i dunno. dunno where to pack what. alpha camp t-shirt is green. not that sort of nice green. yux. off to pack.~

46mins on the phone with huihua? talking crap 3/4 of the time. i dunno what to bring where. np u leave in rifle range? eRm. so we're going frm camp?!?! dirty!! and shoes. hmM. 1 pair for mud games. track shoes...do i have to leave another 4 sat? aHh!! going mad. nvm. i'm excited. did the banner already. quite nice. hEE.~

saturday couldnt be more tiring. morning drills. well. i think it's more interesting than doing normal foot drills. tests on coordination. anyway, there's this service thing next week!! *cries* why!! *sings* my alpha camp!! well, i'm not sure how the plan is like. but no need to clean up. hEE. let's see...if we really are gonna go frm there, i dunno. we're gonna be so dirty. wEll..stuck in the middle again. wed aft EIA sec3s have alpha camp briefing as well as the np thingy briefing. tell me what's gonna happen! aHh!!

ha. the grps 4 the np thingy. all split. i'm with dunno which sec1, cherina and jin ling ma'am. muAhAhA. pt. spilt into 5 grps again. and i was with cherina again?? dotS. this is not on purpose!! and doing the pumping thingy. she was infront of me. i cldnt get up cuz she was pushing me down!! and i had to push huahua down. she kept laughing said it was ticklish cuz of my breathing. dotS...

i just realised. the 2 hr break in btwn sux. i was totally bored outta my mind. nth to do. well..i haven't experienced this b4, since for the past 2 months we've been haveing cc trainings, flagday, shooting and all kinds of stuff that took up that 2 boring hrs. yes. another problem. np thingy on sat. go 4 violin aft sat or go on tue? sat they said wanna go eat eat play play cuz of the treat. LaAaA.

let me tell you a fact. doing longarithms may be fun to some...but after that u feel like dying!! and i 4got what i did after that few hrs. i spent an hr doing my hmk. figuring out how to get the proper equation. and i cant remember it now! but what to do. no pain no gain. a maths reminds me of ytd. ms lau was crap!! she crapped lotsa stuff out!! we all started laughing like siao!!and she started telling us abt her whatever stories. damn crap!! and telling us abt her being stressed bcuz she was taking a sec4 class this yr again. hA.~

i'll blog 1st. b4 i get to IPW. i don't know. wo gan dao hen mao dun. well...yeaH. congrats to all those who got their rank. weLL..i dont know why. but i didnt really feel happy that i got promoted. yes. happy but not overjoyed. like when we found out abt cc results. whether i deserve the rank or not i'll leave it to others to judge. but i feel that there are some who unbelievably got the rank. i dunno la. don't know whether they deserve it or not. i know some really deserve it. but those who like. were not serious or who didnt really kow their drills well. i dont know. i think i'm going crazy over studying chinese.

ergH. i have no time to do anything to my blog. heY. forever friends is cute ok. hmF. i'll change my template when i have the time.~

busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. busy. ~

A new term has started and i promise to do better for my exams. That means revising everyday.

Meanwhile, i wont have much time to blog this week because i'm busy doing up my IPW. Dearest blog, don't miss me!!~

mOOD: tiRed
mUzIk: -
tAlkiNg: -

lAa. i woke up at 7.20 today. to go down to pa to view the finals. we were late. yes. the girls had already pitcheD *cries*. actually we thot that all was done. hah. until we heard this CI say "captains get ur equipment ready!!" and we started running in. met up with ting, beishan and yenkeng later. dunt know where they came frm. ma'am zhenying asked us..."come and see boys only right!! come so late. girls finish liao." hEE. yes. so let me ask. is cedar getting 2nd a good thing or a bad thing? "zhe jian she ling wo gan kai wan duan" dunt know whether to feel happy or sad. sad...cuz is area5!! haha. hMm..but zhonghua!! *cries* why get 6 & 7? we thot they'd get top 5! we were so sad for them.

