sUpPosEd to go find xt at her job today... but i guess she was so tired from her first day that she cldnt wake up today. it was raining cats and dogs.. so i cldnt go out earlier to meet the rest of wols. by the time i reached heartland it was alr 3pm. well... met raf & the girls. danica wasnt in the country, edwin had left for a chalet and shafik had gone to the bank. dear jaime had cambridge dinner to go for. wonder who got ms cambridge this year? lol. xt came later and joined us at minitoons.. where lin yi was buying presents. shafik had gone off again to meet his oc. (xt asked "where did shafik go?" THREE times. WOLS!!) anyway... we went upstairs and xt and i got attracted to the phones. she wanted to change phone to k800i. then we'll have the same phones. lol. found out that my phone has a $120 value trade in (i thought it was worth $10 or something). but the phone was still freaking expensive.

xt was hungry.. so we went down to eaT kfc. was browsing her themes in her hp and this vulgar one came up. lol. xt was looking at the guys selling the coupons thing... which was the same company she was working for. anyway.. went to arcade.. the girls & raf played drums (and i think mine & xt's mind can only process audition arrows.. not drums!) xt and i played photo y2k again.. after waiting for damn long. there was this guy waiting for the drums.. and he was freaking irritating.

anyway... we left.. to go to srgn there to meet shafik. but i followed xt to go meet her fren, joanna.. who was working at macs... she was sitting outside. xt started entertaining herself.. her fren kept laughing. then we started some 'salt' and 'sugar' thing... xt said she wanna put sugar on my fries.. and i said i wanted to put salt into her mcflurry. was looking out for the buses that were turning in.. my eyesight power! lol. left with xt a while later.. we were strolling.. thinking the bus wld take quite a while to turn out.. and we ended up running for it.

passed pl @ lor ah soo... and gosh... it's been TWO years. they're now moving back to where pl belongs. and i can still rmb moving into the holding school! anyway.. the new pl.. hMm... all i can say is that i really really really miss the old pl. the school that i went to since i was p5 (when pl pri started renovating). the new pl just feels so cold... so concrete. like that's any different from where i am now. *smirK.

walked into lor liew lian to find them... bought drinks for them. sharon saw us! but we didnt see her. she was going out i guess. so sad. sat at the playgrd.. and i decided that i wanted to blade.. since gly & linyi had their blades. borrowed gly's.. xt helped me at the void deck. initially i really didnt know what i was doing.. rolling on the blades from one pillar to another. lol! then i picked it up... cld bring myself fwd for a while.. but still have to grab onto the pillar for support! seriously.. after looking at edwin learn to blade at east coast that day... i had some concerns. lol! but i only fell once.. on my butt... which was damn funny. but i must thank my 'shifu' for teaching me how to blade! or else i'll just be falling down all the way! lol. she was making me laugh.. and each time i laughed, i off balanced. was trying to show the rest that i cld swim while blading! lol!

went to join raf, shafik, gly & lin yi after abt 1 hr.. after my left leg started aching. (my left leg's retarded. haha) raf was trying to harmonise us.. only to get funny 'LAs' from us. the girls went off, xt went to take bus from another bus stop.. raf, shafik and i walked to interchange. talk talk till my bus came..

i think my legs are gonna ache tmr.. but now i feel like blading till i know how to blade well! my sis has blades.. but i have no one to support me or anything to hold on to because downstairs is an open space. hAhA.~

if only i could turn back time
to have you here with me...

wenT to kelly's house today. to entertain her sister, rachel. lol. she's cute.

met xt at heartland bus stop.. took a bus to her house. rachel was waiting at the door. lols. kelly offered us alot of chocolate. xt's been craving for chocolates. lol. rachel wanted to play scrabble.. so we did. and we came up with 3-letter words cuz we cldnt think of any. then i didnt know whether there was such a word as 'chops' (but there sld be..) so xt came up with 'i chops you'.. damn funny! was watching xiao hai bu ben the series on her tv.. they taped almost every episode... so cool!

we got bored of scrabble... so we played game of life. xt and i were quite blur.. they had these 'life' cards to take.. so xt and i said that we had life.. and the two sisters didnt. lol! then xt took a career card.. she chose entertainer.. lol! her income was $40 000. i chose policeman...because i cld earn $10 000 everytime someone rolled a 10. my income was $90 000! lol. xt was jealous. but xt kept getting pay day. rachel drawed the $100 000 income card.. and i evil-ly exchanged hers with mine.. HAHA. i'm mean. =)

i finished last.. but i got the most money! $745 000. haha. how i wish i had that amt in real life. lol. went to play audition for a while on her com... only to get disconnected half way. nvm. lol. was watching the 5.30pm ch 8 show on tv... rachel was disturbing xt while she was tying her hair. lol. rachel showed us this globe thing.. and xt sent one to me.. there was water in it.. so she typed "fish! get in!". HAHA. we found it fascinating.. so i sent one back to xt. and i've sent three to raf, shafik & edwin.. from me and on behalf of xt. lol!

went off to heartland. we found out that raf, shafik spent the day "rotting" at edwin's house. we met them at heartland. they were in the sports shop.. i was outside singing christmas songs. gosh.. how i love them. i only get to sing them once a year. went to macs to watch the guys eat... i had dinner at home. took the CI course book from raf's bag and started reading the outdoor part.. all the knots, lashes, tents notes. then the campfire songs page. xt and i were looking at the content page.. and thought that those were the songs itself. but they looked like names of all the songs.. so xt thought... "remix ah?" HAHAHAHA. then we realised it was the content page! hahahahaha!! i think we're really really wols. we were singing cheers while the guys were eating.

the guys went off to the arcade. xt and i went home. i was starvinG! anyway... wish upon a star was so nice! taufik sang! wheEeE. going to have a half day preparation for cip trip.. at sembawang cc! lols. so ulu.~

25 NoVeMbER 2006

i booked the pool room downstairs for the usual gang... but before that went to meet raf & shafik at interchange to eat lunch. jaime came late[r]. jaime and i ate 'bak chor mee! mee pok tah mai ter kua!' hahaha! for those who heard the latest mr brown... you'll know. anyway.. xt joined us later. we took a bus to my house. surprisingly the guard didnt make noise abt me bringing so many people in. raf's either good or damn tyco. i said he must have had secret trng during the time when i had promos and the others their o's. lol.

edwin joined us later. (he needs no help in getting to the pool room... he's too too familiar. lol!) we realised we havent played pool in a long long time.. so many of us were rusty. jaime was attempting to watch prison break.. but not very successful since the rest were making so much noise. we were singing 'tokyo drift' to annoy everyone. raf was singing '12 days of christmas'... and we only knew up to 5 golden rings.. so it's 6 something something.. and shafik replaced 'and a partrich in a pear tree' to 'and a picture of shafik'! HAHA. shafik's frens came to play 1 game... with shafik & ting. then there was this instant where shafik wanted to tell jaime something...

shafik: oei jaime.. is you la...
jaime: what? f*** you.

HAHAHAHAHA. my goodness..i think shafik was hurt. but the rest of us were laughing. the guys were looking at the drill book raf brought.. and i forgot all my drills le. lol. then we played three against three: raf, edwin, shafik vs xt, jaime, me. we put pumpings as a forfeit.. as usual. and for goodness sake.. we lost like shit.. haha! we did 5 men's style... then we lost again... 20 women's. then we were winning... but jaime hit in the black ball! everyone burst out laughing! so 25 women's. we increased the stakes to 30 women's for us and 60 women's for the guys. many times we were left with 1 black ball for either side to hit in.. and it was up to me... to hit in that one black ball.. and YES!! I DID!! HAHAHAHAHA!! everyone started laughing again... the girls... because of victory (finally) and the guys...because of 60 pumping. i laughed till i fell to the floor.

xt filmed down 5 mins of the pumpings... the 3 guys squeezed in one corner... freaking funny. they did 5 and shafik started laughing.. making the rest of us laugh.. then jaime was asking them to do properly.. left leg over right leg, diamond, butts down... lol! then shafik did with his butt up and going only a little down... damn funny! then shafik used his leg to kick edwin's butt... but hit his tailbone... and edwin fell to the floor! hAHA!! that made us laugh like mad again. his face was damn red. raf used his slippers to put between his knees and the floor... damn funny.

we did the last 15 with them. they did guys style... since girl's was damn funny... and shafik really cldnt stop laughing. then they came up to my house because some wanted to play piano, some computer and some sleep. lol. played audition.. xt's damn pro at normal mode.. she cld play 168bpm! argh! i only know how to play beat up... haha. we let the guys try... and i think raf got addicted to it.

raf was teaching edwin to play 'right here waiting' on the piano. edwin got 3/4 of it.. except the last part.. i was trying to teach him too... but obviously i cant teach a 16-year old guy. lol! the guys were outside playing audition, the girls were in my room talking. when i came out... i saw that raf had finally got the beat up mode... yay! too bad his com cant play. or not i think he'd be addicted to it. i played flying duck... my fingers ached after that.

then at abt 7.. we left to eat dinner. went to gardens.. while waiting for the bus.. the guys were talking abt pri school days since sgps was next to my house. so i guess we girls started talking abt plmgps. was supposed to eat prata... but edwin wanted to eat chomp chomp... and the rest didnt mind.. so we did. jaime and i were crazy over kueh pie ti (since i only get to eat it in penang) we found a seat...but needed chairs since it was a handicap seat... so we had to order seafood from the seafood stall. jaime and i treated them sting ray... shafik treated us drink. thanks! we ordered 10 kueh pie ti... and $4 hokkien mee for 3 of us to share. the sting ray was good. and so was everything else. lol. edwin ate what the 3 of us shared... lol. i think the guys were damn full after that.

