sUpPosEd to go find xt at her job today... but i guess she was so tired from her first day that she cldnt wake up today. it was raining cats and dogs.. so i cldnt go out earlier to meet the rest of wols. by the time i reached heartland it was alr 3pm. well... met raf & the girls. danica wasnt in the country, edwin had left for a chalet and shafik had gone to the bank. dear jaime had cambridge dinner to go for. wonder who got ms cambridge this year? lol. xt came later and joined us at minitoons.. where lin yi was buying presents. shafik had gone off again to meet his oc. (xt asked "where did shafik go?" THREE times. WOLS!!) anyway... we went upstairs and xt and i got attracted to the phones. she wanted to change phone to k800i. then we'll have the same phones. lol. found out that my phone has a $120 value trade in (i thought it was worth $10 or something). but the phone was still freaking expensive.

xt was hungry.. so we went down to eaT kfc. was browsing her themes in her hp and this vulgar one came up. lol. xt was looking at the guys selling the coupons thing... which was the same company she was working for. anyway.. went to arcade.. the girls & raf played drums (and i think mine & xt's mind can only process audition arrows.. not drums!) xt and i played photo y2k again.. after waiting for damn long. there was this guy waiting for the drums.. and he was freaking irritating.

anyway... we left.. to go to srgn there to meet shafik. but i followed xt to go meet her fren, joanna.. who was working at macs... she was sitting outside. xt started entertaining herself.. her fren kept laughing. then we started some 'salt' and 'sugar' thing... xt said she wanna put sugar on my fries.. and i said i wanted to put salt into her mcflurry. was looking out for the buses that were turning in.. my eyesight power! lol. left with xt a while later.. we were strolling.. thinking the bus wld take quite a while to turn out.. and we ended up running for it.

passed pl @ lor ah soo... and gosh... it's been TWO years. they're now moving back to where pl belongs. and i can still rmb moving into the holding school! anyway.. the new pl.. hMm... all i can say is that i really really really miss the old pl. the school that i went to since i was p5 (when pl pri started renovating). the new pl just feels so cold... so concrete. like that's any different from where i am now. *smirK.

walked into lor liew lian to find them... bought drinks for them. sharon saw us! but we didnt see her. she was going out i guess. so sad. sat at the playgrd.. and i decided that i wanted to blade.. since gly & linyi had their blades. borrowed gly's.. xt helped me at the void deck. initially i really didnt know what i was doing.. rolling on the blades from one pillar to another. lol! then i picked it up... cld bring myself fwd for a while.. but still have to grab onto the pillar for support! seriously.. after looking at edwin learn to blade at east coast that day... i had some concerns. lol! but i only fell once.. on my butt... which was damn funny. but i must thank my 'shifu' for teaching me how to blade! or else i'll just be falling down all the way! lol. she was making me laugh.. and each time i laughed, i off balanced. was trying to show the rest that i cld swim while blading! lol!

went to join raf, shafik, gly & lin yi after abt 1 hr.. after my left leg started aching. (my left leg's retarded. haha) raf was trying to harmonise us.. only to get funny 'LAs' from us. the girls went off, xt went to take bus from another bus stop.. raf, shafik and i walked to interchange. talk talk till my bus came..

i think my legs are gonna ache tmr.. but now i feel like blading till i know how to blade well! my sis has blades.. but i have no one to support me or anything to hold on to because downstairs is an open space. hAhA.~

if only i could turn back time
to have you here with me...

wenT to kelly's house today. to entertain her sister, rachel. lol. she's cute.

met xt at heartland bus stop.. took a bus to her house. rachel was waiting at the door. lols. kelly offered us alot of chocolate. xt's been craving for chocolates. lol. rachel wanted to play scrabble.. so we did. and we came up with 3-letter words cuz we cldnt think of any. then i didnt know whether there was such a word as 'chops' (but there sld be..) so xt came up with 'i chops you'.. damn funny! was watching xiao hai bu ben the series on her tv.. they taped almost every episode... so cool!

we got bored of scrabble... so we played game of life. xt and i were quite blur.. they had these 'life' cards to take.. so xt and i said that we had life.. and the two sisters didnt. lol! then xt took a career card.. she chose entertainer.. lol! her income was $40 000. i chose policeman...because i cld earn $10 000 everytime someone rolled a 10. my income was $90 000! lol. xt was jealous. but xt kept getting pay day. rachel drawed the $100 000 income card.. and i evil-ly exchanged hers with mine.. HAHA. i'm mean. =)

i finished last.. but i got the most money! $745 000. haha. how i wish i had that amt in real life. lol. went to play audition for a while on her com... only to get disconnected half way. nvm. lol. was watching the 5.30pm ch 8 show on tv... rachel was disturbing xt while she was tying her hair. lol. rachel showed us this globe thing.. and xt sent one to me.. there was water in it.. so she typed "fish! get in!". HAHA. we found it fascinating.. so i sent one back to xt. and i've sent three to raf, shafik & edwin.. from me and on behalf of xt. lol!