so we went to long johns j8 to eat. oops. i think i'm fat. grace and i went 4 the 2nd violin class...since we were late ler. ting, me, beishan and yenkeng were sitting down talking while they went "shopping". so grace and i went 4 violin. omg!! only joanna was there 4 the 2nd grp!! if we came 4 the 1st..she'll be the only one in the 2nd grp!! sEE. we came late to accompany you. haha. yes. eRR..i had to wait 4 beishan to come? took so long. my mom was scolding. jaime came too. yeAh. they were more or less playing games at minipclip.com. beishan cldnt get thru. hEE. oh yes. guess what!! i told my mom that beishan was my classmate! my mom said that she didnt look like my senior. oops. hEE. *knock it down!!* anyway, yeah. then she was playing the piano. ok. i am now jealous of grace and beishan. why are they so good aH? then we talk talk until abt 7...they went home. on the way back my mom said that beishan looks younger than me. oh man!! hAhA. well. i'm tall what!! hEE. *i'm so bhb*

sigh. my dad's gone to Rome. italy!!i want pasta!! mMmMm. yuMm. pasta's my good friend. rice isn't.

ok. so the hols are almost over. dun talk abourits. i hafen done all my hmk. neither have i let my mom sign my CA results. i'm gonna die~

moOd: ...
mUzIK: -
tAlkiNG: bEiShAn, tinG, wEihAo siR

eRm. i guess we're going down to pa tmr? weLL..good luck top 10s!

call me selfish or whatever la. but i just dun feel comfortable with the whole pl cc team down tmr. it's like...quite out of place isnt it? suddenly pop up one whole team. if i were a finalist i wld be like. "siao ah. not top 10 oso wanna xtra xtra whole team come down" at least a few. easy to keep low profile. hAhA. whatever la. i just dun feel comfortable. and wear pt kit? hot until die. still needa go violin. back to school. hA. yeah. i dunno la. like the whole team going i dun wanna go lei. violin's another prob. sorry i'm so selfish or whatever la.~

mOoD: ??
MuZiK: fAlliNg dOwN/ aVriL
tAlkING:

talk about murphy's law. i went out without an umbrella. *looks at the sky* hMM. not much clouds...won't rain. and what happened? it rained.

weLL, i went for piano lesson. teaChEr was talking abt instruments of the orchestra. talked abt mallets for the xylophone. malletS!! *rings a bell* then she talked about how the violin was abt to produce different sounds. by tension. tEnsIoN. *rings another bell* duh. campcrafT!!!! i almost wanted to shout out..."cAmPcRaFT!!" hA. well, it's march 18. 19days afteR the prelim rounds. i'm staRting to miss the pole, the malina and the flag. so many things have been happening after the comp. shooting, flag day, promos (dun talk abt it). i guess there's not much time to think abt CC. huihua's making the cc t-shirt...hope it comes up really well!! cc finals is this saT. i feel like going down to waTcH!! watch the top 10. what makes them different from the rest. what makes their 3 things so nice. haha.

Homework check:
English compre
chinese lian bi
math WS
A maths 10-yr series
Chemistry WB
Physics 10-yr series
Social studies SEQ
Social studies source-based
Geog WB~

i had a weird dream last night. i dreamt abt atc. maybe i'm too excitied abt alpha camp and atc. Ha. each are fun in its own way. but one's certainly dirtier!!~

mOoD: hAi.
mUziK: -
tAlkiNG:
wAtchiNg: pOliCe aNd tHieF

today is march the 16th. i havent blogged for 3 days.

dont talk to me abt my promotion test. let's see, i was the 1st to be called, got so tensed, screwed up both my drills and moi. now you know the reason why?

hA. wenT tO grace house. well...she showed us this movie. i didnt wanna go home yet. cuz once i do, i'll start thinking abt....yA. that thing. and that's what happened. i walked to the mrt...thot abt it. mrt..thot abt it. bus...thot abt it. walked home....thot abt it. practise piano....thot abt it. anyway, yeah. back to what i was saying. this movie was really touching. was abt this city boy who went to stay with his ah mah in the country side. at 1st...he looked down on his ah mah. after that he learnt to accept her aft his ah mah did so many things 4 him.

