nEw year's evE.

oh gosh. i cant believe it's the end of the year again. i hate this. i always have this sad feeling that the year is going to go in a few hours. really sad. anyway. going for countdown service thingy in church later. ch5 not showing countdown party anymore. so might as well go and spend the last few hours of the year with God. this year's new years eve is unusual. has been raining for almost the whole day. the party downstairs has to move to the carpark in case it rains again. wonder what will happen to the party at sentosa?

ok. new year. 2005 aka o level year. things in np will start to slow down. but studying will not get any lighter. i look forward to 2005 in a sense that it's a whole new(old) place and bigger sch compound (to walk from the com lab to the teacher's room takes eternity.) lalalala. anyway. it's not that bad la. wonder who my form teacher is? lalala. better not be.... lalalal. hA. anyway. i really dread the new year because of the o's. my friend says after u move on in life the o's will just be some small thing. well..haha. but i'm still scared. who knows what 2005 will have in store?

2004 has been gr8. well...not that gr8. many things. np np np. campcraft comp, the many activities, taking over...bla bla bla. it's also one where some i got closer to...with the new class and stuff. 4a2...haha. so old. but overall...it's a good year. my finger is still pain. ouch!

anyway...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! have a blessed year ahead!!

*sobs* 2004 is going. 3 hrs 23mins left. cries!!~

gueSS what? i can only type with nine fingers now. i have to use the mouse with my third and forth fingers. i squeezed my finger on the rifle thing! now there's inernal bleeding and the upper part of the finger is swollen. i cant type, use a mouse or play a piano properly. i have a piano concert tmr by the way. and it wont go away by tmr.

anyway, several funy and stupid things hapened today after rifle drills... we needed materials from the np room so huihhua and i went there to get it. we were waiting for tiff and xt to get their materials so hh took a plastic glove from the medic box and started blowing it up. haha. blow blow blow...finally successful. then i wanted to give her "hand" a hi-5. and i did. and the glove burst! hAhAhA! it was really funny to be there. laughed so hard. lol.

so we walked back laughing with the materials. yingle was standing at the corridor then she asked hh where the malina hem was. hh turned ard and pointed to me and said "cant you see?" thing was...i wasnt even carrying the malina! wahA we left it in the np room and walked out. both sides thought that each other was carrying it. waH lau...laugh and laugh.

ok. i cant go on typing anymore. byes!~

i hate hypocrites.

PS. i havent gotten down to changing my blog template yet. anyway. there's 12 days of christmas. and i'm getting a sore throat.~

afTer tallying up the no. of neoprints i've scanned in to my photos at yahoo, i conclude that only 17 out of 107 pics are taken with friends not concerning np. that is 15.88% of the picS!!!!!!!!!!!!! which tells that roughly 85% of all my neoprints taken in my whole life are all with np people. crazy or what? waHaHaHa...i'm just bored. but it's fun viewing the slideshow. gives you back memories of the days you spent as close friends, and the fun we had. now... hMm. really makes you realise how things have changed. things HAVE really changed. people have graduated and it's my turn to take the o's next year. (i'm trying to face up to reality tho i havent been really successful) well, life goes on...~

muAhAhAhA.... the presents flooded in today! church. haha. got a lot of chocolates. i'm gonna feel guilty eating them. ANyWay... the play in church today was really good. and had a strong msg behind it. LAaLAa...cant believe it's the last sunday of the year! cries. so saD. then it's back to school. shut up. there are things that have yet to be done.~

MY MOUSE IS DRIVING ME CRAZY! have you ever heard of people using a mouse and getting wrist pains? well...i have! buy me a christmas present ok? i need a new mouse.

anyway,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!

hAhA. only having service tmr. and anyway...orchard road ytd was damn pack! you cant even walk at moderate speed. it's slow. where did all the people come from? and there were many buying those snowy stuff and spray can thingy... hAhA. the party countdown thing was near heeren, opp paragon. cool. but it was toooooooooooooo crowded. took a cab back, in time to see the 3 american idols sing. kelly clarkson sang breakaway!! anyway, my mom was getting pisst with the ppl in the queue for cabs. cuz some of them just came out of nowhere and took the cab. pls la. it's christmas... on a normal day, i would get pisst too. but i was calm ytd. cus it's christmas. and giving the condition of orchard... what can you expect?

i'm still peeling. yA. i'm used to it. but hopefully i finish peeling b4 school starts. did i mention i feel so old? anyway. i've finished 3/4 of sec3 exp chinese. 1/4 more for tmr. i needa get on with my total defence. lol.

Survive Vs Impossible. Which one will you choose? I and a few others choose survive.~

after 4 days of fancy drill, i must say it's physically & mentally challenging. and getting used to the holding school? haHa...it's even more challenging. up till now, i still dont know where the emmanuel hall, ava theaterette and classrooms are. weLL...at least i know the amoury and np room now. haha. oh yea...i still dont know how to get to the back gate from the main gate. shi bai ah!!

i think i'm going to zao xia tmr. for timing too much today. i relied wholly on timing thruout the song... so i dont know whether we're ahead or slower than we are supposed to. not sure whether this is a good thing or not cuz dont really know whether can time on that day. hopefully! and hope we improve further. i dont deny that my attitude was a bit off today. i get pisst easily when i'm tired. so dont irritate me. at one time, i was really damn pisst as to why we had to change the song. after we improved, i think i began to accept it. and after mrs goh's nice explanation, i think i can live with it. at least she encourages us. not like....someone la. ok i think i'm biased. what to do? human nature. i think the song's ok now. altho i still prefer i will survive. i think it's more hip. but maybe mrs goh's right too. generation gap. older ppl feel that m:i is better. youngsters...i will survive? haha. i dunno.

yeA. we met mrs goh at the bus stop on the way home. she was like stressing me to study my chinese. well. i guess i really have to. i have nth to do on christmas eve and christmas itself. service is only on sunday. but i have 3 "things" to do la. 1. total defence silver 2. design np board 3. study chinese. i really have to get started on these things. or not i'll never be able to get to it.

well, i'm looking forward to 365 days from now. when i'll be fREEEEEEEE!!!as for now, it's back to doing hmk and stuff.~

eh...this is disgusting. i'm starting to peel on my arms.

went to holding sch today.

good points:
- it's quite big
- there's a good amt of space to do things
- there's a lot of secret hiding places
- i can get home in 10 mins!
- the field is big (i have track phobia)
- nearby, there's a good soursop desert stall
- chomp chomp, mac, country mana, sushi tei, pow sing etc...
- we have a fitness area
- i get more exercise walking from home to bus stop and bus stop to school

bad points:
- it's dirty
- toilets quarter the size of old sch.
- water cooler water tastes like toilet bowl water
- classroom/ np room is small
- amoury is half the size of pl amoury
- running from one place to another takes a looOoOong time!
- it looks like a girl's home
- the hall is small
- the library is situated in an ulu place
- it's mosquito & ants infested!
- i dont know how to get ard. (i'll probably get used to it)

waHa. not that it's that bad. some cleaning up sld do it. the best thing is... i came home so fasT! whOoO! hAhA. i quite like the space. yeah.~

help! i'm peeling! and i'm missing kayaking.~

Kayaking

Day 1

WoW! so happy! kayaking!! yAy! 2 sTar! 10 people: Me, tiff, gracE, huihuA, sharoN, jaimE, celenE, yenkenG, meisHi, mr tAng. went out to seA. did capsize drill? and capsize with our skirt(spray cover) kept water from going in.insT wasnt the same. he's called richard. learnt strokes... paddling was difficult against the current. tirEd. waS so scared about the next day where we were going to kayak more than 6km. learnt eskimo bow rescue...edging...etc. he taught us how to waterproof our food for tmr.

Day 2

eRr....tiReD. aRmS achinG. dieS. eXpedition todaY. more than 6km. 6 people: Me, tiFF, grAce, hUihuA, sHaroN, Mr TanG. we set off in the morning. we were flowing witht he current. that's good. quite easy and fun. inst. zhi hao came with us. had our lunch there. ate lots of junk. lol. inst richard showed us pics of 3 & 4 star. paddled back quite fast...cuz there was rain catching up on us. tirEd. haha. at one point, i was the last. tired. was beside inst zhi hao...he asked me how my hols were....i said ok la. cuz i was too tired to say anything!! haHa. he could see that too. caught up with the front people...went back to prac other strokes. we all didnt dare to do low brace turn. cuz of the edging. scared of capsizing. had to paddle back again. cuz we were drifting fast. did eskimo again. suCcEsS!! eRr...graCe cldnt find his kayak. so she got traumatised. poor girl. aGh!!! burnt! all 5 of us. because we didnt put sun block. haHA. really burnt all on the face. and the arms. so red. like lobster. painful!

Day 3

waH! musclE pain!! arM paIn. face pain. dont touch my nose! 4 people: mE, tiFf, sHaron, HuihuA. cReek. didnt go out to seA. was mainly revision. learnt side strokes. j-stroke, classic draw and scarling draw. scarling for support...i scarEd. haha. some capsized. so waited for inst to pull them up using eskimo. cool. we found a jellyfish. he let us touch the top. they saw a prawn...but cldnt catch it. revised on everything. did one last eskimo. sucCesS! haha. he let us play for a while. was splashing huihua. poor thing. always bullied. it was hot. but we didnt get much burnt. both inst splashed a lot of water on us. haha. inst richard used the shell like a whistle....wah. pro. lol. did t rescue...cuz we wanted to capsize. hot! so we did. haha. went up. bath. then theory. abt diff kayaks and paddles. dancer, bandit, sea kayak...paddles... got our cerT! yaY!

dont touch me now. i'll kill you. lol. i think it was fun la. esp the last day. haha. we thought our inst was fierce on the 1st day. but now...i think he' s quite lame. quite nice oso la. haha. it was fun. only that the no. of pl girls kept decreasing. this is bad. from 10 to 4. is really throw pl facE.

i didnt go for bowling comp today. mom didnt allow. well..haaha. i didnt wanna wake up so early either. i'll just die from muscle aches. ok. i've written quite a lot. dies. i miss kayaking!! how?!?!? i really miss it now!! ha~

back from kayaking!! i want to blog abt it but my fingers dont permit me to do so today. so i'll do it tmr. i'm damn burnt. dont touch me. and my upper body is aching. wahaha!~

i'm really starting to get pisst over this game. it updates ever so damn often!!aRgH~!! just stop updating can!! it takes damn long to update on my com... and i have to wait so damn long!!

aNywAy, chinese is really taking tomorrow tomorrow. i've pushed studying to tomorrow again. sEE. that's why the govt has to cut down on the syllabus. LEARNING LIKE THAT WONT HELP ME GET AN A!! and after my o's...i'll just forget them all. what's the damn point of learning 1000+ words when only like 20 come out? this is stupid. let me tell you. if i get a B i'll be happy. contented. tuition? no way! i'd rather be jap/french/german educated anyway. let me bet anyone who is reading this that no one in the right state of mind (doesnt include nerds) would have started studying by now. gEE...i'm getting a bit emotional abt this.

anyway. patch is finally done. off to play my game!~

yo blogGiEeE... nth spectacular over this week.

i went out with mummy on friday... to taka...had this discount for members. bought a few tops. t-shirts and a tank top. prob is.... i'm supposed to find bottoms..ended up buying tops. taka didnt have much cloths for ppl our age. iseatan had more.

i really gotta get started on revision for chinese. i've been pushing it back and back. tomorrow. tomorrow i'll start. tomorrow....tomorrow. tomorow. (tomorrow never comes) have to start man.