jaime had to go home.. the rest of us went to heartland. on the bus... i was whinning abt wanting to cycle at ubin.. and kayak. stupid edwin said i cldnt cycle well.. just because of that day at east coast! i kept punching him. lol. then i dunno when...but shafik & raf got quite high... or... freaking high.. they started laughing at everything they said. shafik dared raf to go to a few places to ask whether the food was halal... raf really went to yoshi and sakae. their laughter made xt and i laugh. theN we were talking abt taking a coach to m'sia.. so we said we wanted to go immediately. then xt said i had to tell my mom that i went from chomp chomp---> heartland---> overseas! lol!

shafik went to the bank to draw money.. and they were still damn high.. made us laugh like crazy at the atm machine again. walked to the arcade. xt and i were watching some guys play the drums.. damn.. extreme and damn fast...so pro! edwin & raf played the shooting game again.. xt and i were bored.. so we spent time playing photo y2k. lol. shafik & raf played initial D.. xt and i decided to steal raf's slippers. haha.

xt went off to find her fren at macs. raf & shafik went to meet their TO. edwin had to go comfort a fren who was in distress. i was teasing edwin at the bus stop abt crying. lol! he was asking me what to say as comfort. we met kelly... who was going home from work. edwin asked whether there was any position for him.. but she said they only hired girls. lol. boarded the bus with edwin.. and he was still asking me what to say to comfort a fren. was laughing at some of the things... he asked me to follow him.. but i had to choose btwn following him and getting grounded till next year for not going home on time.. like as if that's a choice! lol. he said he'd pay for the starting fare of taxi and i.. the rest.. and i stupidly agreed because i forgot abt midnight charge. lol.

i went home anyway.. because i dont want to be grounded for the rest of my life. haha. had to call this guy regarding the cip trip.. there's safety briefing on a saturday. maybe i'll knock my head there and become a genius! haha. many of them arent going to be ard in dec... so i figured i might as well go for the cip trip. but they're going off at different times. shafik.. to brunei for obs.. raf.. to cibtc.. xt & jaime.. for holiday... and me.. m'sia to build a bridge. lol!

i havent laughed so hard in a long time till yesterday. and i realised that they're people i want to keep with me as long as i can hold on to. it's only with them that i'm really able to be myself and i will treasure that. all the way!! =)

[my arms hurt after the pumpings yesterday. haha.]~

i've beEn at home the past two dayS. i was so bored that i even had time to change my template again. yay. the bears from goong. so cute! only no alfred. he's on my display pic anyway. lol. i put 'stay' as a song on my blog. the goong song. not perhaps love tho. just click the play button on the right to hear it!

i went to chinatown with xt & her frens... for a job interview. but that job didnt have a basic pay. only comission. went back to heartland where xt's fren asked her to go for some talk abt macs. i went to find raf, shafik & hanlong. they were watching the bball match... RI vs yuying. raf was telling me abt his CI course details... woah... really sounded like NS. cant go home.. stuck at hta & ubin. and he was telling me abt his uniform collection and stuff... sounded really interesting. and abt their camp at sg.

then edwin came... he looked like he just woke up... and he really did just wake up. lol. watched RI & yuying tie.. but yuying won in the end. edwin wanted to go to the arcade.. and so we did. on the way... the 3 of them were 'fighting'.. raf was trying to be the peacemaker. or rather, shafik was trying to hide behind raf because edwin was about to kill shafik for hitting him. lol. hl and i just stood at the side to watch the show. haha. raf & edwin played the shooting game. shafik played the drums. then xt came to join uS.. edwin paid for his, mine & xt's daytona game. stupid car cldnt start. and edwin took the advanced course! argH! lol.

went back to macs. xt had a free meal from macs. i was taking pics of everyone. lol. had to go home.. because i was hungry, and i had a show waiting for me! last episode of charmed. shit...why is everything ending this week? i have nth to watch next week. lol. the very last episode of charmed. and i missed so much! argh! damn it... i'm getting really emotional abt shows.. every sad part i feel like crying. guess what? i watched the last episode of goong for the 2nd time and cried even harder. argh. lol.

Sarang hamnida =) ~

less than 1 day after coming back i went out. hEeX.

met jaime and the girls at srgn mrt. did i say how much i miss jaime? lol! she has been mia-ing for the past 3 months! xt cldnt make it.. saD. anyway, vivo gv tickets were sold out.. we wanted to watch step up... jaime keeps saying the guy is hot. raf & edwin joined us a while later. decided to go ps to try.. cldnt make in time for the 2pm show... so we bought the 1625 show. and went to kfc to eat. jaime kept wanting to walk and not stay at the same position. i think after mia-ing for 3 months she's become fast. lol.

atE le.. then walk walk ard ps with jaime... the others went their separate ways.. to meet back later. jaime and i walked ard window shopping.. as if i hadnt had enough shopping for the past 5 days! lol. went to buy snacks for the movie.. then went to arcade to find them. -_-'' as usual.

the movie was nice. esp the dancing part. jaime kept saying the guy was hot.. i think my sis would like it too. went walk walk ard ps again... jaime seriously has something against edwin... edwin kept talking to her but she didnt wanna talk to him! haha!! jaime's seriously freaking fast.. she kept wanting to walk... lols. in her heels! argh! so high! i kept bullying edwin tho... too bad no xt to accompany me =)

we met beishan! and we were just talking abt her...saying how long we havent seen her. argh!! she's still as crazy and mad... she hasnt changed in that part. so cool! talked to her for a while! so nice to see her!!

theN raf was buying tako pachi... jaime and i joined them and listening to part of edwin & kristle's conversation. apparently, edwin owed kristle pumping... so she wanted to claim it back. but... having no idea what they were talking abt at that time... it sounded really scandalous!

edwin: hurry... you want you stop at srgn then do...
kristle: dun wan...
edwin: or on the train also can do.

something like that. jaime and i were laughing hysterically... while edwin was trying to explain to shafik the joke using "zhe ge zhe ge" and "na ge na ge". HAHA! so the guys really did their pumping in some secluded area... while jaime and i were in the earring shop. lol. finally took the train home.

was bullying edwin on the way home again. kept using water to wet the 3 guys today after coming out from the toilet. lol. and it's funny to see jaime and edwin argue. haha. havent seen that for 3 whole months. missed the whole LAST EPISODE of goong. and phua chu kang. lucky my mom tape. i know i'm crazy lar. haha. havent seen goong for so long. lol.

audition here i come!~

HELLO WORLD!! i'm back!! after being in isolation for 5 days. =) well... i was able to go online on thurs after reaching the apartment. used my dad's laptop and stole someone's wireless. lol. afteR thaT i think the person switched off his router.... so we cldnt access to it.

so what did i do during those five days? well... to sum it all up, eat & shop. meT with long time friends in m'sia whom i havent seen for ages... my dad's god daughter who happened to share the same b'dae as him.. so we went to have a chinese dinner at shangri-la. they've all grown up now... i guess i have too.

shopping: 1-utama shopping centre, mid valley megamall, the curve, KLCC, sugnei wang plaza were all the SCs i went to. pet safari at the curve was great... saw my fish and the puppies were so cute!! the only place i didnt go was berjaya times sqaure. but then again.. no one is willing to go on the roller coaster with me... so no point going. haha.

eating: shangri-la chinese, shangri-la japanese, wanton mee etc. i'm gonna put on a lot of weight. no eating fast food for the rest of the year! the jap food was great... it's the biggest jap food buffet i ever went to. sashimi!!! my classmates are gonna get so jealous. wanton mee at the roadside was so good!! it's so different from s'pore's wanton mee. the black sauce, the noodles, the char siew, and the wanton. mMmMmm.

dvds: didnt watch much. john tucker must die, the banquet. cldnt be bothered abt the departed when my sis was watching, because i havent even watched infernal affairs.

have been playing with my dad's com without an internet connection. i think i can become a pro at solitaire and minesweeper. lols. i miss you computer!! *muacks!! and i miss my phone... and my bed & pillows.. and of course the friends here... but i'm still trying to run away from whatever's happening. bao chi xiao rong =) ~

i usually dread going to kl. because i'll miss my com, my tv and my handphone (which doesnt have roaming), my fish, and my friends. but suddenly i feel so happy to get get away from here... to run far far away. where i'm uncontactable. where i dont have to face whatever's going on right now. and just go shopping and eating and watching dvds all the way.

yeaH. i wont be ard from tmr onwards till monday night. thank god i'm not missing the last episode of goong. lol. so you wont be able to contact me till then.

and i must add.. i'm glad to be going away.~

damn it. i've caught some virus again. freak it. ergh. my throat is burning. i got it from my mom, who got it from me. i thought after someone recovers from a cold, they'll be immune to that virus? argh. whatever. i better not be sick on thurs. it'll spoil my whole trip to kl. anyway, i cldnt sleep last night. i rolled in bed from 11pm to 12 something then i finally fell asleep for the shortest time... only to wake up again. argh!! by the time i managed to get to sleep.. it was 3am i guess. so i woke at 11am today. and of course... my mood isnt good when i have such a disturbing night. argh. well.. at least an email from ghis who is right now at jurong island made me laugh. it was super lame. she was bored there and started crapping in her email. so lame!