went off to heartland. we found out that raf, shafik spent the day "rotting" at edwin's house. we met them at heartland. they were in the sports shop.. i was outside singing christmas songs. gosh.. how i love them. i only get to sing them once a year. went to macs to watch the guys eat... i had dinner at home. took the CI course book from raf's bag and started reading the outdoor part.. all the knots, lashes, tents notes. then the campfire songs page. xt and i were looking at the content page.. and thought that those were the songs itself. but they looked like names of all the songs.. so xt thought... "remix ah?" HAHAHAHA. then we realised it was the content page! hahahahaha!! i think we're really really wols. we were singing cheers while the guys were eating.

the guys went off to the arcade. xt and i went home. i was starvinG! anyway... wish upon a star was so nice! taufik sang! wheEeE. going to have a half day preparation for cip trip.. at sembawang cc! lols. so ulu.~

25 NoVeMbER 2006

i booked the pool room downstairs for the usual gang... but before that went to meet raf & shafik at interchange to eat lunch. jaime came late[r]. jaime and i ate 'bak chor mee! mee pok tah mai ter kua!' hahaha! for those who heard the latest mr brown... you'll know. anyway.. xt joined us later. we took a bus to my house. surprisingly the guard didnt make noise abt me bringing so many people in. raf's either good or damn tyco. i said he must have had secret trng during the time when i had promos and the others their o's. lol.

edwin joined us later. (he needs no help in getting to the pool room... he's too too familiar. lol!) we realised we havent played pool in a long long time.. so many of us were rusty. jaime was attempting to watch prison break.. but not very successful since the rest were making so much noise. we were singing 'tokyo drift' to annoy everyone. raf was singing '12 days of christmas'... and we only knew up to 5 golden rings.. so it's 6 something something.. and shafik replaced 'and a partrich in a pear tree' to 'and a picture of shafik'! HAHA. shafik's frens came to play 1 game... with shafik & ting. then there was this instant where shafik wanted to tell jaime something...

shafik: oei jaime.. is you la...
jaime: what? f*** you.

HAHAHAHAHA. my goodness..i think shafik was hurt. but the rest of us were laughing. the guys were looking at the drill book raf brought.. and i forgot all my drills le. lol. then we played three against three: raf, edwin, shafik vs xt, jaime, me. we put pumpings as a forfeit.. as usual. and for goodness sake.. we lost like shit.. haha! we did 5 men's style... then we lost again... 20 women's. then we were winning... but jaime hit in the black ball! everyone burst out laughing! so 25 women's. we increased the stakes to 30 women's for us and 60 women's for the guys. many times we were left with 1 black ball for either side to hit in.. and it was up to me... to hit in that one black ball.. and YES!! I DID!! HAHAHAHAHA!! everyone started laughing again... the girls... because of victory (finally) and the guys...because of 60 pumping. i laughed till i fell to the floor.

xt filmed down 5 mins of the pumpings... the 3 guys squeezed in one corner... freaking funny. they did 5 and shafik started laughing.. making the rest of us laugh.. then jaime was asking them to do properly.. left leg over right leg, diamond, butts down... lol! then shafik did with his butt up and going only a little down... damn funny! then shafik used his leg to kick edwin's butt... but hit his tailbone... and edwin fell to the floor! hAHA!! that made us laugh like mad again. his face was damn red. raf used his slippers to put between his knees and the floor... damn funny.

we did the last 15 with them. they did guys style... since girl's was damn funny... and shafik really cldnt stop laughing. then they came up to my house because some wanted to play piano, some computer and some sleep. lol. played audition.. xt's damn pro at normal mode.. she cld play 168bpm! argh! i only know how to play beat up... haha. we let the guys try... and i think raf got addicted to it.

raf was teaching edwin to play 'right here waiting' on the piano. edwin got 3/4 of it.. except the last part.. i was trying to teach him too... but obviously i cant teach a 16-year old guy. lol! the guys were outside playing audition, the girls were in my room talking. when i came out... i saw that raf had finally got the beat up mode... yay! too bad his com cant play. or not i think he'd be addicted to it. i played flying duck... my fingers ached after that.