Homework check:

English
Chinese
maths
Lit- essays
- Book

i'm having kayaking this week. wed-fri. eRrR... 3 days gone. i'll be going out early and coming home tired. how to study? lol. quite excited. i hope we get one day at the creek. the last time i kayaked, i felt like vomitting after lunch. thanx to the waves. and i dont want sun burn!!!!!!!!!! i dun mind a tan. haha. what's the highest spf for sun block anyway? aftEr that...fancy drills. oh gosh. i'm gonna get tired out. how to study?!?!!?~

my christmas template rox! wAha~

i went to watch incredibles ytd. quite late isnt it? we thought the cinema wouldnt be full...but it was almost. lol. anyway...i watched half on vcd...but the quality lousy. lols. funny. anyway...yeah. went with the usual...xt, wx, sharon, jaime. lido was cold. aTE there...and there were these policemen...walking ard...so scary. one whole grp of them.

xt and wx were laughing in the mrt...dont know why. coming back...xt and i took interest in the back of the train. cld see the tunnel. and the lights. red, green...blue.. xt kept saying so contradicting...red and green. dont know why...but we found a fascination with the lights. hAhA. how many times do you get to see these sort of tunnels? well...maybe a lot...but ppl will think you're crazy. always watching the tunnels.

i've watched polar express too. on vcd. nice bah. quite short. harry potter-ish. but it's nice. i like everything that's christmas! so i've watched 4 movies so far this hol. prob the most i've ever watched in a holiday. and i'm going on to sec4 next year! wah. shut up. i'm not looking forward to it. stupid chinese. aH. eaTing time!~

TAUFIK ROCKS! oh yeah!! hE won man!! yayay!! hAhAHa..this is good. at least s'pore will have a chance to get into world idol. lol. imagine if sly went in...oh gosh. first...if there were auditions...he wouldnt even get thru. cuz if any of you watched malaysian idol....she can sing better than taufik or sly! but at least taufik has a chance..his voice is good. maybe he'll beat other countries... but sly.... i have my doubts. hah. ok...better not type anymore abt it. but i'm happy that taufik won. lol. american idol's coming back next year...cool...

i'm going to malaysia later on. till monday. aWwWw...dont miss me. *sobsob*. yeaH....funny thing is...this time round...i have no idea what i'm doing there. usuallly... meet this person...that relative...this time...i asked my mom...what we going there for? my mom said...play computer games... uhHh...excuse me...my dad's laptop doesnt even have an internet connection. ok. so i'm stuck with playing pinball...wow. how....interesting. well...there better be lots and lots of shopping. and also TIMES SQUARE!! aHhHH!! roller coaster!!!!!!! whEEEEEEEE!! lol. other than that...it's back to watching vcds and playing computer games...without an internet connection. no msn...no email. eEk.

oK....i just love my new template. jack jack! aHhHh!! hAhA. i gtg now. see you on monday!!~

it's the last month of the year. new template...incredibles!!! cute!~

I HATE FURRY GREEN BALLS!!~

wAssuP with sCrAbblE? it's a boring gaMe. LoL. dUh...aLL thoSe "rAffles" PPl wOn...wHo do u expect? PL? HAhA.

i mEt xT, wX & FeliX aT bugiS...Don'T know wHat thEy wEre doing tHere. Oh...i KnOw..tHey weRe thinking of namEs for thE whoLe bAtch 33. -LesS. liKe You KnOw...uSeleSs, hoPEleSs... lOl. FunNy. but LAME. tHerE Are sOmE FunNuy nAmes tHO.

i cAme uP wiTH a sEt oF cuStomiSed nUmbeRs.

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niCE? lEt mE eXplAin... CodE niNeteEn.rifLe fOrtYfivE.bAtcH thIrtytHrEE.birThdaY eiGhtEentH dAY oF tHE fOrtH moNtH in tHe yEaR nInEtEeneIghTyniNe. cooL? Ha. I'M juSt boRed.~

i'm still so tired. i saw eye bags on yingle's eyes.

still had to wake up to go down and help them form a sqd for promo test. yeah. not quite much of a use anyway. ended up with 6 cadets. wow. what a large number! so that was my motive. but i ended up taking promotion test...without any preperation at all. candice ma'am brainwashed me and jaime into taking...but jaime backed out without telling me!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i only found out after i was halfway through. thanx ah. and of course...i screwed my rifle MOI and baton drills. sure wont pass wan la. anyway. i've gained experience. that's good. i'll just take my rightful promo test in jan with the rest of the sgts. haha. thanx ah. mary made us march in turon position.

gB gave us laksa. thanx.

had debrief. only like...a few of us. but 3/4 of the time we were off point. really off. talking and laughing at ppl doing silly things...falling...i dunno! and just laughing!!! was really crazy. candice and rebecca ma'am were laughing and teasing. haha. esp the ppl who entertained ignorantly. haha.

i got scolded by my mom. for not going for piano and changing the day. oops. sorry la. didnt know the craziness would last so long. haa. so the same 6 of us went to serangoon mac to eat ice cream. and as usual mary would be hungry by then. so she ate a meal. haha.

i need to diet. F A T~

i'm back! too tired to type ytd. was practically staring at the tv watching austin powers ytd.

weLl...camp. generally quite slack. even the sec3s. there were funny moments..come to think of it. was so funny. promotion test....someone's beret so low...practically doing blind drills. haa. then cc test...

xt: what knot do you tie to a sleeve ring?
s: erm...bow....eRR...bow something. erM...is it bowling?
xt: bowling? (um cheo-ing) is that your final ans?
s: eRr...ya. bowling.

waHaHaHaHaHaHAhaHA!!! almost peng. i-games was quite ok. same ppl did silly things. poor cadets. turaiya made them kiss the mud. and suying's hair was damn sudki. ha. oh yes. i got so tired of maggie mee in the afternoon (4 ppl 4 packets). so i ate biscuits and milo for dinner. practically the usual peeps. SHY...me, celene...weiling...etc. the rest ate maggie mee.

skip to night walk. the most fun part!! seriously. i was so bored at the start point. but this is also the camp where the most ppl cried!! aHhH! oh man. are they scared or are they scareD? haha. the help code was damn funny. cuz we couldnt think of any other.

heLp = i'm a banana
fear not = i'm a papaya.

i heard most said it in the nco room. poor things. got scared by the dark and turaiya again. haha. so many funny incidents!!!!!!!! and it's really funny when u say it.

2nd day...fire drill at 3 am. we did some drills. and i must say that ee boon ma'am was totally disappointed in us. she didnt even bother to do anything. sigh. i'm feeling so guilty. sorRy ma'am. really very sorry. the rest of the camp was ok. but as i said...generally slack. no pumpings until candice ma'am broke the ice. but i heard they had to unpitch their tents at 3...and they slept in the newspp stand.

went back to sleep like a pig after that.~

Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson
Princess Diaries 2

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of a could-be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around wild indoors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway~

vc todaY!

i would say it was quite a success today....with some minor screw ups which was solved fast. was cool. but i tell you. i freaked at the sight of the mealworms. esp the fried ones. eEeeEeWw! me and grace were just doing the results tabulation. haha.

now...i did a stupid thing. really stupid. haha. shant type it out. but it's really stupid. haha. anyway...marist did the 3 tasks in 1 min. oh gosh. mad.

rebecca ma'am asked us to eat the xtra mealworms aft that. i freaked. and many of us too. said it tasted like nuts. eEeWw!!~

yOyO!! i'm having a migrain. i'm refraining from taking panadol. anyway...glad to hear that sharon's ok.

so anyway...lessons in the morning...-_-zzzZz. we did postcards for np. i dunno how they took so long to do 150 postcards. aft that was fancy drill...funny! we learnt vert and horizontal flip. cool.

aHh! charmed. bye!~

ahh!! hello bloggie!! haha. congrats to the pl floorball team for winning 1st. now....who dares to say pl sure lose wan?!?! hehe. oh man....unless you love high pitch screams...you wouldnt wanna be there. these schools were like screaming!! dots. so loud. almost went deaf.

ok. so me, tiff and grace went off 1st...nco course helper. no. actually...shuo hao yi dian is logistics. ha. went to heartland to eat laksa. then went to school. ok so the past two days wasnt that bad for me. i didnt undergo any serious bullying....just some teasing. like ytd...i met yibin sir in the bus. (and he talked so softly i cldnt hear a thing). ok...then after that me, tiff and grace were sitting down and well...the "luohan" thing started again.

hAhAs. so today...we helped out in the campcraft thingy. move here move there....tiring...but fun. i started pegging while the others went to move more things...oh boy...i miss the sound of pegs!! ahhHhhH!! haha. (tho i'm not a pegger la) then ee boon ma'am was teaching flagstaff nd i was acting pro...haha. nah. just wanted to join them...but no one invited me. so i wont be so bhb as to go there and ask. (bu qing zi lai) anyway... yeAh. went up to 4th level classroom to pass wh sir some key...and he started telling his cadets..."this girl look like luohan". hahahahaha. then he started the "last time...she my grp wan.." ergh. so embarrasing! hahahaha!!

ok. on the way back... mrs goh wanted to buy drinks for the CIs. so we helped her carry. (she's really caring.) so we went to offer drinks and the "luohan"thing started again. whateveR. yep.

after that...went to watch cc comp video...me and tiff were like laughing our way thru!! cuz mrs goh put it on FFW. so turaiya really looked so cartoon pegging so fast! really funny. but it was gr8. cc team sld really see this. hahahahaha. esp the capt and vice capt. haha.

i'm tired of typing ler. but seriously i feel that last year's jnco course was more fun...and funny! maybe it's just cuz the few of us were in cookie monster. hahah. and all the crazy things that happened. hAaa. i think our badge really naughty. kana so many pumpings. hEeX. ~

i have nth to write. except that i'm full these 3 weeks.