anyway.. about ytD. was supposed to have ac og outing... but in the end... so many ppl pulled out at the last minute. bleahs. so only four of us were left. guan qun, christiana, nyssa and me. gq and i waited so long for the two to come... then we went to eat at new york new york at citilink. it's cafe cartel style... only more posh. the prices are okay. i ordered pasta.. since i cldnt eat anything fried because of my sore throat. christiana ordered this 30cm long sausage and the bread was abt 1/3 the length...so it looked really weird. and the coke float was so big... so sinful. lol.

we chalked up abt $82 worth of food... which was quite ok for 4 people. [and i know some people will disagree with me =)] lol. we were scaring gq abt someone following her... or maybe just happened to walk past citilink!! lol. anyway... after that we walked to esplanade to the library...cuz nyssa wanted to return books. was talking to her abt pl stuff... like... abt mr low and ms ferng. lol. gq and christiana were complaining abt going for their leadership camp...and hey... they're going to the same place as we went in sec3... and the same place that nj's going for yltc. they're going after nj leaves to canoe to another island. thank god i dont need to go. but i wanna go kayak tho.

we walked ard citilink.. to the super expensive paper shop where 1 diary costs $20+. and when i see them buying stuff..i think of ghis. damn it! how come she has so much influence on me?! but it's thanks to her that i'm not broke now. haha. yeaH. theN gq went home.. we went to raffles city to walk ard. gosh... looking at the prices of the items for sale... haha. maybe now i know why i'm in nj. because i'd be broke forever due to spending too much. haha. anyway...i went off first.. because i wasnt feeling too well.. stupid virus. well... it was nice to meet up with them again...after not seeing them for so long. gosh.. words cant express how much i miss the happy times tgt with them. well...sld really see the rest of my og soon. lol!

i give up. listen here. i totally give up caring about anything to do with you all. i've tried all i can out of pure concern. but since no one listens to me... from now on, 14 November 2006, i am not going to care what happens anymore. whether you all fail your exams or even fail in life... i am not going to care. i won't bother to call or even give a listening ear to whatever troubles you all are going through. since you all dont tell me stuff... and dont listen or even consider whatever i have to say... i'm not going to care anymore.

sure, you may say i dont understand anything you all are going thru. that's because you all dont make an effort to try to make me understand. which person doesnt have their own burdens in life? you think i don't? you think i'm one happy person as i portray to be? no. and life in jc isnt one big holiday either. having to juggle with the endless content based subjects, as well as CCA, and other commitments in school... but i still have to take it. i still have to take the stress. i cant just walk away from school altogether. although i wish too sometimes. because i know it's not going to get me anywhere. stop walking away from your problems. it's time to face it.

listen up. i will only give my time and effort to those whom i think deserve it. other than that... i dont really care anymore. in fact, i'm beginning to understand why some people want to leave. and i dont blame them. because i myself am entertaining those thoughts. what's the use if no one ever listens to one another or keeps problems from one another? it would just be another ordinary aquaintance wouldnt it?

no one bothers to meet up anymore. so why should i? sure.. i appreciate the fact that some to bother to arrange. but who actually tries their best to come? does everyone want to? or are some reluctant? whatever it is, i've given up all hope on some of you all. i dont give a damn whether you all fail as a person. i'll just be sad for you all .. but i wont do anything about it. whatever i feel is wrong, i'll just take it as it is. i will not bother to beg or persuade anymore. i've done enough.

sorry. i just had to get all of that out of me.~

-_-''' boring day yesterday. i stayed at home and played audition all the way. theN i signed into msn and had a lame conversation with edwin. i think he study too much. lol. anyway, he was going to buy fish, so i said i wanted to go. so i did. hA. finally out of the house.

went out at abt 7pm, went to central... then he called and asked me to walk to his house. because we had to find raf, who was cycling, whose bike tyre had punctured. poor thing! so suay! so we walked along the stretch leading to kovan. edwin wanted to bet with me that we'd see raf after we walked up the hill.. damn it. we did. lol. he said i owed him 1 fish. haha.

walked to the fish shop at central... that was where i bought my $18 red parrot (which is freaking naughty right now). edwin wanted to buy koi... so we looked ard at the others first, before looking at the baby koi. they're rather cute... but mine's cuter. then the lady gave us a net and a bucket of water to catch the one we wanted. raf went to get a bigger net to help edwin. lol. so after about 1 hour of attempting to catch the fish, with a lot of mistaken identities (raf is good at catching fish), they finally caught two edwin wanted... one white with orange spots and a beautiful white tail, and the other with black spots that looked like a chinese painting... i like that one! i must say it was quite fun catching fish...but i dont dare. lol.

walked back to edwin's house to put the fish in the fish tank. i'm jealous! his fish tank is twice the size of mine! argh! lucky koi.. they get such a big space to swim in. raf was singing 'we were the reason' with his scores. haha. edwin passed his no.1 uniform to raf to return, so he started taking pictures of the ranks he had... then pics of him in shafik's cap. by the time we went down.. it was near 10pm.

we walked to the prata shop near his house to eat. raf and i were singing christian songs on the way. that two were damn funny... as usual. so ate the prata... and waited for shafik. but i had to go home first because my mom was calling me to get home... so i left both of them to wait for him.

and i cldnt wake up for church this morning. *yaWnS~

FriDaY, 10 nOvEmbEr 2006
oHsiXSfiftEeN's bbQ

i waited for the bus for 20mins to get to j8, where i met ghis. we wenT upstairs to minitoons to get gummies. and seriously, i've never spent so long in my life picking gummies. she was picking and asking me to recommend what was nice, and i said almost everything. haha. i was looking at the phone chains, i was so tempted to buy the letters, but ghis, being there, wouldnt spend money on that sort of thing, so it kinda influenced me not to waste my money on it. there are uncountable things she has influenced me to do since i've entered nj, such as not wasting money on unecessary things, eating healthier, saving money as well as eating lots of chilli. lol!

anyway, so after she finished picking all the sweets she wanted, we went to sembawang to get what i wanted! kim jeong hoon's cd! yay! i finally found it this time. it was $22.90. his songs are nice! listening to them now. but i still think he looks nicer in brown hair. lol. and gosh.. his pictures... *faints. we spent a long time there too, looking at cds, dvds & vcds because we needed movies to entertain us! anne marie was on her way, and wasnt even at bkt batok mrt at 6pm. lol. she was late!! anyway, we went to gift a name, ghis wanted to buy her hp fork chain, because she had the spoon. and i asked her to buy both the fork and spoon because one was tarnished and the other was shiny and it didnt look nice. but, i obviously cldnt influence her. she bought the fork in the end.

so while waiting for anne marie to come, we went down to ntuc to get more food for them , cuz sam said there wasnt enough food (which turned out otherwise later). we bought cakes cuz we didnt know what to buy, and i cldnt find the 'drinks'. anyway, anne marie came at 6.50pm, we walked over to jerick's house. most of them had arrived. people there were [me, ghis, anne marie, sam, lyn, tiff, stella, fel, zuo jie, stanley, jerick, joseph, wen yi, darren, ccb, justin, zhi wei.] yiling cldnt make it the last minute because of some church stuff. sad. the guys went to play soccer, the girls were sitting down and chatting and ccb was doing the food. we ate some food for a while..

then the guys ran off to play soccer and wenyi stayed behind to eat the food, zuo jie joined us girls because he wanted to gossip with us! haha! he didnt want to try the artificial bacon bits because he said they looked like fish food. lol. tiff and i kept eating them. he kept eating the lettuce plain, and he was wearing a green shirt, so the lettuce really matched his shirt. we called him a rabbit. then stella and tiff dared him to pinch ***'s butt for 5 bucks! hA!!!!! he didnt dare. we told wen yi, but he didnt dare either for fear that something bad would happen to them. lol. so we continued our 'gossip', which was essentially hearing zuo jie saying that he was gonna die soon because the lines on his hands said so. lol! he wanted us to treat him nice because of that. lol! ghis went freakingly high a few times, and her laughter & high pitched voice. gosh. ultrasound. lol.

the guys came back, and we dared darren & justin to do the same thing as the 2 guys earlier.. darren told him abt it. hah. the food was so much. satay, otak, bread & lettuce & 'fish food', lyn's chicken wings, sausages and much more. it's the most filling bbq i've ever eaten. but how cld i pass on the mashmallows, konyaku & almond jelly? so we ate some more. haha.

tiff, ghis, zuo jie and i went to the toilet, but the girls toilet was full... so we asked zj to stand guard for us outside the guy's toilet. haha. the toilet had a suana inside. tiff asked me to peer in to see the room.. and yes..she tried to push me into the dark room. lol! i screamed. haha. we went back to join them and talk crap some more, then clear up and went up to jerick's house.

the guys were playing ps2, some car game. the girls, and some of the guys were playing 2-deck bluff. justin got a really really thick deck in the end. lol. damn funny. hmMs... theN we started telling ghost stories! hAHA. jerick joined us halfway and gave some of the girls a shock of their lives, because the lights were off on our side. lol. justin told us some stories, fel, stella & anne marie were freaking out and trying not to scream. lol. then at abt 11+ we had to go home, before there was no bus back. stella went to the toilet and tiff switched off the lights while she was inside! hahah!! she screamed too! damn funny. tiff, me, ghis, zj, ccb went off first. and i caught the bus and was home in 10mins.