then at abt 7.. we left to eat dinner. went to gardens.. while waiting for the bus.. the guys were talking abt pri school days since sgps was next to my house. so i guess we girls started talking abt plmgps. was supposed to eat prata... but edwin wanted to eat chomp chomp... and the rest didnt mind.. so we did. jaime and i were crazy over kueh pie ti (since i only get to eat it in penang) we found a seat...but needed chairs since it was a handicap seat... so we had to order seafood from the seafood stall. jaime and i treated them sting ray... shafik treated us drink. thanks! we ordered 10 kueh pie ti... and $4 hokkien mee for 3 of us to share. the sting ray was good. and so was everything else. lol. edwin ate what the 3 of us shared... lol. i think the guys were damn full after that.

jaime had to go home.. the rest of us went to heartland. on the bus... i was whinning abt wanting to cycle at ubin.. and kayak. stupid edwin said i cldnt cycle well.. just because of that day at east coast! i kept punching him. lol. then i dunno when...but shafik & raf got quite high... or... freaking high.. they started laughing at everything they said. shafik dared raf to go to a few places to ask whether the food was halal... raf really went to yoshi and sakae. their laughter made xt and i laugh. theN we were talking abt taking a coach to m'sia.. so we said we wanted to go immediately. then xt said i had to tell my mom that i went from chomp chomp---> heartland---> overseas! lol!

shafik went to the bank to draw money.. and they were still damn high.. made us laugh like crazy at the atm machine again. walked to the arcade. xt and i were watching some guys play the drums.. damn.. extreme and damn fast...so pro! edwin & raf played the shooting game again.. xt and i were bored.. so we spent time playing photo y2k. lol. shafik & raf played initial D.. xt and i decided to steal raf's slippers. haha.

xt went off to find her fren at macs. raf & shafik went to meet their TO. edwin had to go comfort a fren who was in distress. i was teasing edwin at the bus stop abt crying. lol! he was asking me what to say as comfort. we met kelly... who was going home from work. edwin asked whether there was any position for him.. but she said they only hired girls. lol. boarded the bus with edwin.. and he was still asking me what to say to comfort a fren. was laughing at some of the things... he asked me to follow him.. but i had to choose btwn following him and getting grounded till next year for not going home on time.. like as if that's a choice! lol. he said he'd pay for the starting fare of taxi and i.. the rest.. and i stupidly agreed because i forgot abt midnight charge. lol.

i went home anyway.. because i dont want to be grounded for the rest of my life. haha. had to call this guy regarding the cip trip.. there's safety briefing on a saturday. maybe i'll knock my head there and become a genius! haha. many of them arent going to be ard in dec... so i figured i might as well go for the cip trip. but they're going off at different times. shafik.. to brunei for obs.. raf.. to cibtc.. xt & jaime.. for holiday... and me.. m'sia to build a bridge. lol!

i havent laughed so hard in a long time till yesterday. and i realised that they're people i want to keep with me as long as i can hold on to. it's only with them that i'm really able to be myself and i will treasure that. all the way!! =)

[my arms hurt after the pumpings yesterday. haha.]~

i've beEn at home the past two dayS. i was so bored that i even had time to change my template again. yay. the bears from goong. so cute! only no alfred. he's on my display pic anyway. lol. i put 'stay' as a song on my blog. the goong song. not perhaps love tho. just click the play button on the right to hear it!

i went to chinatown with xt & her frens... for a job interview. but that job didnt have a basic pay. only comission. went back to heartland where xt's fren asked her to go for some talk abt macs. i went to find raf, shafik & hanlong. they were watching the bball match... RI vs yuying. raf was telling me abt his CI course details... woah... really sounded like NS. cant go home.. stuck at hta & ubin. and he was telling me abt his uniform collection and stuff... sounded really interesting. and abt their camp at sg.

then edwin came... he looked like he just woke up... and he really did just wake up. lol. watched RI & yuying tie.. but yuying won in the end. edwin wanted to go to the arcade.. and so we did. on the way... the 3 of them were 'fighting'.. raf was trying to be the peacemaker. or rather, shafik was trying to hide behind raf because edwin was about to kill shafik for hitting him. lol. hl and i just stood at the side to watch the show. haha. raf & edwin played the shooting game. shafik played the drums. then xt came to join uS.. edwin paid for his, mine & xt's daytona game. stupid car cldnt start. and edwin took the advanced course! argH! lol.

went back to macs. xt had a free meal from macs. i was taking pics of everyone. lol. had to go home.. because i was hungry, and i had a show waiting for me! last episode of charmed. shit...why is everything ending this week? i have nth to watch next week. lol. the very last episode of charmed. and i missed so much! argh! damn it... i'm getting really emotional abt shows.. every sad part i feel like crying. guess what? i watched the last episode of goong for the 2nd time and cried even harder. argh. lol.