week1: lessons, jnco course
week2: a math lessons, pack nco room, and np sessions
week3: camp prep and camp itself.

i'm so dead.

anyway. beishan advised me to write this if i didnt know what to write on my blog.

i miss beishan. i miss beishan. i miss beishan. i miss beishan.
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i miss beishan. i miss beishan.
i miss beishan. i miss beishan.
i miss beishan. i miss beishan.
i miss beishan. i miss beishan.
i miss beishan. i miss beishan.
i miss beishan. i miss beishan.
i miss beishan. i miss beishan.
i miss beishan. i miss beishan.

there. haha. happy?~

Why The Egg Broke
Junior Nco Course 2003

firstly. some of the activities conducted required us to go on our hands and knees.
some of these activities were the physical training, doing punishments, and the topograhpy as we had to move around a lot.
it was mainly during the physical training that the egg broke into tweo pieces.
during the atomic situps, someone accidentally sat on the person who was holding the egg in the pocket.
thus, the half damaged egg was damagaed even further.
during the caterpillar pushups, we had to lie flat too thus smashing the egg.
the egg was damaged partly because of this.
i'm not saying that these activities wholely caused the egg to break.
we were also careless with the egg in the handling and keeping it.
most of the time we did not think of the condition of the egg and just left it to one person to keep it.
thus, it was not onloy one person's fault that the egg broke because it was the responsibility of the whole group to keep it in good condition.
We did not care about the gg mosr of the time thus not knowing how the egg was.
This is why the egg broke. (200 words)~

Say It Isn't So

Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call, you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterday
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Tempt to find but at least we've tried
We're still alive with hopes this time
As they closed the door behind you
We're so alone and time stands still
Shake the ground beneath the wheels as
I wish I'd never found youWohoh
How can I be smiling when you go
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Miles, miles to go
Before I can sail
Before I can nail my love for you to sleep
Oh darling
I get miles, miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again

Gareth Gates

parting is painful. i've finally come to a full understanding of that.

i really felt like crying in school. yes. today's the last day that we see our seniors. they'll be on study leave next week. parting with this badge is esp painful...one, because we're only 1 year apart and two, we're closer than with other batches. it's painful to see them go. i really wanted to start crying in the hall. but i have this record about not crying during sch hours. hEld back my tears.

if i hadnt joined np...i wouldnt have been able to meet such nice n good seniors...and from there...meet others who are not frm np. i have not regretted joining the musical...altho i may keep complaining and complaining....and complaining about it. i got to meet diff ppl with diff talents there. and it's really sad to see them go...

you never know where they're going aft sec4...whether they're going to which jc, poly oreven overseas. yes. i'll miss them. miss the happY times we had together..playing, fooling ard when we're not supposed to. to craziness and the teasings. tho they may be just fun but as i look back...i just miss that times where we laughed and what we went thru together...whether it's the scoldings and pumpings frm np...or other things like chalets, parties or just gatherings. i'll miss the times we went out together... and so many things they did for us.

ok. shut up leanmay. you're gonna start crying.

to my sEniorS...all the beSt in your O's. don't leT yourself down. =) ~

i'm gonna feel so alone. so lonely! aHh! *sob*

NeWaTer visit is on 3 nov. thanx ah. i'm going for atc can? anyway. hope ms ferng will put me in the1st slot. 2 nov. but then it'll be with other classes! i'll be a loner. yes. i do havE friends. duh. but it's not those you usually go with. no fun. *sob* ferng was talking to long today. cldnt talk to her. sEE la! all this traces back to what? musical. -_-. if i went for my own area's atc...all this trouble wouldnt have happened. erGh.

ok. so it's decided. i-am-going-to-take-sciences-in-JC! i hate humanities. it's practically...inhuman! how can that erGH! teacher fail me? by one mark! thanx. my humanities sux la. pig. the highest in class is even lower than what i got for mid year. pig pig pig. hate you hate you hate you. how to rely on geog to pull up SS? mad mad mad. thank God i made it for lit. hA. did waYyYy better than mid year. heeX. i so hate this.

~*AloNe on 2 NoV*~

ok school today wasnt so boring. congrats to a2! hA. at least we made it to top 4. hEE. after that was alright. some went to view the holding school. the rest... watched movies. i thought...actually most of us thought deep blue sea would be boring at first. but soon we started screaming at the top of our voices when the shark came and ate someone up. scary! was screaming the whole way thru. but cool. how often do you get to watch a movie with your friends and scream your way thru? try doing that at a cinema.

tmr's grooming session. i'm so "excited". ok whatever. friday's scaRy! hAhaHa. i'm not looking forward to any paper. ~

i realised i havent blogged for almost a month. record timing! whatever. i've finally grown bored of playing gunbound. i cant go on playing everyday. i'll die of boredom. maybe tmr?

ok. it's just the 1st day of post exam and i can predict that it isnt gonna be a fun week. inter-house games tmr. grooming course on wed. and today's "board games"...wasnt any board game at all. scrabble? boggle? yo. i play that with my mum. not with my friends. and i usually end up watching tv instead of thiking of words.

friday's not gonna get any better. i'm waiting to see how badly i failed my a math paper. and humanities? ha! i'm not looking forward to it.~

been mugging the whole week!!!!! will be until i finish exams. only reason i allowed myself to come online today was to get some info.

stressEd!! stupid exams. so much to study. pig pig pig!!

mummy bought a few guppies. hEE. cuteXx. but my parrot fish's cuter.

np on saT was ok. was great. hA. we finally took over. muster parade was good. mary's voice was too low! ha. games...water bomb. got really wet. lAa.~

eveR wondered how sian really feels like? it's not bored or tired. it's just....s-i-a-n. school today is one good example. typical sian. freE 2 periods at the start of the day. double math. physics was ok...considering i like the chap on light. double english just talking abt tmr's oral. i fell asleep. which i normally wont unless i'm sick or really sian. a math was just going thru corrections and a lil of chap 11. sian or what? it was really hot and the sun rose so early today. making it feel like 7am altho it was just 6.45. i came home feeling lethargic. and with my muscles still aching, haha. i cldnt climb the stairs that well, nor cld i sit down properly. heEx. weLL. it's just the 1st day of term 4 and i'm complaining. shall look forward to the days ahead and it's time i started studying!!!~

tired. my legs cant move, back pain. hA. it was worth it. promotion test.

waited till 10 to take. practised outside the staffroom. saw ms ferng. she straightened her hair. promotion. grace was good. haha. guess what? i did sedia for moi!! aHaHaHaha!! cool cool. was staring at grace when i said it. then xt got senang diri! heEx. she stare at me. no one did sendeng....or however u spell it. so no one got it for moi. some were good some were...hMMM....laA. hA. but on the whole was ok la. the 4 present sgts took the lcps. wonder how it went. they get to do moi next week. thank god we did it today. erMx. after that went bk. met me partner. tireD now. good night!~

yOoO! firstly, i wanna say happy teachers day to all teachers.

okie. the celebration was ok la. quite tiring even when you're the audience. ha. kewl. didnt know that so many teachers were thought by the present teachers in school! ms ferng taught ms kok! cool!

stayed back for chem. went thru test papers. i cant stand it. 1 more mark! and that mark was just cuz i was careless! i always miss full marks like tht. eRgH! hA. anyway, i left halfway. heck. she allowed us to leave. those who have no more corrections. yea.

going swimmin afterwards. meanwhile, still struggling to dl gunbound. 61%! ahhH! so long more! i wanna play. classmates have been talking about it.~

came home at 9.30 last night. went for violin.

grace was late. but we reached there on time. thank god she didnt scold today during violin again. well, i guess cuz there were other people there. managed to play the concerto...but got lost somewhere in space. was trying to keep the same bowings with the others for music of the night.

we didnt know where to eat after that. vivian and i wanted pastamania. but. there were some objections. ended up at heartland mac. heartland mac! 1st thing, heartland (boring). 2nd thing, mac?! i'm sick of mac. mian qiang la. well. sat there and talked and laughed with mindy, grace, josephine and vivian. i think we're mad. talked abt loads of stuff. and kept laughing. mindy was imitating josephine.

we kept seeing weird things that day. 1st in the mrt, we saw a pair of gays. this girl side of the gay kept taking pictures and he kept posing in some akward way. mindy imitated him later. so funny!! anyway, we were all staring at him. so disgusting! hAhA! and later while walking back to the bus stop, me and josephine spotted a pair of lesbians. at first we thought it was just a couple. then they turned and the were both girls. o-kay..dots....

went home with josephine. took 105 with me. found out she stays very near me. cool. but i was late home by 30 mins. there's cell on tue. wonder who's going. there's violin on wed...wonder who's going.~

i finally have new songs to play on the computer. yAy! concerto in D minor sounds great. but too fast for me to play.~

i cant stand it anymore!! i have to download kazaa! i've been listening to the same old songs for the past few days over cyberweek! hopefully my com doesnt hang when using it.

couldnt resist coming online. nothing to do, nothing to watch.

gosh. does she have pms today or what? she kept scolding us during violin. we have always been so talkative, so restless, so rowdy. why is she only scolding us now? kept staring at me. so i stare back lor! (crush me ah?) no. anyway. was ok. she kept going thru the same parts. and expects us to play the whole song? hello?! we havent even really gone thru in detail the rest of the piece. how to make it by next fri? xiang yi xiang ba. and everytime we only get to play 2 or 3 pieces. sigh. i shouldnt be complaining but...

okie. gonna go do kazaa installation!~

whOoO!! i changed my blogskin. didnt really like the previous one. at least this is betta. this is black! yeaH! but i find it a bit messy. with the white words and stuff. well...this would make do for the next few months.

cyberweek's finally come to a close! another whOoO!! my eyes are gonna pop out. *pop* sigh. i guess it's time to go back to school and eat canteen food. i think i've put on weight during the 3 days. hEEx.

nth to do ler. byes!~

bloggie!!!!!!!!!! miss me??

i've spent these 3 days staring in front of the computer. i tell you...i'm not gonna come online for no reason for the next few days! i'd rather study! i'm sick and tired of the computer!

cyberweek day1: woke up at 5am just to do module 2.
day 2: module 3 & 1
day 3: who knows?

been doing this for the past 3 days: computer, read, tv, computer, read, tv, computer, read, tv.