that was a really enjoyable day! different from the entertainment i usually get...maybe it's because it's a different grp of friends. but it's good to get away from the usual sometimes, and i can say that we really enjoyed ourselves! whEeEE!

nOveMber 11 2006---> HaPpY biRtHdaY deaR huiHuA! my fellow pl classmate/sqdmate/nj schoolmate and it goes on.. lol. she has to go for oac camp. hahas.~

this sucks. this totally sucks. everyone is splitting up. everyone has their own grp of friends. everyone doesnt hang out tgt anymore. is there still hope? everyone doesnt seem to enjoy the company of one another anymore. is it because we're too familiar with each other? maybe. is it because we're meeting up too often? maybe. maybe i sld just mia for a while. when was the last time we had fun tgt as a grp? as one? how long will this friendship last? at first, i thought for quite a long time. alas, nothing is eternal (except God). i'm having doubts whether we all cld last thru the year. whatever.

i have 5 hours to kill before i go shopping with ghis. i sld really jio her out more often. she needs to go to some nice places to shop. i'll make her buy stuff no matter what. haha. just that i'm scared she'll scream into my ear. and it's humorous how she talks on the phone. maybe i'll bbq her later. lol. lazy pig.

outing on monday, havent seen them for so long since i left ac! but yl & gq wont be going. ergh. havent seen them for a long time too. hope the rest will go. the times we went to orchard tgt was fun. too bad joyce & huimin cant go too, because of their A's. miss them lots. hope to see those who left ac too! (which is essentially only 3 of us) lol.

and finally, on a shopping spree in KL next week. i must say the shops there are much better than vivo city. maybe it's good that i'll not be seeing anyone during that period. i can mia for that few days. because no one seems to care whether we actually fall apart anymore. so why should i?~

do you feel it? the air is finally clear of pw! yes! after suffering for 7 months, handing up so many documents, and i shall attempt to name them. 1: preliminary ideas, 2: group project proposal, 3: evaluation of materials, 4: written report, 5: insights & reflections. not forgetting 6: the many research methodology including surveys, 7: preparing for op, 8: doing endless amt of drafts for PI, Eom & I&R. no more pw! yeaH!

about op. our grp was the first for the day. yiling's and tiff's grp were our audience. it was alright. i think i screwed the Q&A. we finished within half an hour. there were external moderators for our grp only, and it was only when audiencing for the other grps that we realised that our grp was really very lucky. all of us only got 1 question each thrown at us, compared to average 2 thrown to the others. and oh my... the woman's questions were seriously so vague, hardly anyone understood. she sucks. yiling's video was so cute, with the dolls and paper teacher and students on a satay stick... so cute! and damn it, there we were, in school, suffering under the clutches of pw, and ghislaine was at sentosa playing! argh!! just because her grp finished a day earlier.

anyway, after our audience duty, we had to paginate our gpf, when we finally finished, and walked out of the lt, free of pw, it was pouring. so anti-climax! and it poured and poured for more than an hour, and was still raining so heavily after 1 hour, we decided to brave the rain and walk out of the flooded nj. the walkway was really really flooded, fishes cld swim in there. i mean it. our shoes were wet but we managed to catch the bus quite quickly.

i took 153 to heartland, only to find out that the roads were completely dry, and it was only starting to rain. anyway, found raf, shafik and hl. hl broke his specs. needed a new one. then shafik and hl went to play bball, while raf and i went to the 2nd lvl of the cc to get out of the rain. xt came to find us later. edwin called raf's phone and i picked it up, since i was playing games on raf's phone. lol. he asked me to give him a wake up call. haha. went to macs cuz raf was hungry. hl went off. shafik was drenched. ate some fries. gave edwin his wake up call and ended up nagging at him not to fall asleep again. lol. that's what you get when you ask me for a wake up call esp not in the morning. lol.

anyway, class bbq tmr! whEEeEe!! wonder whether anything weird will happen?~

i had two freakingly weird & impacting dreams last night. it wasnt a nightmare. it was just.. impacting. one was rather lame. and the other was about you. and it wasnt something i wanted to see. but then, such a thing happening would be close to impossible. so i should just stop thinking abt it. yet i kept thinking about it during the journey to & from school.

if you're wondering what i'm going to school for since it's a holiday (and thinking that i must be loving school too much), it's for pw. my ST is forever uncontactable. and op's on thursday. our props are not done yet. and we need her opinions. so anyway, i am going to school tmr again to rehearse with the rest of the grp and on thu for op. friday is finally freedom day, and we're having a class bbq! yaY! i'm excited!

and yes, i'm still sick.~

Slight fever
Sore throat
Runny Nose
Sick~

3 NoVeMbeR 2006
HapPy biRtHdaY tiFFaNy!
ChiNEsE A leVeL exAms

the entry proof says "please report to your exam centre at least half an hour before the commencement of each exam." how come no one ever saw that on the entry proof? lol. most of us reached at 7.45am. anyway, compo was alright, i did the kan tu zuo wen, then we had a 15 min break and were allowed to read thru the paper 2 without starting to write. how weird is thaT? paper 2 was understandable, phew! i hope i dont have to study chinese for the rest of my life!

after that anne marie, ghis, lyn, yiling, peiyi and i went to curry wok near corro to eat lunch, the $5 meal thing... i've never eaten so much kang kong in my life. the food was good, i was so full. peiyi and yiling left for home, the rest of us went to j8. lyn lived near there and am & ghis had trng at bishan park. we went to walk ard the shops, and to sembawang to find kim jung hoon's cd! gosh, i cldnt find it... but sharon just called to say they have it! argh! why am i so blind?! lol. anyway, we window shopped till 2.30, they had to go for trng, so i went home. was so tired. i sld have stayed at home to rest. anyway, i was attempting to play because of you & perhaps love on the piano, but gave up and started playing my grade 8 pieces. lol

i went out to heartland, first, to find his cd at mj.. but i cldnt again! argH! haHA. went to buy gummies then went to find shafik, xt & raf. i cld distinguish xt, hanlong & shafik frm macs, but i cldnt figure who the person riding the bike was. it was raf. lol. he cut his hair. melvin sir from marist called xt, apparently, i know him but he doesnt know me. haha. we were talking to him for a while, trying to figure which batch of CIs he was from. he treated us bb tea! thanks! xt cldnt finish it. haha. he showed us his bike...gosh it was damn cool! cant believe he rides that kinda bike! he told us abt his accident. so freaky.

anyway, went to play at the park for a while, it's opening soon. xt was having a fever. get well soon! xt, shafik & hanlong went off, raf & i were going to chomp chomp to meet edwin. he had to get his specs fixed first, because it broke. lol. edwin was supposed to board the bus we were on, so raf came up with this idea to trick him. haha. said that i wld be on the bus by coincidence and we would "meet" halfway. lol! raf seriously cant act.. he started laughing. lol. sat down to eat, i was quite full from the bb tea earlier, so only ate a little. edwin ate prawn mee and raf ate hokkien mee. what's it with prawn & noodles ah?

went to the prata stall to wait for shafik. edwin was super kpo. lol. they started talking crap, and was really lame and funny. raf took edwin's cap and wore it. and was taking zi lian pics of himself, and laughing at it. HAHA. then edwin was changing positions of his cap...so he looked gay. lol. sat there for quite long, i stole edwin's phone but he managed to grab it back. lol. shafik made the most jokes as usual. went off at abt 11.30pm. and yes, i missed goong as well as the LAST EPISODE of the 9 o clock show. but hey, all's not lost. ive watched finish goong and i realised only this morning that my mom taped the 9 o clock show for my dad. how wols can i get? lol.

took 73 and managed to make it back before they locked the back gate. the stupid lane was so freaky. and today, i'm sick! argH! i woke up with a sore throat plus a runny runny nose and feeling very tired. i pray i dont get a fever. i hate the feeling. i've alr fallen ill twice this year. and this is not going to be the third. maybe i'll just sleep the whole day. wHoOsH~

Chinese. PW. Chinese. PW. Chinese. PW. that has been my life for the past few days. i finally have a break tmr. chinese lessons has been urgH. basically i have been telling tiff abt pw dry run. speaking of dry run, ms ng said our presentation was mediocre... so i guess we have a long way to go. none of us are at the 'exceeding expectations' (sounds like harry potter) level yet. and we need props.. and i need to improve on my acting skills, and i need to stReSs on certain words, or else i'll put everyone to sleep. lol..

anyway, ghislaine and i are officially crazy and are watching too much tv. esp goong and the 9 o clock show. lol. i've come to the conclusion that i sldnt tell her what happens next in goong, and we keep talking abt the 9 o clock show via sms. like both of us wanna slap the antagonist. lol. thank god i have the whole day to study for chinese tmr. or not i'll feel guilty for watching two shows at night and not studying. now that chinese A's are drawing nearer, i cant help but feel a little worried. worried that i cant achieve my target. what is my target anyway? with what grade will i be contented with? i dont really know. all i can do is study, hope and pray.

beneath this happy face lies someone deeper, beneath this mask lies something more. but it's always better to give people a happy impression right? ~

Friday was a holiday, off-in-lieu for deepavali. muahaha. i must be crazy, but i think i didnt have enough of school. no, i didnt go back to nj. i went to find raf at tp. lol. had to wake up early, went to meet shafik and took a bus down. hE didnt go for lectures. because we were late. oops. haha. we went to tour the whole poly, many schools, many blocks, but width wise, i think only a little bit bigger than nj. they ate at engine block canteen. i didnt. shafik was looking for food all the time. they had cheers. cool. they called gary sir down. he was damn lame... after that we took a bus back to hougang, i came home to sleep while they went elsewhere.