Sarang hamnida =) ~

less than 1 day after coming back i went out. hEeX.

met jaime and the girls at srgn mrt. did i say how much i miss jaime? lol! she has been mia-ing for the past 3 months! xt cldnt make it.. saD. anyway, vivo gv tickets were sold out.. we wanted to watch step up... jaime keeps saying the guy is hot. raf & edwin joined us a while later. decided to go ps to try.. cldnt make in time for the 2pm show... so we bought the 1625 show. and went to kfc to eat. jaime kept wanting to walk and not stay at the same position. i think after mia-ing for 3 months she's become fast. lol.

atE le.. then walk walk ard ps with jaime... the others went their separate ways.. to meet back later. jaime and i walked ard window shopping.. as if i hadnt had enough shopping for the past 5 days! lol. went to buy snacks for the movie.. then went to arcade to find them. -_-'' as usual.

the movie was nice. esp the dancing part. jaime kept saying the guy was hot.. i think my sis would like it too. went walk walk ard ps again... jaime seriously has something against edwin... edwin kept talking to her but she didnt wanna talk to him! haha!! jaime's seriously freaking fast.. she kept wanting to walk... lols. in her heels! argh! so high! i kept bullying edwin tho... too bad no xt to accompany me =)

we met beishan! and we were just talking abt her...saying how long we havent seen her. argh!! she's still as crazy and mad... she hasnt changed in that part. so cool! talked to her for a while! so nice to see her!!

theN raf was buying tako pachi... jaime and i joined them and listening to part of edwin & kristle's conversation. apparently, edwin owed kristle pumping... so she wanted to claim it back. but... having no idea what they were talking abt at that time... it sounded really scandalous!

edwin: hurry... you want you stop at srgn then do...
kristle: dun wan...
edwin: or on the train also can do.

something like that. jaime and i were laughing hysterically... while edwin was trying to explain to shafik the joke using "zhe ge zhe ge" and "na ge na ge". HAHA! so the guys really did their pumping in some secluded area... while jaime and i were in the earring shop. lol. finally took the train home.

was bullying edwin on the way home again. kept using water to wet the 3 guys today after coming out from the toilet. lol. and it's funny to see jaime and edwin argue. haha. havent seen that for 3 whole months. missed the whole LAST EPISODE of goong. and phua chu kang. lucky my mom tape. i know i'm crazy lar. haha. havent seen goong for so long. lol.

audition here i come!~

HELLO WORLD!! i'm back!! after being in isolation for 5 days. =) well... i was able to go online on thurs after reaching the apartment. used my dad's laptop and stole someone's wireless. lol. afteR thaT i think the person switched off his router.... so we cldnt access to it.

so what did i do during those five days? well... to sum it all up, eat & shop. meT with long time friends in m'sia whom i havent seen for ages... my dad's god daughter who happened to share the same b'dae as him.. so we went to have a chinese dinner at shangri-la. they've all grown up now... i guess i have too.

shopping: 1-utama shopping centre, mid valley megamall, the curve, KLCC, sugnei wang plaza were all the SCs i went to. pet safari at the curve was great... saw my fish and the puppies were so cute!! the only place i didnt go was berjaya times sqaure. but then again.. no one is willing to go on the roller coaster with me... so no point going. haha.

eating: shangri-la chinese, shangri-la japanese, wanton mee etc. i'm gonna put on a lot of weight. no eating fast food for the rest of the year! the jap food was great... it's the biggest jap food buffet i ever went to. sashimi!!! my classmates are gonna get so jealous. wanton mee at the roadside was so good!! it's so different from s'pore's wanton mee. the black sauce, the noodles, the char siew, and the wanton. mMmMmm.

dvds: didnt watch much. john tucker must die, the banquet. cldnt be bothered abt the departed when my sis was watching, because i havent even watched infernal affairs.

have been playing with my dad's com without an internet connection. i think i can become a pro at solitaire and minesweeper. lols. i miss you computer!! *muacks!! and i miss my phone... and my bed & pillows.. and of course the friends here... but i'm still trying to run away from whatever's happening. bao chi xiao rong =) ~

i usually dread going to kl. because i'll miss my com, my tv and my handphone (which doesnt have roaming), my fish, and my friends. but suddenly i feel so happy to get get away from here... to run far far away. where i'm uncontactable. where i dont have to face whatever's going on right now. and just go shopping and eating and watching dvds all the way.

yeaH. i wont be ard from tmr onwards till monday night. thank god i'm not missing the last episode of goong. lol. so you wont be able to contact me till then.

and i must add.. i'm glad to be going away.~

damn it. i've caught some virus again. freak it. ergh. my throat is burning. i got it from my mom, who got it from me. i thought after someone recovers from a cold, they'll be immune to that virus? argh. whatever. i better not be sick on thurs. it'll spoil my whole trip to kl. anyway, i cldnt sleep last night. i rolled in bed from 11pm to 12 something then i finally fell asleep for the shortest time... only to wake up again. argh!! by the time i managed to get to sleep.. it was 3am i guess. so i woke at 11am today. and of course... my mood isnt good when i have such a disturbing night. argh. well.. at least an email from ghis who is right now at jurong island made me laugh. it was super lame. she was bored there and started crapping in her email. so lame!