so touching. i think this story sld have a biblical tale behind it. sEE, God is like the ah mah. and we are like that boy. we may be not willing to accept him now. and even treat him so badly. but whatever we do, he nv gives up on us and makes lots of sacrifices for us including dying on the cross. altho sumtimes we may blame him or others 4 sumthing that happened, but he's always willing to take the burden for us. Hmm...Touch ministry sld make a story abt this. hAA!! too bad i'm not in Touch youth!! hAhA~

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One Day

More than I can hope or dream of
You have poured your favour on me
One day in the house of God is
Better than a thousand days in the world

So blessed!
I can't contain it
So much
Just gotta give it away

Your love has taught me to live now
You are more than enough for me

mOoD: aHh! sCaReD!!
muzIk: -
tAlking: yENkEnG mA'aM

aHh!! thunder and lightning!! i scAreD! so loud!! i think God's angry with Singapore. dad says malaysia hardly rained while s'pore was flooded. and now..hMm..

flag day, well...it was fun!! we went to heartland. at 1st...we thot...what the..heartland of all places? jealous of those who went to orchard!! but in the end we realised that heartland was quite fun. and so big. and so many ppl!! but i'm really envious of SHY...collect so much!! haha. me, xt and nicole kept walking around. waH. tired. but it's fun walking around. now i fully sympathize with those who have to do it. well..getting rejected is so...what can i say...saddening!! hAhAhA..but bus stop is the best. so many buses, so many people. muahahahaha. managed to collect quite a lot. we went as far as NTUC. and guess what xiaoting did. she pasted the sticker on the cat!! and we started laughing like siao!! ok. so she's a bit not right. haha. we were most of the time at the mrt station towards the end. took 113 back to school.

MOI...i dunno. i dunno what i dunno. i think i need to memorize everything! i think i can get the procedure right. now it's the content!~

mOoD: gEttiNg pIssT
mUzIk: iNsAtiAblE/ dArrEn hAyeS
tAlkinG: tiNg

eRgH. my mom's nagging abt things again. i hafent even shown her my result slip! oops. weLL...mrs tan wasnt happy with my english results...she thot tht my eng was better last yr. oh thank you!!

i feel that i can write a thousand word essay on the topic i'm gonna talk abt. here goes:

is the world changing? let me give u a situation. C works 6 days a week, so hard and finally gets some good results. N works only 1 day a week, much less hours than what C has put in. they both benefit the company but N's progress is not very good. However, because of face, the company gives N a big reward leaving C with nothing. it all depends on C's performance to get even a small reward.
who puts in more effort? whose results are better? who works longer hours? obviously you can tell. just because of face that they give N the reward?

similarly, who stayed back 6 days a week to train, who got 19th position a tremendous improvement. who earns more uopa points for the unit? we deserve to be rewarded. but who gets it in the end? the other grp. after 3-4 months of training this is what we get? and what do the others get? an automatic promotion? just because most are ptes and we dun wanna throw face? yo. with their drills like that how can they not throw face? a rank does mean that ur drills are up to a certain standard. but some dont even meet this standard. heard that they threw face in front of cedar? cedar of all schools. so what does this tell? having a rank just like that wont prove that ur drills are good. if u show your drills with a rank and it's not up to standard, isnt that more throw face? seriously, their marching wasnt coordinated the last time we saw them. after 3 months of training they produce this type of result? yo.i dun think our team is that bad!

yeS. some were very happy because of our results. those were and are the ones who really cared abt us and helped us thru. but some, dont even aknowledge the fact that we did pretty well, hey just grumble every training session that they need the key so that they can rush off somewhere. these only care abt themselves. and not the welfare of the ppl. these are the ones who are biased and favour the other. did they ever talk to the cct? or even say just a "well done". no! but they care so much abt the other. that they even decide to reward them just like that. have they ever asked themselves what the consequences are? some may become proud and cocky. some may show off. i'm not saying all...but just some.it's not fair for those who went last year and didnt get anything.