I went to school on sat to do pw with the rest, met zj and fel doing pw too. managed to get most of the things done, except for the freaking trailer which we failed to cut from the dvd, and there's very few trailers online that suit our criteria. anywaYs, i came home, then went to heartland to find xt and raf, because i wanted to cut my hair. edwin didnt wanna go because he said he didnt wanna go further than heartland. anyway, xt brought me there, and i got to cut immediately. and now my hair's thin. it's been a year since my hair was this thin! yaY! and the boss was damn funny, talking abt pri schools and denying himself as the boss. i'll go back there next time! =)

anywaY, what kind of holiday is this? i have to go back to school for 4 out of 5 days next week! for chinese, pw dry run and chinese A's. and a large amt of hmk. speaking of A's, the o's start this week. so to all taking their o's... all the besT! will be praying for you all!~

I don't really know why i went to school today. To take my progress report maybe. Principal's talk in the morning, we had improved from common test. Chem lecture was a total bore, as if anyone would listen to her talking abt promos paper on the last day of school. and then math lecture, where she was just going thru promo results. Free period for GP, so anne marie, ghis, yiling and i decided to pon. lunch, no chem because ms lim wasnt ard, mr tan cancelled physics cuz he had nothing to do. so basically we could go off after lecture. we left school at 11 plus, went to bkt timah mkt to eat lunch with the 3 of them. i ate laksa and tang yuan. yaY! tang yuan! lol.

ghis and i went back to nj, i changed bus, she had training. i was going to heartland to meet edwin to pass him the dvd so that he could cut a clip for me for pw. i was quite desperate yesterday so i promised him TWO meals. bleahs. anyway, i intended to go home after that cuz i had things to do.. but some other wolsies were there.. so i stayed on with them. watched them study. shafik came, he squashed xt's sparkie. lol. edwin claimed one of his meals... so i had to pay for it. argh. i'm quite broke and i owe him one more. lol. hMm... then the guys left to play bball, leaving me, xt, edwin & kelly. they came back.. so i went with them to the arcade. raf & edwin played the shooting game thing... they're good! only cant pass the last level. there were some people playing the drums, damn good. we stoned at the bowling alley, watching them wax the lane and watching people strike and spare. i hope we can train there one daY!

walked to the bus stop. edwin was teaching me to walk properly, like a girl! imagine how gay he looked. lol. sorry la.. a bit chor lor... or maybe a lot. he poked my face.. it was damn pain can! hAha. anyway.. came home to watch goong again! lol. i'm going crazy over it. the 2nd prince is still cute!~

TuEsdaY, 24 oCtoBeR 2006
SelamAt HaRi RaYA!

went out at 11am to hougang mall to meet wolsies to sign a card for shafik. raf 'painted' his nails black with the marker and the girls wrote their names on edwin's hand. so both of them looked gay. we went to meet raf's sqdmates at the interchange, and wait for shafik. he was wearing his traditional costume, they said he looked like sang nila utama. we walked to his house, some people were there alr. we girls at together, taking very few things. lol.

then the guys ate and shafik's teachers were talking, the girls were playing games. we played some 'huang shang, huang hou...' game... then zhong ji mi ma. the forfeits were hilarious. poor raf, edwin, shafik and darren loh! haha. they all had to put up with our dares. then truth or dare. cldnt stop laughing. after abt 3, we left his house, shafik went out with his fren. the rest of the wolsies went to harbourfront, vivo city! more shops had opened from the last time we went, and since the air condition was good, we went up to roof. many people were there. we sat at the grand stand with drinks. the guys and girls were playing 'i spy', i was playing with xt's hp. then i dont know who started it, but edwin and i started an ice war, shooting ice at each other, and ocassionally raf, until we declared peace. lol. i went crazy over goong again, telling raf what happened and listening to the song on his hp.

it was 6, so we decided to settle our dinner at suntec, since raf, xt and i were meeting shafik to go for hype up 2006. on the train, xt and i were bullying edwin, 1st we stepped on his toes with our heels. then we were scratching him with our nails 'quite' gently. but his skin still turned red. haha. that's revenge for punching me in the arm la! it still hurts today. lol. we got tortured for 6 stops. lol. then we decided to target raf. hAha. we went to the food court to have a quick dinner, becase we were running late. xt and i ate hokkien mee, as usual. we gave raf all the prawns, but he was lazy to peel it too. lol. edwin ended up peeling all for him, with his mouth. raf, xt and i said bye to edwin and the girls, and took a cab to indoor stadium. the cab driver was so familiar with the amt, because he had taken many people there. lol.

we went to wait for shafik, who turned up with his fren. he cldnt go at 1st, but changed his mind. we went to get a free dog, courtesy of starhub. we were playing with the soft toy dogs throughout the concert, with shafik secretly snatching ours and squashing them. lol. i managed to get his to squash later. the turn out to the concert wasnt that good, the seats werent filled like we expected them to. but the concert was great, with the 8 of them singing, hady first, taufik last. olinda's songs were nice, taufik sang yue liang dai biao wo de xin with olinda! so nice! jonathan sang a canto song. it ended at abt 11, and we caught any bus that took us anywhere.

we ended up at the place where we took 158 the last time we went to merdeka bridge, so we took 158. raf was extremely noisy, yowling like a mad dog. crazy people. haha. took 105 home and it was already 12am.

WeDnEsdaY, 25 oCtoBeR 2006

physics spa was alright, although i felt like sleeping. we had 3 hours after that to do pw, but sam cldnt bring her notebook so anne marie was doing chinese and i was reading anne marie's book. the rest were doing pw. i felt like sleeping on the table. the tech run was crap. haha. we just had to save the presentation to the com and make sure it was running ok. i came home to sleep for 2 hours, and i still feel like sleeping. lol.

tmr's the last day of school! hurray! but i still have to go back on mon, tue, wed, fri next week. bleahs.~

We had nothing to do on friday during pw, so we decided to take pictures. Looked like we were j2s. Here are some of them.


In tHe Air!! this is so cool...


Silence! Examinaton in progress. What am i doing?


oh six S fifteen all the way!!~

Results results results. WhaT did i get? Apples, Bananas, Cats and Donkeys. lol. Three apples, 1 Banana, 1 Cat and 1 Donkey. Like this proves that i am a science freak and a humanities idiot la! hahA. Havent got back chem & math yet. altho we already know the grades that will be in our progress report. AAAD. HAHAHAHA!! D for econs! gosh. i got an E for promos, my CT and VA pulled it up to a D. lol. what an eyesore. and what i'm really pisst abt is chinese, i got 69.3 and lao shi didnt round it off to 70!! WHAT THE..?! argH. GP, i'm just glad i passed.

Basically, my whole class got promoted to J2, quite expected. and we're top 5 for physics again. WhEeEE!! oh... congratulations to ghislaine, yiling and fel for making such a great improvement for physics!! i'm so happy!! and ghislaine got the most improved student! she was freaking out ytd, not wanting mr tan to tell her her results, and to think anne marie and i were teasing herabt physics today!! she was so shocked she cried!! aWwWW!! congrats congrats!! =) And tiff, i and some others were bitching abt him, who has a freaking big ego and is so complacent. Complacency will only see one's downfall. i'm waiting for that day to come, and to laugh at him. talking abt it makes me pisst. lol.

Since i'm in the congratulating mood, congrats to raf for getting into CI course! all your waiting paid off!! Work harD and be a good CI! =)

This only goes to show that you reap what you sow. Yeah, cliched, but it's true. Of course, it's also through God's help. No amt of studying without His help will work. And i cant imagine how some people can wish to do well when they dont even bother about studying. All they do is go out, enjoy life, and suffer the consequences later. Seriously, the no. of hours they study is unspeakable of. They dont concentrate, they only care about playing. how to do well? or even pass? when will they wake up? No amt of praying without doing your duty first is going to help either.

Well, anyway, dont spoil the mood. So i'm ending off with a happy note, it's a holiday next tue... and i'm looking fwd to it! and we end school a day earlier than the rest, due to deepavali off-in-lieu. All in all, i'm happy for all of us S15, doing well in promos! strive on!~

If i'm wols, then i think my brother inherited all my fast genes. thanks for getting a new com so fast! the cpu's small, the monitor is big. whEeEee... nice. now, i dont really care abt my mp3 or audition, i care abt goong! i so love the 2nd prince!! has. watching it on youtube, just that the episodes are rather difficult to find. loading for some parts are quite slow.

anyway, they are going to throw back all papers to us on monday. so far i've done ok for chem and physics mcq. beeN meeting the usual gang at macs, but now i'm not so sure, goong! hA. hope my sis wun abuse the com, but i think she will, because she doesnt know how to treat things well. bleahs.

mom has been nagging abt dl-ing music, so that means i would have to get friends to send. 800 songs! hAhA. anD i have yet to syncronise my ipod because it will wipe out all my songs. so much things to put in.. lol. time to watch goong!~

My com finally crashed. So you wont see me online for the next few days at least.~

13 OcTobEr 2006
Plmgs Founder's Day

Woke early in the morning (not as early as going to school). Reached and got our graduation gowns, and we were taking pictures upstairs. i saW jaime below and waved frantically to her! i miss jaime!! havent seen her for so long. aNywAy, was waiting to go in, cld hear suying shouting, and cld see them in no. 1 uniform!! i'm jealous, i'm jealous. The service was as usual, rather boring.. BUT, i miss pl's method of services, i miss the songs we used to sing, i miss the prayer, i miss everything about pl. i was waiting for ghis or yiling to msg me my econs results, only to find out that they just went thru the ans. Damn it. haha. People from 4A2 who came back was me, ry, serene, sylvia, pearly, yu jun. The highlight of the day was supranee's great and entertaining speech, which really made people laugh.