anyway.. about ytD. was supposed to have ac og outing... but in the end... so many ppl pulled out at the last minute. bleahs. so only four of us were left. guan qun, christiana, nyssa and me. gq and i waited so long for the two to come... then we went to eat at new york new york at citilink. it's cafe cartel style... only more posh. the prices are okay. i ordered pasta.. since i cldnt eat anything fried because of my sore throat. christiana ordered this 30cm long sausage and the bread was abt 1/3 the length...so it looked really weird. and the coke float was so big... so sinful. lol.

we chalked up abt $82 worth of food... which was quite ok for 4 people. [and i know some people will disagree with me =)] lol. we were scaring gq abt someone following her... or maybe just happened to walk past citilink!! lol. anyway... after that we walked to esplanade to the library...cuz nyssa wanted to return books. was talking to her abt pl stuff... like... abt mr low and ms ferng. lol. gq and christiana were complaining abt going for their leadership camp...and hey... they're going to the same place as we went in sec3... and the same place that nj's going for yltc. they're going after nj leaves to canoe to another island. thank god i dont need to go. but i wanna go kayak tho.

we walked ard citilink.. to the super expensive paper shop where 1 diary costs $20+. and when i see them buying stuff..i think of ghis. damn it! how come she has so much influence on me?! but it's thanks to her that i'm not broke now. haha. yeaH. theN gq went home.. we went to raffles city to walk ard. gosh... looking at the prices of the items for sale... haha. maybe now i know why i'm in nj. because i'd be broke forever due to spending too much. haha. anyway...i went off first.. because i wasnt feeling too well.. stupid virus. well... it was nice to meet up with them again...after not seeing them for so long. gosh.. words cant express how much i miss the happy times tgt with them. well...sld really see the rest of my og soon. lol!

i give up. listen here. i totally give up caring about anything to do with you all. i've tried all i can out of pure concern. but since no one listens to me... from now on, 14 November 2006, i am not going to care what happens anymore. whether you all fail your exams or even fail in life... i am not going to care. i won't bother to call or even give a listening ear to whatever troubles you all are going through. since you all dont tell me stuff... and dont listen or even consider whatever i have to say... i'm not going to care anymore.

sure, you may say i dont understand anything you all are going thru. that's because you all dont make an effort to try to make me understand. which person doesnt have their own burdens in life? you think i don't? you think i'm one happy person as i portray to be? no. and life in jc isnt one big holiday either. having to juggle with the endless content based subjects, as well as CCA, and other commitments in school... but i still have to take it. i still have to take the stress. i cant just walk away from school altogether. although i wish too sometimes. because i know it's not going to get me anywhere. stop walking away from your problems. it's time to face it.

listen up. i will only give my time and effort to those whom i think deserve it. other than that... i dont really care anymore. in fact, i'm beginning to understand why some people want to leave. and i dont blame them. because i myself am entertaining those thoughts. what's the use if no one ever listens to one another or keeps problems from one another? it would just be another ordinary aquaintance wouldnt it?

no one bothers to meet up anymore. so why should i? sure.. i appreciate the fact that some to bother to arrange. but who actually tries their best to come? does everyone want to? or are some reluctant? whatever it is, i've given up all hope on some of you all. i dont give a damn whether you all fail as a person. i'll just be sad for you all .. but i wont do anything about it. whatever i feel is wrong, i'll just take it as it is. i will not bother to beg or persuade anymore. i've done enough.

sorry. i just had to get all of that out of me.~

-_-''' boring day yesterday. i stayed at home and played audition all the way. theN i signed into msn and had a lame conversation with edwin. i think he study too much. lol. anyway, he was going to buy fish, so i said i wanted to go. so i did. hA. finally out of the house.

went out at abt 7pm, went to central... then he called and asked me to walk to his house. because we had to find raf, who was cycling, whose bike tyre had punctured. poor thing! so suay! so we walked along the stretch leading to kovan. edwin wanted to bet with me that we'd see raf after we walked up the hill.. damn it. we did. lol. he said i owed him 1 fish. haha.

walked to the fish shop at central... that was where i bought my $18 red parrot (which is freaking naughty right now). edwin wanted to buy koi... so we looked ard at the others first, before looking at the baby koi. they're rather cute... but mine's cuter. then the lady gave us a net and a bucket of water to catch the one we wanted. raf went to get a bigger net to help edwin. lol. so after about 1 hour of attempting to catch the fish, with a lot of mistaken identities (raf is good at catching fish), they finally caught two edwin wanted... one white with orange spots and a beautiful white tail, and the other with black spots that looked like a chinese painting... i like that one! i must say it was quite fun catching fish...but i dont dare. lol.