no gunbound for me to play. whaTeveRs. eyes popping out soon.~

heng ah!! wah. sho heng! lao shi can see my typing on the net. hehe. that means i dont need to go back to school to do! yaY! yea. having to change in and out of hansware to read is better than going back to school. lalalala. ~

it's official. my computer is mad. m-a-d mad. no matter what you do to it, it'll still be crazy. see, if i open hansware, i cant see the chinese words. not unless i put it to IE4 compatible. but my IE is IE6. and once i put it to IE4 compatible, i cant type the words into the box. that means, to type, i have use normally, but when i type, i cant see anything. to see it, i have to switch to IE4 compatible. crazy or what?~

reformating is one good thing. but it's still troublesome. damn. the IE here is only IE4. i need IE5 and above for cyberweek. and my hansware cant work with IE4. not say it cant work. strange thing is...when i start it i cant read the chinese words. how am i supposed to do my cyberweek like that man? one more thing. it's damn quiet. no mp3!~

ahhH!!! reformatting the computer was the best thing that happened to the computer. i feel so light now. no more junky!! whOoO!! but i have to reinstall everything. msn, msn plus, media player9.... take my time la. i've installed hansware. it can finally work!! yay! i think this com's quite ready for cyberweek exept for macromedia flash. hehe. diff things here and there. scroll bars are finally with colour...as they're supposed to turn out. oops. i have an a math test tmr...~

pl won the challenge shield this year. cool man. yeAh. well...for netball...pl was first. beat yy and zhss. oOo. we were so nervous. the match against zhss was a good one. they were no pushovers. they were good. but pl managed to win. heex. bball...i wasnt there to watch. but pl won too. street soccer was alrights. the girls were more gentle with the ball. pl lost to zhss at the last minute. cheering...duh. pl won. go sqdmates! so we got the shield. cool. what was entertaining was the officer's match. the CIs wore their lamers jersy. haha. and their match was great. some were real pro. *thumbs up*

i went home frm there. only to find that my face was red and burnt and my arms and legs were burnt too. 2 colours. this is what you get for sitting under the sun for too long. thinking that you can tan youself but actually you're burning yourself.

went for violin lesson at funan. i was late. as always. grace didnt go. and mindy & josephine went for church. which leaves me to play "solo" for the concerto in d minor. well. dr wong played the whole piece. and most of us were stoning there. trying our best to find our way back to the piece. we did. at the last 3 notes. such a sense of "satisfaction". the other pieces were alright i guess.

went to eat dinner with my family. went to see my bro's workplace. cool. he was drooling over this computer that his shop sold. its a computer cum radio cum tv cum dvd cum vcd player/writer. which had to cpu and had a wireless internet. and cost only $2999. now that's cool. well. i hope my bro changes his com soon. i can inherit his old one (which is still quite new) and get rid of this dying computer over here. (freaky. continued playing the song altho i exited from yibin sir's blog)

yeS! finally. i don't need to stay back for anything anymore. i seriously need to catch up on my work as well as my violin. well...yeaH. i still have piano tmr. other than that. heex. i'm coming home to slack. ;) ~

i don't know. i listened to a sad song and i started to feel sad. what is this? pms? maybe. i feel funny, cant explain it.

anyway, chinese o's are out. cool. wonder how they fared. heard that a2 didnt do quite well.

i look calm. i feel calm. but inside i'm actually dying. it's my piano exam tmr. and i have this feeling i'll screw up somewhere. but i wont. i know i wont. (i get to miss lessons!!) i musn't.

trainings in the afternoon have been alright. played with the soccer team. vanessa (sec2) is good at scoring. and i had great fun blocking her. cheerleading is going fine. i think. they'll look nice with the pom poms. soccer...kewl. the only game that i dont know how to play.

i feel so tired nowadays. just wanna lie down and sleep till noon. some lessons are completely boring. but i cant help listening cuz my conscience takes over and forces my ears to listen. yaWn. nothing interesting's happening. except for challenge shield on sat. i feel so bored.~

i so hate my computer ya? thanx a lot. i blogged so much. it's time i changed my com.

well..to cut it short..shopping for the perfect gift isnt that easy. and. considering that you're rushing for time...that makes it more difficult. beishan woke up late. so we had to go for the later service. so we decided to go to ps and look ard. and ended up not deciding what to buy and ended up late in church. hA.

piano concert was alright. i made a huge load of mistakes. but my 2nd piece was great. no mistakes. and this student of my piano teacher's friend...woaH! so pro! (violin) heR vibrato! so cool! her pieces were so long and she memorized all! i think she was abt my age. must be abt grade 7? her fingerings...her vibrato. i fell in love with it. and if she was a guy...i would've wanted to marry him! so now...my mid-term goal: to play like that girl. cOol man. that's what a violin should sound like.

anyway, happy birthday to singapore (yA...like i'm so patriotic!) ha. happy birthday to xiaoting too!! august is one month that i go broke. so many birthdays!~

i just feel a need to write this. i just need to get it off my chest.

why. why. why. why. why. do you keep complaining?!?!? like just shudup and accept what you're supposed to do can? wait. everyone knew what you wanted. but you only told your friends. how are the others supposed to know?? they dont have ears hanging around in school you know. so what..you expect them to put you into wherever you want to be? how do they even know?

so of course they'll just put you into something else. you're lucky if you had gotten what you want...but you're not so just accept the damn fact and fufill your duty. and you're just pushing all to others just cuz you dont like yours? what's this? irresponsibility? just cuz you dont like it doesnt mean you dont have to do anything. what if i tell them abt it? what will happen to you? whatever. i just hope you'll stop your lousy attitude cuz it's not gonna help in any way and ppl will just get irritated.

the damn reason why you're sulking right now is cuz you just told ur friends...who else knew? no one. what can you expect? just learn to accept that you cant have all the things in life can? stop being a spoilt brat. i am getting irritated with you...you/re always like that. any small thing that you dont get...you say you wanna quit. you might as well quit right now. quit from the whole thing.

there. i got it off my chest. feels better. i dont think anyone understands what i'm saying. haha~

finally...5 aug. it's finally gonna be over. everything. like after a busy july...thank god. it's time i started concentrating on my studies as well as my piano. sigh. it's just like campcraft. going back early will be a weird thing again. hA.

anyway... i asked mary to do the stand down thing today. so exciting! put notice on the board without officers signature. cool. hAaAaA. i havent gotten the file from wenxin yet. cant really remove notices from the board yet. this is an exciting job. at least it's not those slacker type. yet some ppl are crying over it. sigh.

i just realised after this weekend i still have loads. piano exam, geog test on wed, lots of hmk, challenge shield, peer tutoring. how i wish 1 day had 36 hrs. i could sleep half of it and work on the other half.

there's really nothing to type. off to play gunbound...or something.~

aHhHhhHhhh!! oOoOoo!! wHoOoO! WaAAaAaAaaA!! in my blog, i can scream all i want. i've been having a sore throat the past few days. sexy voice. cant even sing anymore! no. i'm more than just a sore throat. i'm down with the cold.runny nose, cough, tiredness, sore throat... dieing here. i had to take panadol today. slept thru a math period. she didnt teach anything new anyway.

i almost died during ndp rehersal. so sick. we did it 3 times! and the 3rd time i almost fainted. so pisst lor. so late liao. ergh. yea.

had the musical celebration. i'm not supposed to be here. i'm supposed to be in school! but grace 4got to bring her shirt. so we wore sch u and went. planned to go home aft dinner. afterall, i'm still sick and having napfa challenge tmr!! if anyone wld to injure themselves...i'm sorry to say i cant take over. i'll probably get admitted into the hosp.

so we stayed for the singing part, the games part. played the bomb...kept bombing teachers. wanted them to clean up...cuz the forfeited grp had to clean up. then had the cheering part. stefanie led the boom chicka boom...damn funny. did it mrs tan's way..

boom shudup boom
boom shudup boom
boom shudup sit down shudup sit down shudup boom
shudup...
sit down...

hahahaah! so funny. sld have seen mrs tan's face. yea. then planned this item thing. "the spooth of the musical" wonder how it turned out. we musicians jooined the dancers. crazy people there. wanted to do the fighting scene i think.

went home with grace. she took cab. so i took one too. we waited till 8...cuz 7pm has extra 1 dollar. came home...and slack! lalalala.

yea. finally saturday tmr!! yeA!~

oh man. poor sqdmates. they have a million mosquito bites on their arms and legs.

the songs cant get outta my head. first is the cactus song. then is come dream with me. then testimony of his love. then the is this a nightmare song. then thru his eyes.

ok whatever. i think i'm falling sick. everyone ard me is sick! my partner, my mom, ruoyi, min weis, the band ppl...i'm dieing. lalalalala. i think i'm coming down with a sore throat and runny nose.

now let's see...oh yeah. i said i'll talk abt the musical right? yea. well. i have 2 big pimples thanx to make up. yea. 1st show was great. some screw ups here and there. but good. 2nd show, not that gr8 la. guess it was because like what mrs tan said, a bit machenical. last show was phenominal!! hahahahahahaha. ya. last show was the best. we started screaming aft that. well...i think it was gr8 lar. gonna miss all the funny ppl. and yolanda's cactus actions. haha. having a dinner on friday. cool. wonder what it'll be. packet rice? hAhA! nah. how abt a nice ballroom! hEe. anyway. yeA. made new friends there. guess it was a time for interaction as well.

i really have nothing to do. not that i'm slacking. i really cant find any work to do. cant find hmk. no hmk today. and no left overs to do. a math test was for once easier.well...cuz mr low set wan!! lalala. but it still has this ms lau-ish thing in the paper. ha.

3 tests next week. dont know why. ok. i'm so dead. a slight sore throat will turn into a serious one. nooOoOo!!~

yo! i'm back! actually...i'm back from no where. ya. haha. musical's over. was really gr8. talk abt it tmr. bz talking to my sqdmates. congrats to sharon.~

i didnt want to come online today. wanted to study physics. but i gave into temptation after studying 1 chapter.

well...i think it was a good decision. or not i'll not be able to come online till next sunday. being just 2 days away from farewell..i still have this farewell spirit in me. reading hEr blog almost made me cry. if my computer was in my room...i would cry my eyes out.

i wouldnt say farewell was very well done. i wouldnt say it was badly done either. but being a campfire, and being in the carpark, being the one who is organising, it's a totally different atmosphere. you dont really feel like crying. not all the time like in the past years. haha. well...i think not until constance ma'am started it.

but yeah. after reading her blog. i really feel like crying. i'm gonna miss 'em. how they lead, how they do things. taking over is a totally different matter. we're not sec2 anymore...we're not waiting for the next batch to take over....WE are taking over. it was every of our dream to take over. always dreaming of when we're taking over...when we don't need to suffer anymore. but now, i don't know about you. but i feel that i'm gonna miss how others manage the unit. we know nuts abt this. we didnt understudy.

and i think what gwen ma'am said is true. you don't treasure the np sessions when you're sec1 or sec2...but now...as we take over...treasure all the times you get to dawn on the uniform. yes. i am gonna do so (although the uniform is damn hot).

it's a whole new perspective now. well...i mean after the sec4s really leave. like...after ndp. wonder what it'll be like. wonder who are in what comittees. constance ma'am wants me to take over store. seriously speaking...i don't mind. tidying up the rifle range...hehe. nd i'll pick up all the dowel poles and the flagpole...and start getting emotional abt campcraft again. haha.

yes. i'll miss the sec4s. afterall, they've been with us since we were sec1s. they've been with us thru the punishments, chalets, camps, crazy moments, drills...so many. gonna esp miss those who i am or i was close to.

i feel so sad. don't know what to say. to batch 32, wish you all the best in everything...o's...etc.

