have songs ever reminded you of happy memories of the past? well... they have for me. some remind me of holidays.... during the dec break. therefore, i conclude that i'm in serious need of a holiday!!! i find myself thining of the times overseas.... and the different environment... doing things like shopping without worries. and the good weather! but that's not my point.

i realised i've missed out on many many trips overseas...during these few years. new zealand north islands and stuff. why? because i gave up the holiday for unecessary things here. parents told me that i was silly for not going. "holiday oso dun wanna go! ppl dont have a chance and you dun wanna go!" of course...at that time... i just shrugged it off. but now i realised.... i've missed out a lot. all because of some stupid unecassary stuff in school. no. it's not extra lessons. haha. extra lessons are impt and extremely necessary. i'm talking abt other things. things that u are excused from if u take a holiday.

true... i have some good times from these instances....but truly... which is more enriching and relaxing? of course a holiday. different environment, different "world". no stress, no worries. most of the time...tired from shopping and galavanting all around the country. how can anyone compare that to some stupid stuff here? sure... i will miss my friends here but that's only short term. i will come back. duh. i have no idea what came over me in the past. putting priority over something less essential...(not that a holiday is very essential). but certainly more fun and enticing than going to school or staying at home...worrying abt some stuff that's coming up.

well....what i have to say to this is: whatever. i will not put these things as a priority again. if i have the chance...i'll choose the holiday. unless i really "zou bu kai". but hey! i'm just a youth. what things in life can make me so busy until i cant even find the time to spend with my whole family overseas?

i think i'm going crazy. maybe it's the studying. we keep planning what to do after the exams. how i wish the exams was earlier! but certain people wont agree with me. haha. well.... back to school. for the last week. *cries*.~