walked back to edwin's house to put the fish in the fish tank. i'm jealous! his fish tank is twice the size of mine! argh! lucky koi.. they get such a big space to swim in. raf was singing 'we were the reason' with his scores. haha. edwin passed his no.1 uniform to raf to return, so he started taking pictures of the ranks he had... then pics of him in shafik's cap. by the time we went down.. it was near 10pm.

we walked to the prata shop near his house to eat. raf and i were singing christian songs on the way. that two were damn funny... as usual. so ate the prata... and waited for shafik. but i had to go home first because my mom was calling me to get home... so i left both of them to wait for him.

and i cldnt wake up for church this morning. *yaWnS~

FriDaY, 10 nOvEmbEr 2006
oHsiXSfiftEeN's bbQ

i waited for the bus for 20mins to get to j8, where i met ghis. we wenT upstairs to minitoons to get gummies. and seriously, i've never spent so long in my life picking gummies. she was picking and asking me to recommend what was nice, and i said almost everything. haha. i was looking at the phone chains, i was so tempted to buy the letters, but ghis, being there, wouldnt spend money on that sort of thing, so it kinda influenced me not to waste my money on it. there are uncountable things she has influenced me to do since i've entered nj, such as not wasting money on unecessary things, eating healthier, saving money as well as eating lots of chilli. lol!

anyway, so after she finished picking all the sweets she wanted, we went to sembawang to get what i wanted! kim jeong hoon's cd! yay! i finally found it this time. it was $22.90. his songs are nice! listening to them now. but i still think he looks nicer in brown hair. lol. and gosh.. his pictures... *faints. we spent a long time there too, looking at cds, dvds & vcds because we needed movies to entertain us! anne marie was on her way, and wasnt even at bkt batok mrt at 6pm. lol. she was late!! anyway, we went to gift a name, ghis wanted to buy her hp fork chain, because she had the spoon. and i asked her to buy both the fork and spoon because one was tarnished and the other was shiny and it didnt look nice. but, i obviously cldnt influence her. she bought the fork in the end.

so while waiting for anne marie to come, we went down to ntuc to get more food for them , cuz sam said there wasnt enough food (which turned out otherwise later). we bought cakes cuz we didnt know what to buy, and i cldnt find the 'drinks'. anyway, anne marie came at 6.50pm, we walked over to jerick's house. most of them had arrived. people there were [me, ghis, anne marie, sam, lyn, tiff, stella, fel, zuo jie, stanley, jerick, joseph, wen yi, darren, ccb, justin, zhi wei.] yiling cldnt make it the last minute because of some church stuff. sad. the guys went to play soccer, the girls were sitting down and chatting and ccb was doing the food. we ate some food for a while..

then the guys ran off to play soccer and wenyi stayed behind to eat the food, zuo jie joined us girls because he wanted to gossip with us! haha! he didnt want to try the artificial bacon bits because he said they looked like fish food. lol. tiff and i kept eating them. he kept eating the lettuce plain, and he was wearing a green shirt, so the lettuce really matched his shirt. we called him a rabbit. then stella and tiff dared him to pinch ***'s butt for 5 bucks! hA!!!!! he didnt dare. we told wen yi, but he didnt dare either for fear that something bad would happen to them. lol. so we continued our 'gossip', which was essentially hearing zuo jie saying that he was gonna die soon because the lines on his hands said so. lol! he wanted us to treat him nice because of that. lol! ghis went freakingly high a few times, and her laughter & high pitched voice. gosh. ultrasound. lol.

the guys came back, and we dared darren & justin to do the same thing as the 2 guys earlier.. darren told him abt it. hah. the food was so much. satay, otak, bread & lettuce & 'fish food', lyn's chicken wings, sausages and much more. it's the most filling bbq i've ever eaten. but how cld i pass on the mashmallows, konyaku & almond jelly? so we ate some more. haha.

tiff, ghis, zuo jie and i went to the toilet, but the girls toilet was full... so we asked zj to stand guard for us outside the guy's toilet. haha. the toilet had a suana inside. tiff asked me to peer in to see the room.. and yes..she tried to push me into the dark room. lol! i screamed. haha. we went back to join them and talk crap some more, then clear up and went up to jerick's house.

the guys were playing ps2, some car game. the girls, and some of the guys were playing 2-deck bluff. justin got a really really thick deck in the end. lol. damn funny. hmMs... theN we started telling ghost stories! hAHA. jerick joined us halfway and gave some of the girls a shock of their lives, because the lights were off on our side. lol. justin told us some stories, fel, stella & anne marie were freaking out and trying not to scream. lol. then at abt 11+ we had to go home, before there was no bus back. stella went to the toilet and tiff switched off the lights while she was inside! hahah!! she screamed too! damn funny. tiff, me, ghis, zj, ccb went off first. and i caught the bus and was home in 10mins.