(wish me luck for the next week ahead! starting this busy schedule again~)

7 days since i've blogged. well. i've been busy. VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY BUSY. all who's fault? yA. you may be able to guess. for those who cant, give you a hint. it's not np.

ok. ytd was farewell. so saD!!!!!! haha. yep. we were hMm. disorganised? oops. yeA. well, only a few cried. phEw. or else i'll start too. yep. was running ard here and there....serving. went home late. anyway, they took the mat frm the teacher's table. and me and xt didnt know. we threw it into the bin. oops! die. take out and wash. haha. put back and dry. lalalala.

not much time for interaction la. but felt like crying when yuling ma'am talked abt the time we cried. abt that story. and wanted to cry even more when gwen ma'am said she'll esp miss the cc team. aW man. really wanted to cry.

yeA. today went to school to prac. prac in the e.hall...hand was frozen. then stoned in the hall. on the way home...was with ruoyi, euodia, faith and a sec1...ruoyi was horny. talked abt...haha. yea. dunno how we came up with a half dress rehersal on monday. yea. wear half the clothing.

well...here's my programme for next week.

Monday: Full dressed rehersal at acsb
Tuesday: Photo taking
Wednesday: nothing yet. but maybe GOH practise?
Thursday: last rehersal
Friday: ATC!!! nah. musical of course.
Saturday: ATC!!! no. musical.
Sunday: finally! a break! no. go train for napfa challenge.

i'm busy. dont expect to see me online till next sunday. see ya!~

this is irritating. i'm sorry if i'm being irritating. but i am being irritated that's why i am this way.

don't talk to me about musical anymore. i want to hear none of it. seems like they all want me to join musical. and dun wan me to go atc? shit them la. it's my passion to go for atc.

anyway. Bible says "let not your heart be troubled" right? if you don't have the peace to do something, don't do it. if you don't have the peace to eat something, don't eat it. so, i dont feel at peace going for musical. so why am i still doing it? easy answer. i feel like i'm being forced to. i know they say what dun let peer pressure affect you. but what if i chose atc? i'll be black listed? i'll get into deep trouble. so they're indirectly forcing me to go 4 what i dont want. it's like...they say i have a choice. but actually i dont. why cant you just grant me the freedom of choice? i prefer atc, i love np more, i'd rather train up my stamina at camp rather that strain my fingers while playing the violin. yea. i know it was my fault i didnt say so earlier. but how can you totally blame me? i was told that i wasnt confirm in the thingy. so i didnt really seed the urgent need to go find her. so yes. what's the deal abt changing the programme? at the most just announce that there's a change. or dont let ppl know la. does it matter to strangers anyway?

this turned out to be longer than expected. but i wanna say....and i'm not afraid to say that...my heart will be with camp camp camp thruout this. i will never change my opinion of this. nEvEr. so too bad.

i shant say anymore. because i'll start crying again if i do.~

i think i've finally decided on something.

Camp. AtC. and here are my reasons. first and foremost, you think the officers will allow me not to go?

secondly, call me lazy. Musical needs practise. Atc...just go there and chiong and have fun!

thirdly, i got this feeling atc will be more fun. besides the punishments and the lack of sleep. duh right. camps are more fun. musical...you feel a sudden sense of great achievement after it finishes. but at the same time you feel like you have a great burden off your back.

forthly, if i go for musical, i either wont get to go for atc at all or i'll have to go with other areas. tell me, who feels safe going with other ppl you dont know? i mean, you'll feel lonely. yes. you make new friends. but having friends that you know well is better. good sqdmates that will care more abt you than any others.

Fifthly, i cant turn up for most of the musical practises. If i do, i'll miss GOH trainings and sec4 farewell. And i'm not directly involved in the musical. GOH is a yes. and sec4 farewell...we're in charge.

Sixthly, either you're committed to one or another. In this case, it can't be both.

Seventhly, rope obst and campcraft seems more appealing to me. Night walks...campfires...they all sound betta. yes. i know musical is a once in a lifetime thing. but so is sec3 atc. heard it's a lot different from sec2 atc. and i want my badge. haha.

Eighthly, i'll be missing and probably thinking of what i'll be doing at musical at atc, but i'll sure be angry and missing my sqdmates and jealous of them when they come back if i go for musical.

so there you go. 8 reasons as to why i chose atc. i don't know what ms loh's reaction will be if i tell her tmr. but if she insists i go for musical. it's not my prob anymore. i'll leave it to the 2 teachers to argue it out. i'll just tell her that i wanna go for atc.
if turaiya can quit from the main cast just to go for atc, why can't i? i'm not saying i'm not interested in violin anymore, but my decision is atc. you either be loyal to one or the other. in this case, i choose np. so don't try to change me decision. i'm promising myself i'll stick to it.~

dunno dunno dunno dunno dunno.

camp musical camp musical camp musical.

chinese chem chinese chem chinese chem.

everything! i forgot to bring home my chem book. die.

i don't wanna think about camp or musical. i'll talk about today. it's been 3 weeks since i've been back to my own church. after going to ncc for the past 3 weeks. was getting used to going to serangoon mrt at 9.50. anyway. aH. see la. not ard for 3 weeks. the youth led the whole worship thing today. and almost everything was run by the youths today. cool. even the message. hA. a bit of screw ups. but very well done for the first time. laAaAa.

i have tons of chinese to study tomorrow. sure, i would love to go watch spiderman tmr. but i have lots of cheng yu, yan yu and guan yong yu to learn! mrs goh wrote one thing on the board and the paper said another. how am i supposed to know how many to learn?

kinda looking forward to the sec4 farewell practise on tue. we're finally in charge. finally. wonder how it'll turn out. wonder who'll be the first to scold. and who'll be the fiercest. hEE

i decided to add this in...
goodness! *smacks head* why is everyone so bloody pisst abt training sessions? what's everyone's problem? just relax a bit can? hello?!? you think only you are damn tensed up? like everyone is! so just stop this abt what...so pisst...so disappointed abt this and that. complaining won't help. wanna make a difference? well do something about it! don't just sit in your chair and type it in your blog! (i'm referring to myself too. look at what i'm doing now.) yes. writing something in your blog may or may not wake ppl up. (eRm.i think i'm contradicting myself.)

ok. whatever. i'm getting too tensed with everything going on. just feel like asking someone to decide everything for me. something like the perfect decision? i don't wanna keep thinking of which one i should go for. i feel like i'm stuck somewhere between two walls...unable to move. so don't blame me if i'm cranky this July. i really have lots going thru my mind. Lord, please help me find the peace so that i'll be able to make the right decision. Thank you. ~

hAppY yOutH daY! hMm. teachers put up a good performance today. fashion show. nice. ms lau...so hip! if she dressed like that...maybe she wont look so old. hehe. quite chio oso. hMM. mrs tan was funny. haha. ms ferng. wHoOo!! she can shake man!! haha. ms ang so active. cool. looked good in the street wear.

anyway. yep. lessons lessons. and my time-table didnt change! eRgH! i'm stuck with double periods. and physics. cool. this is real cool. 1 week and we finished 2 chpts! 3 periods one chapt. today another 2...finished another. cool right? tests start next week. i'm so dead. with np np np...staying back almost everyday. how am i supposed to study for test?

speaking of np. today was ok la. time passed fast. thank god. my feet were killing me. sole cramp. ok. so we saw ThIs sec1 learning to march. i was trying to control myself frm even um cheo-ing. but i saw sharon shaking. so i started laughing. and yingle too. erm. ha. it's really funny. not that i kpo go look can? is right in front of me...i cant look away right? was really funny. after that laughed and laughed. haha.

whatever. i'm not in the best of mood now. no one is to piss me off. guess what. just when i started giving up the thought of attending musical...playing violin...ms loh gave me and grace the scores for musical. and that really stirred my feelings again. and now. i'm in a dilemma. i've counted. by the rate np trainings are going. i only have time to attend drips and draps of practise sessions...and only 1 full rehersal. and...AnD...even if i do practise...i cant even go? unless you allow me to go for atc with other areas? but still...i will be so lonely. so yes. musical...atc...musical...atc. dont try to convince to to go for either. cuz i really wanna go for both. i cant say which one i wanna go more. so dont attemp to say anything about persuading me.

as i said. july is a bad month. everything clashes. i'm either gonna go crazy. or physically breakdown. i hope july passes fast. really really really fast. get on to august!~

hurray!! *clap clap* i repaired the computer! turns out that there was some programme interfering with the IE. deleted it.

no time to type much. i'm growing older. i just forgot to polish my boots and badges! dead.~

aHhhhHHhHh. gimme a break la! stupid com. always giving me problems. i still cant open IE. and guess what. i tried. i tried to dl msn explorer! and it kept hanging. cldnt even log in. log in oso cannot! whAt's wrong with this com?!?! it's time to get a new one!

anyway. cool man. this whole singapore blackout. lalalala. mine came back ard 30mins. thank god. hehe. it was cool. outside pitch dark. was gonna sleep. but came out and stare into space. no air-con. no fan. how to sleep? lalla

anyway. school today was ok la. SS...ms ang came in. ms chin!! no more ms chin! why does sch. keep changing teachers?!?!? will they just stop it! ok. nvm. haha. she let us watch spiderman! lalalala. cool.

i dont wanna write anymore. this computer is making me depressed.~

something's really wrong with this thing. and windows explorer keeps hanging. something's wrong with this computer.

i'm sorry to say...1st day of school and i'm already complaining. i don't care who reads this.. this is my blog. i am free to write anything i want. no one can condemn me. so read it and keep your mouth shut if you have any bad comments.