After that we stayed to throw our hats, and to take pics, and we were damn hungry. So we decided to walk to somewhere to eaT, and walking on heels is the worse thing someone can ever wear. my foot was aching like mad. No food, so ry, me, serene and sylvia went to heartland to eaT. met the 4 girls there, and thank god we went to something different other than macs or kfc. we went to the hk restaurant thing... which cost me 10 bucks. ry led her friends to ny open house, while i went home.

Had to rush to NJ because i had the key, ended up tying banners and stuff. left to srgn macs to find raf & shafik. shafik bought fish! hEhE. he had to go off, we went to the fish shop to look at fish.. i felt like buying one to keep my lonesome fish company. raf and i walked to stadium to take 136 tgt with xt to chomp chomp. and we really ate a lot. hokkien mee (3 plates), carrot cake & 1 big jug of drinks. serene, ry and yq were there too, i went to join them for a while and eat sting raY! sorry for abandoning you guys!

Went to heartland again to meet edwin, who was quite pisst. And i, who was rather (very) tired, got pisst too. and i had no mood to tell him whatever i wanted to tell him, because it was meant to be a joke. anyway, we went to the arcade. xt and i played spot the diff, and after 4 rounds, qi xiao le. played daytona with xt, i won at the very last second! waha! then edwin played with xt, and she won at the very last second too! xt and i wanted to go off to watch the 9 o clock show (i already missed goong and charmed), we decided to take the risk and find a coffee shop to watch, and we did! oops. we were the only ones not eating there. then raf and edwin joined us, and we watched it till 10. lol. then we went home, and i fell asleep at 10.30.

14 oCtoBeR 2006
Nj OpEn DaY

BORING. SIAN. i almost fell asleep. the western dance was good tho. and i had the entertainment of ghis, anne marie and yiling every now and then. saw sam ard too. the emcees at the track were damn lame, i almost died of laughter!! although it was freaking lame. their jokes were really cold, but lame. and funny. i guess it is only know that i know why God put me in Nj, to find such friends who care abt you, and not only what u do. they dont leave u alone to die or boredom. aNYway, i waS siaN all the way till i received some entertaining msges from yibin and his days in BMT. lol.

I&R is due on monday. ARGH~

My blog rocks. My template rocks. And i think the 2nd prince is cute! waHA!~

i found an audition template on blogskins ytd, it was rather nice, and i gave the url to xt. she unexpectedly went mad over the skin, and was still going crazy over it last night. i find it a bit kiddy tho. hA. and no, i won't put it as my template. lol. or maybe i will? depends on whether anyone actually strongly hates the game. HA! i'll be freaking addicted to it if my com didnt keep restarting. maybe it's a natural deterrent.

school was empty today, no j2s, no mainstream ppl that are exempted from chinese, only IPs and us, idiots, who have to take chinese. we went back to go thru our exam papers. guess what? i did not bad. in fact, even better than for common test! and guess what? i only studied two days before the paper. and guess what? it's an A. (on the dot lar.) but what the heck...it's still an A. the last time i smelt an A was in sec2. i thought all hope was lost for the 2nd passage, but i ended up getting the highest out of all the 3 passages! my guessing skills are getting better. but then again, i must thank Him for the help thru my papers, guiding me as i did every question, and i believe He will help everyone who believes in Him only.

heard that it's econs tmr, but i won't be in school. good or bad? good: i dont get depressed. bad: my day is spoilt when i learn about my marks. hA. all i hope is that i dont fail. anywaY, it's founder's day svc tmr! going back in white, white, white. ry's going back. and i cant wait to see my level mates again! it's normal lessons tmr, and i'm glad i dont need to go, including prep for open day. talk about lazy. haa.

Vanity of vanities, all is vanity!~

Guess what? today is pw day. why cant they have marking day? anyway, i've been in a dreamy state the whole day. i slept thru the whole exams briefing, and woke up only in time to hear the impt parts, so basically i didnt know what the whole video thing was about. anyway, after that, my group took 10 mins just to create a ppt slide presentation. cool or what? we were seperated from the rest of our class, and we were the last to present. and you know what? we won the best presentation!! hAHA!! with anne marie, it's not surprising. our prize came in a tangs holder, so we thought we cld go shopping. HA. it was $13 worth of macs coupons. so each of us took $3 each. yaY! now it's pw all the way, and chinese also la. hA

i'm getting fraeking pisst over this. i choose to run away, as i always do. i dont want to face this problem. but then again, even if i do something about it, some wont listen. is there no hope for this? it should have just stayed like it was in the past. simple... and as one. not in cliques. i am far from comfortable. i only feel myself when i'm with the usual peeps. other than that, i put on a mask, a show, a very fake smile. i only find laughter and joy in certain things. 'I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, everyday of my life.' How true this is. One concluding word: WHATEVER.

but there's still one thing i find joy in, Him. throughout all the pain and sorrow, i know that He'll always be there for me. because God is omnipresent! He will help me thru, like He helped my thru the past seventeen years of my life. I'm glad to have a saviour and friend like Him. =)
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Tell the World

Don't want to stand here and shout Your praise
And walk away and forget Your Name
I'll stand for you if it's all I do
Cause there is none that compare to You

Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all i want in this whole world is you

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it's the truth that set me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by thy mercy and by thy grace

C'mon, c'mon we'll tell the world about You
C'mon, c'mon we'll tell the world about You

-Hillsongs

SaTuRdAy, 7 ocT 2006
HaPpY BiRtHdaY KriStLe!!

basically everyone who arranged to meet the day before woke up late except me. i had to give xt wake up calls, shafik was over at raf's place, and edwin couldnt go. so i was at home playing audition with my stupid com which keeps restarting while i'm in the middle of the game. PSI yesterday morning was 130, the sky outside was freaking hazy, and i didnt feel like going out. nevertheless, i did. i went to hg to attempt to find any of them, only to end up buying magnetic earrings for shafik. those big big bling bling ones. hAhA. when the 3 of them finally came, we boarded the train to harbourfront!!

met zongxia on the train. guess she was going to harbourfront as well. shafik and raf were playing with the magnetic earrings.. they both looked damn gay wearing it. raf esp. haha, we went to vivo city, currently s'pore's largest shopping mall. and yeah. it's big. but many shops havent really opened, including the food court and other restaurants! we saw many interesting things tho. and most of the shops were the up-market kinds, which reminded us of jaime. there was a rooftop thing to walk on, but it was hot and hazy, so we decided not to go. we walked thru the carpark, in search for food. raf said the car park was big enough to drift. and the technology used was so cool. anyway, we walked to harbourfront centre admist the increasing intensity of the haze. ate at the food court, had a hard time finding a seat.

xt had to go home to prepare for a wedding dinner, leaving me, raf & shafik. we met the girls in the mrt station. they were going to lin yi's house. we took 10 to somewhere, and on the bus, shafik and i were entertaining each other by msging here and there about stupid things. shafik was gaying with raf. haha. we stopped somewhere and boarded the 76 bus almost immediately, to find edwin on the bus! hAHa. what a coincidence. we walked to east coast park thru the haze again, it was so bad. we reached marine cove, and went to macs to find kristle.

then we walked to rent bikes, i kept kicking sand into edwin's slippers, but what i did to raf's and shafik's later was worse. haha. we cycled to the jetty, and on the way, thanks to edwin and shafik, who were asking me to turn left, turn right, turn left, turn right, i got confused. so i fell down. luckily just a few sratches. we stayed at the jetty looking at the little fish in the water, raf and edwin went to pick the girls, leaving shafik, kristle and i. stupid haze was getting worse. it was abt 140 by then. we cldnt even see the neighbouring country. after almost 1 hour, we decided to cycle back and find them on the way. we met them, the girls gave kristle a photo album, then we cycled to somewhere to cut the cake! ok.. the cake was really really sweet. haha. the guys were playing ball, then we started eating the cake. i was kicking sand into shafik's shoes, because he was wearing crocs.

then we cycled back, because we were already late in returning the bikes. for some reason, i decided to race shafik, probably for entertainment. and then i fell down again. haha. this time it was worse, my right knee was bleeding, but not very badly. shafik helped dress the wound. then we continued till we reached. i made them stop thrice throughout the whole journey. haha. they deicded to play volleyball at some grass patch. my plaster had come out by then, so edwin helped me dress it again. both times, i was screaming, not in pain, but because it was ticklish! sorry la. i'm ticklish on my right leg. haha. thanks shafik & edwin for the help with my wound!! =)

anyway, i sat there and watched them play monkey. after that raf, shafik and i went to get drinks at 7-11, shafik was shouting my name at the shop. argh!! hAHa. we went back, danica was learning to blade. so raf, shafik and i went to enjoy some music some local band was playing. well, the music was not bad. it provided me with some entertainment. we went back, this time, edwin was learning how to blade. and he took more than 1 hr, with raf's help. meanwhile, i was sitting with shafik and talking, staring into space and stoning. haha. seeing edwin falling made me laugh. oops. sadistic. haha. but he managed to get it in the end. i was playing ball with shafik b4 that, then the guys started doing soccer tricks. the girls had to go off, there was raf, edwin, shafik and i left. they went to look at some remote control cars and play with it. then we went to macs to eat dinner. edwin was begging me to buy the milkshake for him, he did some funny actions... which reminded me of my brother. yeaH. so i did in the end. raf and shafik were looking at cars again.