that was a really enjoyable day! different from the entertainment i usually get...maybe it's because it's a different grp of friends. but it's good to get away from the usual sometimes, and i can say that we really enjoyed ourselves! whEeEE!

nOveMber 11 2006---> HaPpY biRtHdaY deaR huiHuA! my fellow pl classmate/sqdmate/nj schoolmate and it goes on.. lol. she has to go for oac camp. hahas.~

this sucks. this totally sucks. everyone is splitting up. everyone has their own grp of friends. everyone doesnt hang out tgt anymore. is there still hope? everyone doesnt seem to enjoy the company of one another anymore. is it because we're too familiar with each other? maybe. is it because we're meeting up too often? maybe. maybe i sld just mia for a while. when was the last time we had fun tgt as a grp? as one? how long will this friendship last? at first, i thought for quite a long time. alas, nothing is eternal (except God). i'm having doubts whether we all cld last thru the year. whatever.

i have 5 hours to kill before i go shopping with ghis. i sld really jio her out more often. she needs to go to some nice places to shop. i'll make her buy stuff no matter what. haha. just that i'm scared she'll scream into my ear. and it's humorous how she talks on the phone. maybe i'll bbq her later. lol. lazy pig.

outing on monday, havent seen them for so long since i left ac! but yl & gq wont be going. ergh. havent seen them for a long time too. hope the rest will go. the times we went to orchard tgt was fun. too bad joyce & huimin cant go too, because of their A's. miss them lots. hope to see those who left ac too! (which is essentially only 3 of us) lol.

and finally, on a shopping spree in KL next week. i must say the shops there are much better than vivo city. maybe it's good that i'll not be seeing anyone during that period. i can mia for that few days. because no one seems to care whether we actually fall apart anymore. so why should i?~

do you feel it? the air is finally clear of pw! yes! after suffering for 7 months, handing up so many documents, and i shall attempt to name them. 1: preliminary ideas, 2: group project proposal, 3: evaluation of materials, 4: written report, 5: insights & reflections. not forgetting 6: the many research methodology including surveys, 7: preparing for op, 8: doing endless amt of drafts for PI, Eom & I&R. no more pw! yeaH!

about op. our grp was the first for the day. yiling's and tiff's grp were our audience. it was alright. i think i screwed the Q&A. we finished within half an hour. there were external moderators for our grp only, and it was only when audiencing for the other grps that we realised that our grp was really very lucky. all of us only got 1 question each thrown at us, compared to average 2 thrown to the others. and oh my... the woman's questions were seriously so vague, hardly anyone understood. she sucks. yiling's video was so cute, with the dolls and paper teacher and students on a satay stick... so cute! and damn it, there we were, in school, suffering under the clutches of pw, and ghislaine was at sentosa playing! argh!! just because her grp finished a day earlier.

anyway, after our audience duty, we had to paginate our gpf, when we finally finished, and walked out of the lt, free of pw, it was pouring. so anti-climax! and it poured and poured for more than an hour, and was still raining so heavily after 1 hour, we decided to brave the rain and walk out of the flooded nj. the walkway was really really flooded, fishes cld swim in there. i mean it. our shoes were wet but we managed to catch the bus quite quickly.

i took 153 to heartland, only to find out that the roads were completely dry, and it was only starting to rain. anyway, found raf, shafik and hl. hl broke his specs. needed a new one. then shafik and hl went to play bball, while raf and i went to the 2nd lvl of the cc to get out of the rain. xt came to find us later. edwin called raf's phone and i picked it up, since i was playing games on raf's phone. lol. he asked me to give him a wake up call. haha. went to macs cuz raf was hungry. hl went off. shafik was drenched. ate some fries. gave edwin his wake up call and ended up nagging at him not to fall asleep again. lol. that's what you get when you ask me for a wake up call esp not in the morning. lol.

anyway, class bbq tmr! whEEeEe!! wonder whether anything weird will happen?~

i had two freakingly weird & impacting dreams last night. it wasnt a nightmare. it was just.. impacting. one was rather lame. and the other was about you. and it wasnt something i wanted to see. but then, such a thing happening would be close to impossible. so i should just stop thinking abt it. yet i kept thinking about it during the journey to & from school.

if you're wondering what i'm going to school for since it's a holiday (and thinking that i must be loving school too much), it's for pw. my ST is forever uncontactable. and op's on thursday. our props are not done yet. and we need her opinions. so anyway, i am going to school tmr again to rehearse with the rest of the grp and on thu for op. friday is finally freedom day, and we're having a class bbq! yaY! i'm excited!