i-want-my-form-teacher-back! i want mrs tan back! wth lor. gimme new teacher...who is...boring! totally. so i judge someone on the first day. who cares? 1st impression counts. and to me, she's boring. lil bit of resemblance to ms loh though. the way she talks. i'm not saying i cant adjust to changes...i just feel mrs tan's way of handling things are better. wait. wait until i find out the main reason why...then i'll come back and write more. continuing...she asked us to intro ourselves on paper. erM. who we like best in the class? huH? hello? what kinda bo liao qn is that? like i always ask.."wu liao mei shi zuo ah?"

so you see...school hasnt gotten off to a good start for me. hope it improves. monday's boring. well...math..hA. ms kang didnt have a math TB. cannot teach. so we did our own things. she's still the same. soft...likes to sHhHhH. haha. we'll see how her teaching for math is la. haha. funny girl. and from np!! hAhA. still a bit the not over it. hehe. my senior senior senior senior.............. hA.

wHaT's in store for me tmr? hopefully something betta. physics and chem. maybe science will be bettA. hopefully.~

something's wrong with my IE. i'm using windows explorer.

and so...today's the last day of my freedom. well...at least until the next holiday! anyway. yes. went to church this morning with beishan. yep. hMm.... shine Jesus shine brought back memories. yes. good memories. memories of church camps...light sticks...sigh. those were the days... ha.

i ate an expensive lunch. at esplanade library. cuz beishan went there to pia hmk. i went home...pia some newspaper thing. more or less done. more or less packed. stupid time-table.

i go thru this every last day of the holidays... i don't wanna go back to school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cries. i dun wanna wake up early. bleah. cant stand it. i dun wanna start studying again. erGh. esp with the change of new teachers. what's the problem with the school? sec3 is foundation year! ergh

4get it. no amt of complaining will give me 1 xtra week of hols.~

That's Why(You Go Away) by Micheal Learns to Rock

Baby want you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head


Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There is so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

It's been a crazy and hectic week with pk course and drills. now that it's over, i feel a small tinge of relief. small. another problem's popped up. it's called HOMEWORK.

Saturday is gonna be more relaxing. But, it's the "choing-ing day". i am gonna chiong all my homework. all that i can do that is. as for those i have no idea how...well...good luck to me.

meanwhile, yeS! slacked the whole day. i'm addicted to reading harry potter again. hopefully i dont get a chance to read it tomorrow! or else i'll be reading thruout. anyway, you! hey you! don't you dare disturb me tomorrow you hear? disturb me and i'll cut of your head on the first day of school. that would at least provide me with some entertainment...since monday's lessons are boring! -oops- i'm not over with the time-table thing!

i have seemed to have forgotten that i still have a sunday. that's a day to start worrying where all my books are, where all my hmk is and whether i forgot anything for school. mind you, i have only 1 pair of shoes left for school...since i soiled one during kayaking.

this one month has passed so fast. school stuff. i'm not surprised if in the near near near future, there would be a "give us back our holidays!" protest right here in Singapore.

still, "let your heart not be troubled". i know i'm becoming obsessed with this phrase but it's from te bible! in other words, in profound english, "find peace in whatever you do." in simple enlish..."lac la!" i'm not saying to lac abt your hmk and stuff...just don't over-worry. hA. reminds me of hermoine in harry potter. whateVeR.~

i just read someone's blog. and yes. i'm among the "few" to read it. we weren't there yesterday, she must have been very angry. i want to say. sorry on behalf. well, i'm scared. ha. i know our attitude has been sucky. even my own sqdmates, who don't bother to turn up when they just don't feel like coming. (sorry to offend anyone) sad to say, i didnt feel like going for today's training too. i think majority didn't feel like it. but hey. we still went. and on monday, when i was having a fever, i was thinking...if i dont get well by thurs, i'll probably come and sit down for 4 hrs? see, i cant stay at home. mom's not here. no one to write letter for me. i cant get an mc. too expensive and i have almost every kind of medicine at home. i'm scared. i'm scared i'll fall ill tmr. i'm sorry.

well...yeah. too bad for those people who didnt come today. they may have gotten into GOH. but now, well...in the first place, since they dont even bother to turn up, why wld they bother whether they're in GOH right? hA. nvm. let's talk about happier things.

selection for GOH...was more like..."american idol"? hahahaha. i'm not saying that we had "she bangs" auditions. it was just that they grouped us into 3 grps. 2 which would go into GOH. 1 supporting. happened that me and xt were in beishan ma'am's grp. ying le was in michelle ma'am's. then they moved me and xt to michelle ma'am's. then they announced ren cui ma'am, beishan ma'am's group was in the GOH. ok. imagine how i felt. but. ying le? not getting in? huh? ha. turned out they played a joke on us. aH. that was entertaining.

mr yeo again. aH. i say it was quite a good session towards the end. learning how to stop and the sound of the drums during parade. but we were laughing at erm. the way the drum sounds were imitated? haha. well. that's how it is.

piano. i screwed up what i played. totally. forgot all the notes though i had the score in front of me. what? cant blame me right? pk pk pk. ha. nono. fever fever fever. thank god i recovered fast. and i really mean thank you Lord! anyway, yes. i was trying to beat the sound of the construction outside. naturally i played...loudly? oops. a bit to aggressive.

"Let your heart not be troubled"<----- uH...John chapter 15 verse something. so find peace in whatever you do. and if you dont have the peace, don't do it. and don't be so troubled. it'll make you look older.~

what the. obviously someone's trying to stop me from complaining abt my time -table. thanx 4 disconnecting me. whatever. i'll type it out again then. i scared you ah! this time table sucks. totally. the worst thruout my sec school life. seen nth like this before. watch this.

1st, math teacher change again. hope i dont start failing.
2nd, WHAT IS TOTALLY DAMN WRONG WITH THE DAMN SCHOOL?!?!?! HELLO?!?! EVER HEARD OF A CLASS WHERE THE FORM TEACHER ONLY GETS TO COME IN TO HER FORM CLASS ONLY 1 PERIOD A WEEK?!?!?!? WHAT THE? ENGLISH CHANGE TO THIS ULU TEACHER. HELLO?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I WANT MRS TAN BACK! by far the best teacher in my sch. life. thank you very much.
3rd, guess what. we have to stay back on fri just 4 cme. FRIDAY! AND IT'S NOT TAUGHT BY MRS TAN! WAH LAU. I HATE THIS!!
4th, geog and ss on the same day. humans in the same day?! you wanna drive me nuts?
5th, monday is boring
6th, i think they should change some boring lessons with a math. we still need more prac and a math and all they give is 4 periods?
7th, poor HCL girls. have to wait for 35 mins for their HCL on mondays. then stay back until so late. pity them. it's a waste of their time i would say.
in conclusion, this time-table sucks.

now, i'm so sorry. you should be wondering why this crazy lunatic hasnt blogged 4 5 days and when she does, she starts complaining abt her damn time-table. i'm so sorry. but it totally sucks. yes.

past few days pk course. i fell sick on monday. had a fever. went home to rest. tue was much betta. and today. i feel like a thousand needles have pierced my throat. hehe. yep.

well. here's what happened thruout the 5 days. sat...band concert. sun..sick. mon...sick. tue...no time. well....4days la. whatever. i'm tired. off to prepare my uniform!~

kayaking day 2

today. i'm not tired! wahahahahaha!!

ok. morning. guess what! we were earlY! like duh. went into the creek...thank god it's not the sea! i'm not seasick. but i'm getting sick of the sea. lalalala. learnt rescue. wOoOo!! cool!! totally. haha. ask for volunteer...no one volunteer. who's b'dae in apr? grace sabo me. do demo lor. capsize lor. eeEeW. but damn cool!! esp the deep water entrance or something. wahahaha. practise...then lunch

aft. lunch...learnt a few more strokes...then. play time! play to me in the water is splashing water. so i did. and soon...most of us were splashing here and there. the inst. used his paddle to splash. more efficient. wahah. so fun. then there was this half eaten apple...erm. we started playing apple polo with it? hAhA! then i saw a dead cat fish. eEeWW! i freaked!

inst. made us race to see who was the last to raft up. grAcEiE! so much 4 sabo-ing me. anyway. we all ended up singing peeping thru the window and the fisherman. hehe. horny.

anyway. play play play in the water...went back to the club. hehehehehe. washed the kayaks. then went to change. hehe. cool. got our certs. went to laminate it. our inst. quite nice la. not very strict. quite good. some peoples kept saying he's cute. erm. ok.

sigh. nice. i would like to thank jaime's sun block. i got a nice tan. instead of burn...grace. oh man. her burns are everywhere. cant touch her. it'll hurt. her face is red. ha. poor gal.

ok. went to heartland. ate kfc with grace, celene, jaime, turaiya. eat ler go mini toons buy sweets. then went to street magic. ok. we were like. caught there. caught by the magic tricks. damn nice. he persuaded us to join. haha. no money. we wan lor. but 3 ppl to $65...quite steep right? dunno la. no money currently. LaAA.

came home at 8? he. still floating. yay! tmr can wake up late! 3 cheeRs!~

kayaking day 1

i'm floating!! here and there...left to right...right to left...dont talk to me abt the sea right now.

i'm lazy to write the details. let's see...we arrived late. why? cuz...we got lost. batch 33 has this tendency to get lost whenever we go to an unfamiliar place.

ok. we did capsize drill in the morning...till abt 1230. we went into the water...kayak a bit...went 4 lunch. i sldn have eaten chicken rice. i felt nauseous after that.

went back...practise on all the strokes. lallala. felt like puking. dieded. haha. FFW...learnt how to get onto the kayak when you capsize.

i really cant write anymore. floating away~~~~~~

i've never spent so long cropping pictures b4.

anyway. went out to watch harry potter again today. yAy!! not as thrilling as the 1st time. haha. met celene and jaime..went bugis. ate at delifrance...then went to find something 4 celene...that cld hold all her neoprints. then went to take neoprints. yeA. got a bit of screw up. but got the sparkly deco. hEe.

then went to watch the movie. hehehehehehe. so nice. i want the book! aWw. beishan's in malaysia. i miss her!! hAhAhAhaHahaHaha! dotS. finish liao go back and take neoprints again. siao. ok. major major major screw up. dont know what jaime clicked on. we bu fu qi. take again! waHaHaHahA! this time it was nicer. ok la.

went to find it for celene again. well. she found something in the end. decided to go back. lazy to type details. yea. then the NEL was so crowded. so i rushed in. and they didnt! thanx man. got down and met them again in the next mrt. lalalalala.

lazy to type. tmr's kayaking. lalalalalala. i'm. not excited. not scared. nth. zilch.~

lalaallala. guess what i did today.

i think you might have guessed. i read the whole harry potter 1st book. yep. 12.30 to 5pm. i want to read the 3rd!! strange isn't it? i watch the movie then i read the book.

weLL. it's really nice. think i'm gonna see it tmr? not sure. i'm gonna be broke!~

yOoO!! didnt come online ytd. was busy reading..reading harry potter!! die. addicted.

