... aft that was the sec1s.... so cute! hAha. sec1s are always so innocent. their dance was well...better than what we performed when we were sec1! hAha. we were toots then. lol. then the sec3s... they said they had no dancing genes. so they put up a stone age fashion show! hAha. it was nice for a change. all looked so funny. and suying's hair was so cute!! hAhA.

i realised they gave lotsa glass things this year. so many cups and candles and stuff....hAhA. anyway...went out for a bit of food. they kept giving us chicken. haha. talked for a while.... went down to take water...and jaime shouted turaiya's name from below... then she said "do i hear my name?" then we hid! haHa. came up and told her. she said she thought she was becoming schizophrenic. haha. took some pics with ppl... and our sqd. so many cameras.... smiled until the muscles ached. i kept disturbing jarelyn. hAha. took a pic with her. kept asking felix to take with suying. and kept telling suying to remember. hAhA.

then it was time for our song! hAhA. we sang find us faithful...but we didnt have a piano. or organ. or whatever. jarelyn asked whether wanna carry one to the ava. -_-'''. talk abt lame. yeah. they were shouting encore...but erm. no one wanted to sing again! hAha. then their unit song... "someone's watching over me" by hilary duff. haha. erm...i think that was earlier. haha. i have stm. anyway...they had this slide presention for dedications. they typed ours in. i want to thank jarelyn for her dedication to me! hAhAhA!! yAY!! made my day. altho it was a bit lame la. but what can u expect from a lamer like her? hAhA. yea. anyway.... her hair's still as cute. kept touching it. she ask me to cut liddat la. over my dead body! hAhA! they sprayed their hair orange.

then it was contact time. our 4 ncos gave a glass cup. glass. again. haha. yea. gave the bowls to sheau wei and ziying. erm...sorry ah. ppl art fail. hAhA. the glitter was coming out again. lousy. we ate the cookies the sec2s gave us. 1 whole big plate. then i went over to join felix...just to talk to her. then she said she uses real paler(player) to play songs! haHa. wanted to tell mary...but i was laughing so hard. hAhA. oh yeah. finally managed to get felix to take pic with suying. haha. tiff took 2. i took one. wow. 3 altogether. hAha. gave my grp the magnets. jarelyn was debating btwn he duck and the dog. weiwen said the duck was cuter. yeah man. she has the same taste as me!! hAHa. jarelyn took the duck in the end. the hair reminded me of hers. haha. suying took the moo moo. hehe. guess what jarelyn said? the duck's covering its pte part...cuz the hands and legs had magnets... cld stick together. haha. stupid gerl. went to give cleo. she took the donkey. hehe. i'm left with the doggie. lalalalala. took a grp photo aft that. felix ended up laughing because she said she hasnt taken a picture in ages. crazy. jarelyn was trying to get everyone to settle down...but no one seemed to be listening to her. until jasmine shouted. haha. more effective. lalalalala.

mrs koh spoke to us then. of becoming ci and stuff. oh yeah. mr tang came back!! and he cldnt remember my name!! hAhA. so funny. yeah. then it was time to go. aWwwW. had to wait for xt and tiff to finish autographing. haha. jarelyn gave me her "tie". she was so proud of it. said she tied it herself. finally went off. and the back gate was locked. thanks ah.

went to ps with a few sqdmates...to drink. so thirsty. then went home.

well....i didnt cry. haha. but i feel sad. not sad enough to cry. cuz i know we'll keep in contact. hMm.... yeaH. and we can always come back. haha. really miss np now that we've stepped down. missed all the fun times we had together. even the pumpings! everything abt np. sigh. it has really made a great impact on the 4 yrs of my sec sch life. thanks to rebecca ma'am who gave us a note of encouragement. she said we were her 1st sqd. yeah. grateful for it. so sad that we're leaving. cldnt wait to step down last time...cuz of all the stress...i was facing from sch work. but now...i dont wanna. hahA. i guess this is part and parcel of life. sigh. but its really sad. hEEx. to the s3s...all the best taking over and dont give up no matter what setbacks you face. keep the np spirit alive!!~

where in the world can u find such a nice brother? hAhA. was going to piano today. met my bro at the bus stop. he was going out to cut hair. finally he gave up and said "i give u a lift to central wan?" i thought he was joking...until he flagged a cab! hha. just then, the bus came. haha. anyway....boarded the cab. haha. reached teacher's house early. haha.

anyway...tmr's farewell. aWw. so sad. i may cry. if the moment's right. haha. shant say too much.~

i hate my life, i hate piano and i want my violin.

Shut Up by Simple Plan

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time to criticize me
It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today.

So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say can change
You'll never bring me down

So there you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do
You think you're special
But I know and I know and I know
And we know that you're not
You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today.

So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say can change
And gonna bring me down
Gonna bring me down.
Will never bring me down.
Don't tell me who I should be
Don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
Cause I don't wanna waste my time
Watch you fade away

So shut up shut up shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say can change
And gonna me down

I don't wanna hear it
Get out get out
Get out of my way
Step up step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say can change
And bring me down
Won't bring me down
Won't bring me down
Bring me down
Won't bring me down
Shut up shut up.~

neW templaTe! hEhE! had some problem with my tag board. but i guess it's ok now. and no. i wont put a password on it. haha.

anyway... i slept early and woke up early today. but was still a bit late in meeting my sqdmates. haha. i left the house at like.....10.25? i was supposed to meeet them at 10.30. walked all the way to srgn int. i took 10min. anyway....i thot i was the latest...so i walked fast. but i wasnt! there were still so many who were later than me! thanks man.

ok. went to mh's house to discuss a few things. -blah blah- hAhA. was teasing felix all the way abt ***. yeah. tiff and i. haha. (this is a compliment--> she takes jokes well.) anyway... then went to heartland to eat. were at macs... tiff, sharon and i didnt really feel like eating...so we went to the shopping mall to look at things. oh yea. met jarelyn and jasmine there. wanted to force out info abt farewell from her. but she refused to say anything. hAhA. she asked us whether we came out because we wanted to buy clothes for farewell....uUh....no?!?! hAhA. i'm not so rich.

gosh. she's peeling. haha. i know i've peeled many times. but it still grosses me out. brings back memories of kayaking and atc. haha. was scaring her abt getting skin cancer. still remembered the time where me, tiff, sharon were peeling after kayaking 2*. so many bubble thingy. eEwwW!

ok enough. anyway...we went back to eat a bit. then some of us went to ikea. again! hAhA. took 153 there. walk ard.... looking at things....here and there. kept laughing abt the heart thingy. anyway....tiff and i bought a new mouse pad. for 90 cents. it's polka dotted. went home aft 1 hr. xt and wx took 147. the rest took 153. i reached home b4 5! hAhA. i have to.

i know i haven been very punctual. but i have to be. at least until july 4. to practise my piano! gosh. it's getting nearer. and my pieces are not that good yet ya?~