yes. i know that we earned less uopa points. i have my infering skills. i know lots of people side them. well that's too bad. ccT aLL the waY!

we have our opinion and you have yours.~

mOOd: cOlD!!
mUzIK: hAI dAO/ jOliN tSaI
tAlkiNg:

i'm growing fatter again. it's time i took note of my diet again. but i'm still feeling cold. it's been raining these few days esp today, it rained heavily exactly at 1.45! it probably doesnt like pl gals, cuz most taking 53 went up the bus half wet. every1 was rushing up the bus.

wEll yes. my CA results, are either high or low. i seldom get Bs, only As and Cs!! C!!! hEllO? thAt's bAd. I, promise to work harD from term2...nono. March hols onwards. yEs. i WILL do well for my SA1. i WILL get more As, few Bs and no Cs!

2a2`03 bOrN tO bE tHe beSt. we're coming up with yearbk. was asked to write some things...that's when i started thinking sbt all those memories again. on the bus. the times we laughed together, had activities together, cried together, and stayed up with mrs tan till 4am and crapped. dun ask me which class is bettEr. i cant be biased. i've only been in 3a2 for 3 months. but yeah. 3a2 is coming up to be another crazy class...since our FT is mrs tan. and with some mad people who keep making us laugh!! but we're still quiet in some lessons! -oops- well, i guess this is the natural reaction from "chill-ren nowsadays" we'll see by the end of next yeAr. yeAh.~

my CA results are either extreme high or extreme low.~

mOOd: stiLL coLd!!
muzIK:-
TalkIng: tinG, cOnsTancE
WaTchiNg: pOlicE & tHieF

my feet are still colD!!

LaAaA. i just realised that our class is damn SLOW in everything. a maths, math, chinese, SS...whatever.

anyway, violin today. me, grace, vivian, wanzhen took cab down to funan. thank god it's not MSM! bukit timah? naH. eH. it was ok lar. grace didnt go 4 tuition in the end i think. dr wong wanted to treat us ice kachang but too late ler. hehe. we'll take a raincheck.

poilice and thief so funny!!~

mOOd: sO cOlD!!
mUzIk:-
tAlking: tinG, feliCiA

omg i'm so damn cold!! it has been raining...and i'm so cold!! wind blows..bRrRRr. i'm covered in blankets now. too cold. but i love it. what to do. singapore's too hot. this is one of the days.

pl didnt go to school today. jealous? so i went 4 piano early in the morning. then...celene's house. ok. so her house was damn big. had a home theatre system. played x box...then went to j8 to eat. ahHH. i whole day out la. erM. ting xie die liao. i didnt bring back my tB!~

mOOd: tireD
muzIk: fInd uS faitHfUL
taLkinG:-

ok. so i was too busy to write tis ytd. yes. busy talking and going crazy. 19th for campcraft!! that's an improvement of 40+ 2 years ago! top 20!! aHhHh!! well done cc team!! all our months of hard training hasnt come to waste. our aim is to get into top 10 in 2006!! seoul garden and cc t-shirt here we come!! campcraft team 2004 you rock!

sports day. i reached at erm...6.45? talk abt typical singaporean. haiz. lee house!! got 3rd leh!! so embarrassing!! *cries* congrats to archer 4 the cheerleading. i was a judge. helping to judge who came in 1st...2nd...quite fun la. we were sitting in the shade all the time.haha. ma'am zhenying came to run 4 the ex-pl lits thingy. she showed me and grace the cc paper results!! 19th out of 122 girls teams!! aHhHhHh!! so happy!!guess she was really happy too. haha. yeah. we were talking to her over at the shed. guess what? np got 1st 4 the inter UYO relay!! wHoOoOo!! i was the most enthu at that moment.