AnYway. woke up at 8.30 in the morning...watched spongebob a lil...then went to central...picked up a hash brown and proceeded to the mrt station. well...boarded the train that beishan was in. went to city hall...walked to suntec.

was still early for church, so beishan bought a burger frm mac. went to line up (as always) outside the Rock. until abt 11.20? yeAH. church was gr8. was good. but pastor prince didnt speak. turns out he was still on holiday after their church camp. another pastor spoke abt the holy spirit (holy ghost) waHaHAhA was really funny!! made so many jokes...lame ones too.

afTer church went to eat lunch...duh. of course beishan wasnt hungry. so i ate. we wanted to watch harry potter but it was at 3.45...like 2hrs wait. so we went to carrefour...1st thing we saw was keyboard!!!yay! so we went and started playing with it. play play play...learnt how to play "first love" on it. until abt 3.25.

went up...bought the tix. watched the show. oOoO..cool. so zai. so sudki man. when he said the expecto putronum. he's getting more shuai..but malfoy's not. hA. cool movie. was really gr8. cuz beishan watched it for the 2nd time. but she says the 1st one's betta. well...yea. but both are really nice..dont know abt the 2nd movie...didnt watch it.

aftEr it finished was like...6pm? yeA. went to heartland to meet xt and wx. and...ryan. hA. kept the ryan part frm beishan. wanted to "kan hao xi" but..hAhA. nah. me and xt left both of em alone 4 a while...went to toilet. lalalalalala. anyway. went to take neoprint. no fun. i feel quite bad actually...making fun of beishan. hehe. yeA. this time take neoprint not so fun. lalala.

came home. die. i found the 1st hp bk. started reading...and reading...and reading...didnt go online. guess beishan must be reading her 3rd book too. hahA. oh yeah. she's going KL on tue i think. aHhHh!! times square! i wanna go!! roller coaster! fuN!! indoor theme park!! ahHh!! *jealous* well...i have kayaking on tue and wed la.

speaking of kayaking...beishan was telling me abt her and her sqd's experience 4 1 star. what the?? they put sun tan lotion! ahahahaha! they came back burning on the 1st day. 2nd day..still put! chao ta!! she said it was really pain. so i conclude that i shall put sun block and still come back with a nice tan. not burn!! i dont want dandruff!!

anyway. am i supposed to have piano lesson today? dont know. i thought break 4 3 weeks? nvm. she's sick. stomach flu. poor thing! well...still..*phew* i didnt practice. lalalalallala.

i'm getting addicted to this: eXpEcTo pUtRonum!~

erGh. what is wrong with blogger and blogskins!

tIrEd. tmr oso dunno how early to wake up. erM. yeA.

Went out at 11.40. met celene outside me house...took 105 to boundary rd there. hello?!? ann marie was late 4 half an hr! xt walked frm intercange. i was hungry!!!!!!!!! took 156 to PA. police carnival!!! we saw this bear...wearing np uniform...ahHH! so cute! but. we found out ltr. it costs $18.90. -_-'''.

went in to eat...ate octopus ball 1st..hello hello! are you ok? i asked for prawn ball....she gave me i octopus and 2 chicken? hahahaha. alright. then went to buy katong laksa. hEhE. yUmmy. went to walk walk ard...bought the police t-shirt thingy. haha. that's abourit la. quite boring this yr. not much stuff...not like lsat yr. wOaH. BK. PizzA huT. and so many games!!this yR. uH. except 4 the mini sized version of the clarke quay thing. you know...that one that goes up and down...and costs ard $30? yep. cool. but it was for kids.

took the free shuttle to toa payoh. sat at mos...drink...then went to celene house. oh man. haha. "palace" siah. haha. yep. big big. went to her basement. play X box. the jumping thing!! hahahahahahaahhaha! sream like siao. i kept getting hit off. then play the fighting game. but we didnt fight. cuz wanted to see how the game ended. hA. then played the racing game. i was 3rd..haha. how i know...kept running the wrong way. lalalalala. then went up to eat. oh man. her dog came...looked at us eating. so we fed it. really good la her dog. throw food it catch and eat. we gave her you tiao. cool rite. ltr get fat. went down to watch nemo...hehe. 5th time i watched. so cool lor. love it. *whale language* hAhA.

came home ard 7.30. didnt know how to walk out. lalalaalala. managed to find my way out la. xt and ann marie went to watch bball match.

i realised that when i'm hot i cant think. all i think of is air-con and i'm hot. cldnt stay too long at pa. so hot. was roasting inside. cldnt think str8 all the way till i got up the bus. wonder how i got thru cc trainings. well...think it's cuz no one cares abt the heat. or maybe everyone is too busy trying to squeeze everything into 11 mins that no one cares how hot it was. remember cc comp? i didnt have time to wipe my perspiration. just kept going. lalallalal~

hey!! guess what?
-what?-
i went swimming today!!!! waHaHaHaHA! yaya. big deal. erm. it's been over a yr since i swam...or does that count? i was just playing with water then. well...ok. 3yrs? lalala. i mean really swam. swam abt 20 laps lor. surprisingly wasnt hot. i feel tired now. been running ard for the past 5 mins...erm. 1st...hp got prob. then msg thru home phone...then hp ok ler...msg thru hp. then hm phone 1 msg...hp 1 msg. tired. hA. if y0u're wondering why i so stupid nv put hp near me...well...that;s cuz it's charging.~

evErydaY! it's you i live for...

ok. i heard that my template cannot see ler. that means...time to change template!

well...a math again today. yes. again. anyway...the lesson was alright. ended ard 1.15...so early. so sat in the canteen talking to S and H abt stuff. talk talk talk....until abt 2.30? hA. went to lab to take a math "test".

so surprising! i know how to do all!! muahaaha. anyway. yes. this is the only a math test that i came out smiling. whOo! hopefully i'm not careless la. i 4got to do the last qn until the last minute. rush lor. had 6 mins to sleep.

well...yeAh. sigh. so bored again.~

cold!! hua xue.

a math in the morning. wait. i woke up at 9. had mac. breakfast. whOoO! then went 4 a math lesson.

so...ok la. she just went thru the wks lor!! erM. ya. i think i was listening 1/4 of the time. why? becuz i was sitting next to grace. hee. i talk more than i listen. and was pitying the birds outside...cuz it was raining...and they were outside finding food. so wet!! so poor thing!!

yeA. aft. that went to ps...meet mummy...on the way home..heY! saw andrew seow and the joanne peh. they were filming some show i think. yep. they went on the mrt. were filming in there too. hehe. so funny. they alighted at lil india...film again i think. so poor thing! hope they take the dhoby gaut shot 4 the show...then i'll be on tv!! =P ~

lalala.

came back at 8.30 frm 1st aid!!

ok. morning. it didnt get off to a good start. i missed 1 bus..and waited 15mins. cldnt wait anymore. walked there. on the way the bus came! aHh!! ok. so took 100 to st john hq.

course was with chung cheng ppl. boys jiu shi boys. anyway. the instr. was really old. and i shall generally say that i was more bored than entertained. yep. learned mouth to mouth. ahha. anyway. that leads me and xt to being bored. ok.

so what did we do? well we fwd this lame msg to yibin sir. and pretended to act blur...huh? who's xiaoting? who's leanmay? and in the end we kana tricked can!!

Him: aiya. whatever la. my hp batt almost flat liao. you dun wanna tell then dun tell la.

uS: -thinking that he angry liao.- *apologises*

Him: actually my batt not flat wan...etc.

erGh! kana tricked! hahhaahha. anyway. 4 lunch went to eat at concourse..me, xt, meihui and celene went to eat at food court the rest went to bk.

came back...so much to copy. then the exam. reminds me of CDC!! hahaha. he went out...pretend he nv see...we were inside there discussing lor! and he say can check notes wan!! so check lor!!all mcq la.

practical...wah. wait until die. but it was alright. we kept playing witht he dummy. hahaha. diyanah was so scared. cuz meihui said that...later tonight it come and find diy then she know. hahahaha. erm. yeah. finished ard 6.

took bus to heartland. gracie went home...left me, xt, jaime, diy, celene, turaiya. went to take neoprints. then they met meishi...to buy *LaALalaala*. while me, xt, celene went to watch xt pierce ear. then went to eat hokkien mee. jaime hid the *LaaLAala* in her waterproof shoe.

eat ler. went home. hehe. celene uncle took me and jaime home.~

oOoO. harry potter. havent seen it b4. hA. yes. believe me. i've never seen a harry potter movie b4. not even the book. hEe

k. erm. i came home at 11.15 ytd. my mom was getting worried. ha.
ok. start frm morning...went 4 violin at abt 1.45. erm. grace that usual grp was late. they took mrt. i took caB! hAhAhA. anyway...the performance was ok. went well. nice. but. cannon. some parts u cld really hear everyone outta tune! haha!! i made a lotta mistakes. thank you. thank god there wasnt solo! hA.

stayed on with vivan, grace, mindy, joanna, beatrice to hear the rest. erm...graCe fren...charlene was there. and siew hwee. haha. some were really pro. piang. so pro. jealous.

then went to grace house. abandoned our violins there. went to eat at hawker centre again. then took mrt down to kallang. siew hwee went home...left 7 of us. were like late? haha. erm. had to walk far far. joanna and beatrice took their time...then slowly mindy and charlene started lagging. haha. erm...we ran a lil bit. esp the roads.

now the best part. fop!! oh my!! so nice! it was really touching. really good. i cant explain it. hillsong was really good. some songs i...uUuH?? the others...really touched me. esp shout to the Lord. really got touched by the holy spirit. was really good. and the response for alter call was good too. and i think what the pastor said was correct. really hit me. "when u leave tonight and all ur frens go their seperate ways...u will feel an emptiness in you. one that you cant fill up with money or anything else but only frm the Lord". really good. i didnt wanna leave! i cld stay the whole night there! was really really really good. anyway...we left at 9.45...abt to end liao. they were still singing when we left.

walked back to the mrt station...national stadium was still having this SOKA thing. haha. we had a fun time crossing the road...so scary! and some climbed over the railings...i ran all the way. ha. saw that there was a disruption at the NS line. so mindy and charlene took to eunos...me, grace, vivian and beatrice stopped at city hall...oops..erM? was there a train to dhoby gaut? die! disruption! heng! have train! but. stopped b4 newton? i dunno. stopped at serangoon with beatrice...came home at 11.15 lor.

yep. really really touched. i've never felt that feeling b4. well...for a long long long long long long long time. for those who wanted to go...but cldnt make it at the last moment...you really missed out on sumthing great! it was extraordinary. really really really good. i'm going next year!!~

i know i shouldnt complain but...