then we left to take a bus to heartland to meet xt. shafik cldnt stop singing tears in heaven. i wanted to sleep on the bus. we stopped to take 80, and the guys were talking abt unrequited love. tragic, depressing. we cldnt use the mrt to cross to the other side, and edwin wanted to buy water, so we went to sit at some shop, where shafik taught us some malay. lol. edwin wanted to know how to say 'my leg's very hairy' in malay... which turned out to be quite a laugh. we walked to the arcade, where we watched people playing max tune, then edwin played this shooting game, and shafik and i were stoning, both eyes closing while watching edwin shoot down the enemy. haha. xt finally came, so we went to macs to sit.

she brought this ring and string, supposedly to tell when you're attached, single or married. it was quite funny, and accurate to some extent. but then again, i would leave this kind of thing to God to decide yeah? i believe He has a plan for my life and what i'm going to do in the future, so i'll leave it all in His hands. =) we went outside to sit and play daidee, i won thrice!! yaY!! haha. xt, edwin and shafik won a few times too. raf was stoning alr. then after 2, edwin needed to go home, and so did i. raf and i had church in the next few hours, so we decided to go home. xt was angry because she tot we were toning... really sorry!! edwin and i shared a cab back to srgn, and by the time i reached home it was nearly 3am. and i ko-ed, till this morning, for church. sleepy..zZzzZ.

well, i'm not afraid to say that the best times of the whole day was with the older people, and of course, with raf, edwin and shafik gaying ard, making me laugh. good laughs are hard to come by, and i must say besides those times, my laughs were only half-hearted. shafik said i provided him with entertainment, and i must say they provided me with much too. it wld have been much nicer with xt's suaning & entertainment too, but no choice yea.

no person can predict the future. we can only hope. so treasure and enjoy all the times you have now.~

oh man!! i wanted to ka jiao yibin sir, but he disturbed me first! he has always come and ka jiao me first, since a few years ago, till now, and even in ns!! it's his first day..so exciting! hAhA. xt and i have been teasing him about being beng. and i still am. it's not everyday that you have a friend going to army... especially when you're this age.. so this brings back memories of my brother's years in the army. the excitement of being in tekong, the food (still disgusting, as i heard from yibin), the physical training. whooOo!!! suddenly i thank God i don't need to go thru ns.

anyway, i met xt today to go shopping! and yes xt...you better start studying!! met pearly on the train. and many other pl and jc people at ps. seems like promos for jcs are over, and everyone's going to havoc before the dreaded A's next year. anyway, we went to find darren loh.. saw him on tue, see him again. ha. ting started teasing him abt his ch name. haha. then we went to shop at ps.. walked ard and looked at skirts. white skirts. we went to eat kfc, xt did. then shop again. i managed to get a skirt. but it cost me 50 bucks, but i only paid twenty because mom sponsored 30. xt bought the top we saw the last time we were at ps, cldnt decide on pink or yellow, because raf and shafik said pink made her look lian. haha. she bought the yellow in the end.

we went back to find darren again. xt seriously teased him till he had nothing to say. he wanted to pull her hair. anyway, we went back to srgn, to find the hunks and the girls. we walked to glynnis' house, we called jaime on the way. we reached to see shafik real bored. haha. then shafik started singing 'the reason' to edwin in a gay way, and started harassing him. it was really damn funny. edwin looked like he had just been raped. haha. poor thing. what's best... xt videoed the whole thing down!! hAHa.

then the 3 guys, xt and i left, we walked to edwin's house and ate dinner, prata, while waiting for edwin to go home and change. then we were deciding on where to go meet tmr, raf was super wols as usual. he and shafik made all of us laugh like crazy, while edwin was standing there looking ravenous. anyway, xt went off, i walked with them to take the bus. they were going to a chalet, for bbq. shafik and i were singing 'you give me wings' at the top of our voices in the middle of the road. i came home to watch charmed and the last ep of the 9 o clock show!! so nice! ah whatever.

it's freaking hazy. how to ton tmr? i dun wanna die so early. thanks to xt, i think i'm getting addicted to audition. it's a lame game. but it beats doing nothing online.~

Chem spa. i am going to die of alcohol poisoning soon. we played with propanol and octanol. too bad it's poisonous. and so many people were having problems with the matches. i wrote all 7 points down neatly, and could even sit there and admire my handwriting. that's how much time we got. after that the guys started praising ms lim because she was going to mark the papers.

2 hunks asked me to go play lan... but i was going to meet yq... so i cldnt. the other hunk was at my place again. my place is a nice place to study. yay! anyway, there was supposedly a class outing, but zj didnt pass on the relay to me. THANKS AH. anyway, from my sources (it's actually ghis), i heard that few went. many went out with their gfs. since when do they have gfs?! haha!! anywaY. i took a train to chinatown point to meet yq. i still have no idea where she works. anyway, we went to eat at the hawker centre, i ate desert. she ate a late lunch all because of me. ha.

we walked around chinatown, admist all the haze. so now i'll die from alcohol and haze poisoning. she had to go back to work, but we walked ard chinatown point 1st, and we saw this alcohol shop... and we saw the whole collection of vodka fx, including the blue one xt is in love with. so we stood down there looking stupid and taking pictures. haha.

i went to heartland to meet the 2 hunks, met elisha on the way. poor raf cut his hand, so shafik dressed his wound for him. we went to macs to chill and stone. and i was basically laughing at some people. xt came while we we watched shafik eat, we've been doing that for 3 days now. usually the four of us. then we went home, i took 53 past pl. two words. concrete jungle.

going shopping for my white skirt tmr. damn it. white skirt.~

WhaT a beautiful day!! No school, no exams, no studying!!

Well, i knew it. Shafik forgot to take his hp charger back from me from ytd. so i had to meet him today. raf was sick so shafik had to take over his work. i met raf at the arcade, he was playing drums as usual. then we went to macs to wait for shafik, and we seriously made fun of raf. lol. some pl lites were staring at the 2 guys. haHA. shafik was 'friendly' enough to talk to them. we got bored. so we went to some place beside wols hq to slack. i was playing with raf's hp and was asking xt to get down there. lol. we were singing 'you give me wings' and 'i dream'.

shafik and i were playing table tennis and raf was throwing darts. shafik said s'pore vs malaysia. haha. he kept smashing. and imitating those china ppl! i cldnt stop laughing. then we went to find ting at macs, then took a bus to hg plaza. xt tot she lost her card when shafik actually took it. hA. lame. then edwin called, he was at xavier's place. isnt that my place too? hAha. yeaH. studying. good that he is. anyway, we played pool for 1 hour. shafik had to knock it down knock it down 20 for xt because he didnt believe that is was $6 per hour. then we played in pairs, whoever lost had to knock it down 10 each for the winning team, and so shafik and raf did it!! lol!! shafik fell asleep on the chair, i seriously have to improve on my pool! they played the tokyo drift song and i started hitting in many balls. haha. lame song.

we went to buy food, old chang kee, potato 'q' and went back to eat together with shafik. xt was trying to persuade jaime to go on sat for kristle's b'day, but to no avail. shafik too. argh!! hAhA. it's been 3 months since she's joined wols for any outings.

ok...i'm damn freaked out right now. i just finished telling edwin the whole story which i told shafik, raf, xt just now. and i'm damn scareD. and a bit disgusted. and freaked out. how i wish you were there to protect me and to comfort me. but what's the chance of that happening?

well, chem spa's tmr. i've been memorising the points. can you believe it? memorise points for a science practical. haha. guess it's just part of jc life. bye for now!!~

HELLO WORLD!! HELLO EVERYBODY!! I'M FINALLY FREE!!

update update. congrats to jeanette who did well for her prelims!! pl girls rock. haha. it's been a long time since i've felt happy for someone who did well. it's really by God's grace and His help. potential 6 pointer! i believe he will help her thru her o's, like He helped me.

papers.. econs: WE, 2ECQ, were shortchanged by 15 mins!! just because of a typo error. fifteen minutes is the time for ONE part of the essay! ARGH. so they decided to base our results on 42 instead or 50 and moderate from there.
maths: nj math teachers are really funny. and they love to put mr damian chee's name in it!! the correlation/regression question went something like...there's a new game called 'DAMIANCI CODE' in order to improve memory. HAHAHAHAHAH. i still cant stop laughing.
chemistry: it was ok. better than ct.
physics: screwed up mcq paper again. hopefully paper 2 will pull me up.