well...waiting to shoot took a long time. we were most of the time talking. and i was trying hard to keep myself calm. well...hMM...wonder what weihao sir did to xiaoting. poor sqdmate. ok. i think i did a lot of mistakes. a lot. the officer in charge of me happened to by my oc, mrs koh. well...haha. i got lots of scoldings frm her. i was so nervous i 4got to bring the table with me!! oops. hehe. well....17 got into the box. where did my last bullet go? cldnt be found!! oh no!! oh bullet...where did you go? quite fun actually. i can still smell the smell of the gun now lor. congrats to vanessa, got the highest. wHoOo!! but i cant believe it. i got my badge. nono. is this a dream? i wasnt sure whether i wld get it or not. but yeah.

to ting, jaime, diy: dunch cry ler la. the badge is just one thing. wun affect ur promotion will it? yes. so cheer up. think of cct!! yAy!! not passing is not the end of the world. must laugh laugh. haha. jaime and diy brightened up at mac. started laughing. haha. i so love siewling. she was still as cheerful. =)

i love the number nineteen. no one to snatch away frm me!! 1st, my code is #19. 2nd, campcraft got 19th! 3rd, i was the 19th person on the list 4 shooting today. 19 19 19 19 19 19. this is a nice number. a prime number. so it's unique. hahaha.~

mOOD: K laR
mUzIk: rEN xiNg/ sTeF sUn
tAlkinG: xuE eR, cHerinA

bloggIe!! did u miss me? i didnt blog ytd. blog says yes. aWwWw....so sweet!!
nah. i was pisst ytd. didnt feel like writing. moreover, i had essays and things to type out.

ok. like i'm suffering frm pms. i'm in a i-have-no-mood-to-talk mood. but i spent half the lit lesson laughing. well...i'm not supposed to say it out or my partner will kill mE!!! hEhEhEhE!! oops. anyway...i think mrs koh finally got my name correct. she started calling me, grace and belize "belize" ytd. and we were like..."no...i'm leanmay..." haha. but i think i prefer the name "malvolia" to "malvolio!!" hAhAha!! sounds so sissy!! oops.

and...well...we had 2 lessons in the lab today. 1st...we were more of surfing friendster and adding friends than doing research. and erm...second...we were doing the game. haha. we cldnt find the last one.

dry shoot. ok la. i'm getting the double action thing. it's quite nice to know. nice and comforting.

i haveto report at 7am tmr.~

mOOd: haPPy laR
muZiK: bReaThleSS/ cOrrS
tAlkinG: tinG, weIhaO siR

i cant write this out. i cant. i'm ordered not to.

what sld i write then?

i dunno.

lit essay not done.~

mOOD: oWwW!
wAtchinG: poLicE and tHieF

oh man. my two feet are killing me. all because of what? 2km. my left leg, i sprained it while running. and now it hurts like mad. i cant walk. how am i supposed to go to school tmr? my right leg. i have 2 blisters, one damn pain one at the small toe and one on the other side. ok. i cant walk now.

Lord, please heal my left leg. i dun mind blisters..but i have to walk!

This is the 1st time in 2 months that i reached home at 2.30pm!! tht's so early. it's been a long time. hAhA.

when's the results gonna be out? i wanna know. no. the whole team wants to know.

tonS of hmK~

mOOd: k laR
muziK:-
tAlkinG: yEnkEnG, chErinA
wAtchiNg: dUnnO? hA

aHh. i dunno. let's sEE. morning jog. more like run. hA. 100m la. run loR.

lessons...class was dull...until mrs tan came in. she really lights up our day. with her funny eyes!! xiaoyan was laughing like crazy. we all were..until mrs tee came in and said we were making a lot of noisE! hEE. class next door was having test. oops. muahahahaha.

so i went 4 piano at 3.45! early man! and finished early...and when i reached home...it felt so strange. i guess i've gotten used to reaching home late.

i guess i'm really starting to miss cc trainings. the grass at the quadrangle looks better now. after it rained ytd. well...it's back to going home everyday. hey. not yet. dry shoot's coming up. come to think of it...the only day which i will return home early is tmr!! hAhA.

back to lit essay~