My whole body's aching! frm my shoulders...to my thighs. hahaha. yeAh. prob because of violin, laughing too much and rifle drills. well...i have this blue black on my hip..heY. where did it come frm? hMm... haha

anYwaY. erGh. i woke up at 9am today. wanted to watch spongebob! but. dun haF! aHhH! sld have slept longer. bLeAH

having violin performance later. well..hope it turns out right hehe. going 4 fop..hope i dun fall asleep..like many yrs ago when i was younger.~

erM? erM...erRr...eH...whaT? i 4got.

oh yea. rifle drills today. haha. my blue black is getting bigger! zy ma'am and melissa ma'am came down today. erm. kana punished in the morning cuz. zy ma'am's fren caught someone in the mrt in an inappropriate behavior. erm. ya. wearing np shirt! piang! said it was frm sec2? dunno...we tot it was her. but dunno yet. haha. wonder. knees pain.

did foot drills...and erm. sizing! i kept doing sizing! aH!!!!! haa. i cant work under pressure. i totally 4got the gerak command! cant believe it. aHh!! haha. i'll remember it frm now on. memorized. did the jadikan dua barisan thingy...then rifle drills...hMm. ok la. melissa ma'am took us.

practised our belok towards the end...ok liao la. hha. better. went back to bathe and sit down 4 10mins.

met vivian and grace at heartland. went to hawker centre to eat. mindy came later. went there...play...erm. haha. tired sia. played once everything thru. wOaH. 15 mins. there are 84 playing tmr. die. thank god we're the 1st! muahaha! plan to go fop with them tmr.

after playing we had pizzA! wah. she so nice ah! pizzA!! haha. then went with mindy, grace, joanna, vivian and beatrice to heartland. muahhaa. i 4 days nv go there liao! haha. mini toons open liao!! yAy! went to take neoprint. hehe. so funny. then went to street magic...i go there everytime...cuz mindy wanted to see...then went to eat hokkien mee...so sad..i wld have eaten if i didnt have dinner waiting 4 me at home! i ate the prawns..hahaha. went to buy bubble tEa. we were laughing abt the pearls...dont know why. joanna la!

then was talking abt me and grace "sqdmate" hahahahaha!! i dunt know. joanna said that and i started laughing...with some drink in my mouth. yes. my stomach hurts now. laugh laugh laugh. haha. she always has crazy things to make us laugh.

uH. tired. guess what? tmr's pack again. violin performance and then fop. hillsong! oh man. muahha. it's been a long long long time since i've been to fop! oops. haha~

my polish is running out. autosol is running out..uniform i think it's gonna wear out! haha. nah. everyday wear.

u have a small blue-black on my right arm. i guess you know why. yEayEa. anyway. melissa ma'am came down today. and edwin sir. waHaHa. weihao sir didnt. *pHeW* did rifle drills...and some funny ones...march 5 big steps..then 10 small ones. so funny. still cant master kekanan pu sing. my hand's hurting. trying carrying the rifle in rusok position for a very very long time. 2 middle fingers arent acting properly. hA.

went for a math lesson after that. waHaHA. log. know what? i think grace and i was more like laughing and playing with our calculators than listening! i'm the worst at log and i'm not listening. oops. actually...i understand the concept part. but when it comes to application...i'm stunned. i sit there with my mouth open. was practically copying grace's work. until i found out that no need to do. -_- yeaH. cant tahan. was laughing througout a math. erm. it was freezing in there again. bRrR. -Leanmay, you better know how to do log!-

oOoO. zhss np is on camp. heard abt this night walk. no. not the normal scary kind. but a tiring kind. 5 hrs abt 15km? woAh. 11pm-5am. i'd rather sleep! hEhE. walk to east coast man! cool. but i'd rather do it in the morning. hA. good luck to them.~

tired and sleepy. today wasnt really tiring. but. i feel sleepy.

anyway...morning went to return report book...mrs tan was no where to be found. went 4 A math. sets..erM. ok la. heE. but. i was freezing inside!!!!!!!!! was thinking...my sqdmates must be dying of heat outside...and here we are freezing to death!! anyway. went to change to full u...saw the sec2s and rest of sec3s with a CI...didnt know who it was frm upstairs. looked like darren sir. except he was a bit shorter. ha.

went downstairs...to my horror..weihao sir!! hAhahaHahAhAHa!! yeah. was him and edwin sir la. made us a1 and a2 split...me, sharon and celene joined weihao sir's sqd. dots...again. haha. no rifle!! went to take dowel pole!! haha! so weird. but easier to handle. anyway. learnt basic la. and..loh xiaoting! see la! you not there in the end he bully me! *cries* now i have to write a report? hahahha. hMm. erM. yeah. had this selection 4 sec2s for GOH...lalala. ok la. quite good. sec2s..well..pick up quite fast. quite went to practice kekanan and kiri at the carpark...

came home after that. seEE!! so guai! hiyo. haha. cant be going to heartland everyday right? i'll be tired of it! so yeah. i'm here trying to get the heymath server to work. i cant access to it. erGh! irritating.~

yo! happy june holidays!

i'm starting to like "under my skin" more and more. muahaha. W.

anyway. drills today. erm. zhenying ma'am. cldnt do rifle cuz we were in half u...erM. ya. 1st did sizing. hellO? sldnt have said that i knew sizing. haha. in the end had to come out and command. and teach the sec2s! the command is so long!! learn what!! haha. i think they cld only remember yang tinggi and dari kenan. oh well. ha.

Zhenying ma'am: "aiyah. 4get it. ask them join sqd...then they will become smart liao"

haha!! wow. so true. i think they follow better than what they are taught. haha. yep.

moved to track. cuz of o's. did a lot a lot a lot of marching. *arm drops* 3 commands we had to master...memberi ke hadapan and kekanan, tuka. ok la. except 4 tuka. haha. a bit confused. anyway...was asked to command alone..whoever wanted to la. yeah. i did it. thank god!! so scary! and kept switching timer. tired sia. and was really wet. join sqd the whole day. sec2s were...erm. a bit of a disaster? haha.

anyway...discussed 4 sec4 farewell after that. -i shant say anything more abt this-

went to heartland to eat with grace, turaiya, jaime, sharon, weiling, vanesssa. went to the whatever u call it!! the cool place la!. haha. they sld put a name 4 it. took neoprints with them...(the pics are uploaded to my yahoo photos.) then took with weiwen, cheryl, suying and jaime. make us wait so long!! met min wei!! sharon and i wanted to take with her!!! aHhHh!! so sad! nv take. anyway. take ler...didnt walk walk cuz the others did when we were taking neoprints. i cld stay hrs in there.

on the way back frm the mrt station...met beishan. oOo. havoc time 4 them. haha. oh yeah. met sharon (tay) at heartland too. haha. both so chio. *jealous*

a math tmr. sigh. external CIs coming tmr. dunno who. lAaA.~

today.
went 4 CIP in the morning. erM. CIP on a sunday? yeah. church!! cries. you think ppl's church got 2 service ah? ppl church small only 1 service la!! i missed it. sigh.

well...went with ting, theresa and shazana as a grp to collect newspaper at blk 132, 133, 134 and 165. there were a few dogs here and there in the houses...xiaoting and shazana ran far far. then this dog jumped on me and theresa. haha. hyper. we were under mrs koh MC...along with tiff, weiling, mishalini, meihui's grp. woAh. haha. did quite fast la.

went over help dunno who's grp. 167. in the end we came back the latest. mr tang said we collected abt $400. cool man.

after that went to heartland with jaime and xiaoting to view the new extension.

IT ROX!!!!

it really does. IT'S SO BIG. 2ND HEEREN CAN. HAS EVERYTHING. NO ONE WILL EVER COMPLAIN HEARTLAND IS BORING AGAIN! they sld have built this earlier!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's really big big big. and filled with shops of our kind. hEE. 2nd floor is nice. 3rd floor not much yet. but it really rox!! i wouldnt have left so early if not for jaime having to go home. so i'm at home now blasting "under my skin". but. it's not as nice as her 1st album. but it's more like my bro's music...kinda metallic. ha. those guitar thingies. much more than her 1st album. not a lot of slow songs. mostly fast.~

29 may 2004

Shooting competition.

met at heartland. waited damn long. 2 hrs? frm detail 45 to our detail 71 & 72. waited outside. toilet was really really really small...the cubicle was bigger than the outside. anyway. shooting. fig 2...i think everyone did badly...15m, 15sec, 6 rounds...so fast!! so scary! i was shaking. NRA..i think quite ok la. haha. just shoot lor. we came out laughing!! i guess it wasnt as scary as cc com...well...cuz cc com was really impt. and so stressful. well. yeaH.

took the train with grace frm toapayoh. she went to queenstown i went to redhill. well..for CIP la. anyway. i have internal bleeding on my finger! ah!! W.

CIP.
cool. reached there in time for the last shuttle in mrs tan's car. found out that jasmine and cairong was in the same mrt as me and grace. haha.

went there...played a few games...then netball...very fun. but only had half the court. so small! well...mrs tan left early...she had a wedding dinner to attend.

after that we went to Ps. wanted to avoid hEr. haha. but she left la. anyway. went to foodcourt to eat. good. healthy. ha. ate yong tau foo with celene. was so hungry. nice la. but i think the uncle cheat us. the man ordered 3 bowls...$6! we leh...one bowl $4.

went to take neoprint. saw pearly that grp...se ying and jasmine went into take neoprint with them. on purpose!! they suddenly popped in went the camera was taking e pic. wonder whether they were angry. haha.

went home. late late liao.~

WhAtEveR. my nose is drying up today. decomposing. i feel so fat

np today. today feels saturday-ish. started with foot drills...learnt advanced dril...erm. something receive article. then on to rifle drills...haha. didnt get blue-black but that area is pain. erm. mr yeo came to teach us. made us damn confused. why? cuz he like then teach frm this command back to rusok. he dun like then teach frm that command to turong. hello?! *mixed up* too much to handle 4 a sec3 cadet. esp those who havent learnt b4. anyway..learnt 2 new ones...what julang and karri? kare? don't know. hA.

my legs cldnt move after that. had to sit 4 a while. then went to mac to eat lunchie. i'm fat. went with gracie, xiaoting, van, jaime and turaiya. talk talk talk...abt criminals!! ha. met tiff there.

went home. didnt go 4 violin. grace went. so sick liao still go!! i...you can say i lazy la. but i was sick too ok! i have the urge to say this word again. wHatevER.~