"ok... you all may go". that was a sentence of freedom man!! so after dragging for a really long time, we girls, me, ghis, fel, lyn, peiyi, tiff, stella, and some guys decided to go to ps to eat gelare waffles. we missed the 1st two buses, and squeezed on the last while talking loudly about everything under the sun, from harry potter, to the polka dotted trees on orchard road...to i dunno what. anyway, at gelare, i ordered a large waffle with chocolate overload ice cream on top with chocolate sauce. and i forced myself to finish it...cuz it was too sweet! anyway, i just blew 7 bucks on my lunch. haha. then we sat there for a long time talking about old cartoons and shows that we used to watch when we were growing up. we ended up laughing a lot.

some of them went home, some went for sakae buffet, gosh, sashimi! anyway...as for me... go home? NO WAY!! haha. after 2 months of mugging like shit...go home and stone? not for me. since i was at ps, i decided to pay darren loh a visit at his aunt's shop. oh...b4 that, we saw a shop selling basins... and this basin had a fish tank as a basin!! so cute!! then fish then the basin on top. argh!! so cute!! yeah..so i went to find him, he looked freaking bored. haha. so he was entertaining me by telling me all the gems, and abt a guy mistaking a housefly for a butterfly. lol!!

anyway, edwin called earlier saying he was bored at heartland. then after that in the train where he asked me to meet him and gly, ceo and danica. we went to buona vista. because cleo needed to find her ez link card. on the way, edwin was talking to jaime on the phone... then he passed it to me, so i ended up talking to her. haah. and teasing both edwin and jaime at the same time. buona vista, the memories of ac. haha. we decided to go back. i decided to go find darren again. but he was at the lan shop!! so i cldnt go in. i went to heartland, to shop upstairs while wating for shafik to come. he took 1h. so i was talking to xt on the phone. we went to join edwin and the girls again. edwin was sick...so he was stoning. he left for home to sleep. and shafik and i left for hg mall to find xt who was studying there.

we walked ard there, shafik found magnetic earrings and wanted to wear those. lol. we went to the library to find xt but cldnt. shafik in library. HAHA. he said he cldnt shout. anyway, we went up to the food court and sat there while talking abt np stuff. then we went to find xt at the other end. after she finished with her tuition, we went to macs. shafik cld finally break fast, so we ate. lol. i need to exercise!! after that i needed to go home. bleahs. haha.

and now i have a migrain. too much havocing. will be playing pool tmr!! and have to meet up with shafik again to give him back his charger. i have my whole of this week planned! muahahha! i am so not looking forward to next year. anyway...my eyes are closing... wols people are sick. raf came down with a fever, edwin's sick, xt too. poor things. get well soon!!~

MY GOODNESS!! Chinese and economics paper starts tomorrow and what am i doing online and blogging?!! Speaking about blogs, My attempted GP essay question for promos: Blogging: Boon or bane? It's quite obvious what my answer is.

Though i'm freaking stressed, worried and scared, i must saY there weRe a few moments for me to destress, on the phone. On sunday, edwin was studying with xavier downstairs again and i called him back, so i spent half an hour on the phone with him, while he walked home. ARGH!! my outgoing calls!! anyWAy, yeah. it was destressing to a certain extent, being able to tease him about...stuff. HAHA.

thEN two days ago, shafik called up when i was about to go to sleep to ask me whether i've died from promos yet. well, i havent. i appreciate the concern in trying to find out how i've been coping. and talking to shafik, how can one not laugh? so yeaH...i was laughing like mad, and he said talking to me made his heart pain probably because i cracked rather not funny and lame jokes due to studying too much. Well, anyway, it was good entertainment from these two 'hunks'... (well, i entertained the 1st one). Now, NO MORE FOOLING AROUND and get started with ECONOMICS REVISION!

oh yes, before i sign off, HADY WON!! whoOOoOooo!! i'm happy!! my bro made a bet with both my parents, my parents said jon would win because of his unique voice. well, but it turned out that hady garnered 70% of the votes that day!! now my brother has 30 dollars worth of food waiting for him. lol. but i think taufik's better at singing. hA.

All the best to me for promos! ~

studying. mugging. no going out. guilty. migrain.

WHATEVER.

i have been studying. and above is what i have been going thru. yea. i'm feeling guilty because i'm online and blogging and not studying!! ARGH. stupid mugger me. anyway, ytd morning i went to study with mel fong at the study room, it was freezing cold, so we decided to go up for lunch 2 hrs later. after that i met xavier in the study room. there were these kids making lots of noise...so i plugged in my earphones to study physics. then his frens came down and left, so i stayed till 7.30 with him, cuz i had to explain half the acsi mcq paper to him. haha. half of which i 4got.

anyway, was studying today when edwin called. well, he was downstairs with xavier and another friend studying, so i went down to dusturb them!! i was forcing edwin to study, who kept getting distracted every 5mins or so. and he said he'd make xt do maths if she fails her prelims. i'm gonna personally make sure he studies after my promos end. lol. yeaH...the study room was full, and they were studying at a place with no shelter. so i think they went to xavier's house b4 going down to the study room again. as for me, back to studying in the comfort of my own home...

ok... this coming friday's GP promos, b4 i have my 3 day study break, then promos, then HAVOC! yeah. looking fwd to that.~

Let's talk about ytd, the day i am supposed to stay at home and study the whole day. Well, i didn't. And i feel really guilty about it. AnywaY, in the morning, i found out that xavier was studying downstairs in the study room with edwin and another friend, so i went down to say hello. And i must say this is the 1st time i've seen him studying so seriously, so i only stayed for 5 mins. went back upstairs to study, and i almost died doing maths.. so i wondered back down to disturb xavier. edwin had left to 'help' his friends study.

i waS kind enough to buy prawn crackers for him and his friend... because their lunch was chocolate buns. poor thing. anywaY, he made me teach him a math. or rather, do the qns for him to examine. hAhA. he made me do integration (EEWWWW..integration!!) He was studying poa...i was disturbing him. kept talking to him.. anD i found out that he's damn funny and entertaining! hAhA. and he knows how to suan fishy. wonder who taught him? well anyway, was crapping with him and repeatedly saying that i was going to be late in meeting xt because at 1730h i was supposed to meet xt and at 1730h i was still sitting in the study room, talking to him. so he wanted to bet 15 bucks with his friend that i would say "i'm gonna be late" again. so his friend asked me to take 240 out, and i argued that it was 250, xavier was sitting in the middle wondering what 240 & 250 was. how wols can he get?!

yeaH. so i finally left him in peace and rushed up to change, to meet xt. and yes, she was late. so we both reached at the same time. we went down to ps, to find raf, shafik & darren loh at dar loh's aunt's shop. we found darren, and i must say he makes a good salesman. he does agressive promotion. lol. xt bought a pair of earrings, then we went to find raf & shafik, who were supposedly at clarke quay. they said they'd meet us back at ps, so we went up to the shop again. the gems were nice, colourful and hand-crafted. darren and his sis were pushing me to buy a pair of earrings too, so i took a long time to choose one, but not as long as the 2 hunks took to arrive. darren was talking abt diamond water..

when the 2 hunks finally arrived, they took their pay for the day and we abandoned darren. hAhA. oh, i met grace goh at ps. she was supposed to meet her friend at 8pm when it was only 6pm when i met her. talked to her for a while. shafik wanted to get a new line...so we were hanging ard the starhub svc centre. then he decided not to. because they got their pay, they were feeling generous and decided to treat us to dinner!! (or did we force them to?) we went to eat ljs, the waiters were shouting OKAY!!-hardgay style. so shafik and raf decided to join along. we ate the nachos&cheese, which wasnt the best i've eaten. anywaY, after that, we window shopped. basically both girls were looking at clothes and the 2 guys were getting irritated because we took so long. haha. we went back to give darren a box of nachos&cheese. then we walked to the cathay!! more shops had opened, altho it was still very empty. the addidas shop was big. we went up to the cinema lvl and sat there looking out into the street, really cool. took the lift, then walked to paradiz.

both guys found the arcade. -_-''' xt and i went to play the bang bang game. i won!! whEE!! but i still suck at the colours. hAHA. we went to play pool, which cost $7.20 per hour. shafik won all of us, maybe except for xt. we played for an hour, then went back to the arcade because raf cldnt resist the tempation. we played some shooting game, then daytona, the guys.. drifting again. lol.

by the time we decided to leave it was alr 11pm, ps seemed so far away. raf, xt and i took 147, shafik took 857. i was talking to raf abt jc vs poly..blah.. both of us stopped at srgn central, he took 82 home. and i came home and was unable to sleep. bleahs.

ok...study time. i cant wait to go out without feeling guilty. ~

Yet another two full days of studying. And i think for the last 48 hours, i havent stepped out of my house. but no, i havent been studying for the past 48 hours, i have been slacking most of the time, either watching kids central (result of having no cable), coming online and doing nothing, reading TIME magazine (which i nearly fell asleep) or holding my pen and staring into space, daydreaming of how it would be like if exams didnt exist at all.

So anyway, my left ear is giving me problems again. stupid eaR is blocked, and i get really really freaking irritated at it. And yes, i've tried digging it but it's no use. whatevEr. ARGH!! i'll probably have to sleep it out or let it be or complain to my mom and get an earful (but i'm half-deaf so i guess it's alright). but i still hate this feeling!! the more i blast my music the worse i feel.

Oh yea... congratulations to mrs goh for receiving the president's award!! So cool!! She's the only one featured in the Straits Times main paper with some pl-lites in the background! Yea, she does use different methods of teaching chinese but i still hate chinese. HahA. but it's still a proud moment for the school as well as her students. people still studying in pl would probably disagree, but then again, as many have said, it's only after you leave pl that you realise how sheltered pl is, and how you love it and miss it so much.

My eaR is irritating me. ARGH!!~