and yes, i'm still sick.~

Slight fever
Sore throat
Runny Nose
Sick~

3 NoVeMbeR 2006
HapPy biRtHdaY tiFFaNy!
ChiNEsE A leVeL exAms

the entry proof says "please report to your exam centre at least half an hour before the commencement of each exam." how come no one ever saw that on the entry proof? lol. most of us reached at 7.45am. anyway, compo was alright, i did the kan tu zuo wen, then we had a 15 min break and were allowed to read thru the paper 2 without starting to write. how weird is thaT? paper 2 was understandable, phew! i hope i dont have to study chinese for the rest of my life!

after that anne marie, ghis, lyn, yiling, peiyi and i went to curry wok near corro to eat lunch, the $5 meal thing... i've never eaten so much kang kong in my life. the food was good, i was so full. peiyi and yiling left for home, the rest of us went to j8. lyn lived near there and am & ghis had trng at bishan park. we went to walk ard the shops, and to sembawang to find kim jung hoon's cd! gosh, i cldnt find it... but sharon just called to say they have it! argh! why am i so blind?! lol. anyway, we window shopped till 2.30, they had to go for trng, so i went home. was so tired. i sld have stayed at home to rest. anyway, i was attempting to play because of you & perhaps love on the piano, but gave up and started playing my grade 8 pieces. lol

i went out to heartland, first, to find his cd at mj.. but i cldnt again! argH! haHA. went to buy gummies then went to find shafik, xt & raf. i cld distinguish xt, hanlong & shafik frm macs, but i cldnt figure who the person riding the bike was. it was raf. lol. he cut his hair. melvin sir from marist called xt, apparently, i know him but he doesnt know me. haha. we were talking to him for a while, trying to figure which batch of CIs he was from. he treated us bb tea! thanks! xt cldnt finish it. haha. he showed us his bike...gosh it was damn cool! cant believe he rides that kinda bike! he told us abt his accident. so freaky.

anyway, went to play at the park for a while, it's opening soon. xt was having a fever. get well soon! xt, shafik & hanlong went off, raf & i were going to chomp chomp to meet edwin. he had to get his specs fixed first, because it broke. lol. edwin was supposed to board the bus we were on, so raf came up with this idea to trick him. haha. said that i wld be on the bus by coincidence and we would "meet" halfway. lol! raf seriously cant act.. he started laughing. lol. sat down to eat, i was quite full from the bb tea earlier, so only ate a little. edwin ate prawn mee and raf ate hokkien mee. what's it with prawn & noodles ah?

went to the prata stall to wait for shafik. edwin was super kpo. lol. they started talking crap, and was really lame and funny. raf took edwin's cap and wore it. and was taking zi lian pics of himself, and laughing at it. HAHA. then edwin was changing positions of his cap...so he looked gay. lol. sat there for quite long, i stole edwin's phone but he managed to grab it back. lol. shafik made the most jokes as usual. went off at abt 11.30pm. and yes, i missed goong as well as the LAST EPISODE of the 9 o clock show. but hey, all's not lost. ive watched finish goong and i realised only this morning that my mom taped the 9 o clock show for my dad. how wols can i get? lol.

took 73 and managed to make it back before they locked the back gate. the stupid lane was so freaky. and today, i'm sick! argH! i woke up with a sore throat plus a runny runny nose and feeling very tired. i pray i dont get a fever. i hate the feeling. i've alr fallen ill twice this year. and this is not going to be the third. maybe i'll just sleep the whole day. wHoOsH~

Chinese. PW. Chinese. PW. Chinese. PW. that has been my life for the past few days. i finally have a break tmr. chinese lessons has been urgH. basically i have been telling tiff abt pw dry run. speaking of dry run, ms ng said our presentation was mediocre... so i guess we have a long way to go. none of us are at the 'exceeding expectations' (sounds like harry potter) level yet. and we need props.. and i need to improve on my acting skills, and i need to stReSs on certain words, or else i'll put everyone to sleep. lol..

anyway, ghislaine and i are officially crazy and are watching too much tv. esp goong and the 9 o clock show. lol. i've come to the conclusion that i sldnt tell her what happens next in goong, and we keep talking abt the 9 o clock show via sms. like both of us wanna slap the antagonist. lol. thank god i have the whole day to study for chinese tmr. or not i'll feel guilty for watching two shows at night and not studying. now that chinese A's are drawing nearer, i cant help but feel a little worried. worried that i cant achieve my target. what is my target anyway? with what grade will i be contented with? i dont really know. all i can do is study, hope and pray.

beneath this happy face lies someone deeper, beneath this mask lies something more. but it's always better to give people a happy impression right? ~